I've been hearing from Jae since that day at her place last week. Her texts are so sweet asking me how my day is going and that she's thinking of me. I've just been responding automatically letting her know that I'm good, but the reality is...I'M FREAKING OUT! Sometimes during the day when I should be working, I find myself smiling. No reason. Just smiling and thinking of her. The worst is when I catch myself humming Katie Perry's song, I Kissed a Girl. I did like it. I liked it a lot. Now I'm this humming, smiling freak fantasizing about this woman when I have an asshole boyfriend to contend with.
I haven't spent any time with him either. Of course we do the daily phone calls that all couples do, but I've been really busy at work. He's not that busy since he quit his job because it was stressing him out. He's not looking for another one yet because he still needs to recover from the one he quit. I know. I've got myself a winner! He's not all bad. He did call me later that night after cancelling our plans to tell me that he missed me. Although at that point he was drunk and possibly high...I'm not sure, he was hard to understand. Besides, I had other things on my mind.
Jae and I spent the entire day on that couch. Words can't express how it felt having her hold me. Her hands were like magic on my body. Wherever she touched me, I felt like I was melting. She didn't push or try to do anything that would have made me feel uncomfortable. We just caressed each other and shared a few kisses. I couldn't have asked for a more pleasurable and romantic day. My only complaint is that it wasn't with the right person. Don't get me wrong. Jae is great. She is. She's just great. Really. She's funny, smart, attractive, sweet, witty, eyes you can get lost in, skin so smooth and creamy like milk chocolate, lips that are full and soft when pressed against mine, beautifully sculpted hands that know just where to touch me next, a voice so silky that when she whispers my name I become instantly moist...
Anyway! I meant that although she's great, I'm in a relationship. And I'm not really gay. It was just a bad day to spend time with her since I was kind of upset. She was being so sweet and things just happened. It was just a onetime thing. We're due to get together tomorrow, I'm sure things will be normal. It'll be just two friends hanging out.
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"Hey Sweetness..."
"Jae! You can't call me that."
"It's who you are to me."
"You know I'm in a relationship."
"I know that you aren't being appreciated."
"Jae!"
"I don't want to talk about him. I just called to make sure we're still on for tomorrow."
"Why wouldn't we be?"
"I could tell that you were...nervous. I want you to know that I care about you and won't push you to do anything you're not ready for."
"I know. Being with you the other day was unexpected. I was feeling down on myself, and you made me feel...special. Wanted.
"Sweetness, you are special. And you are wanted. I want you..."