As she drove home that morning, Wanda Catron was a confused woman. The emotions in her heart and the thoughts in her mind were at war, and all she could do was wait and see which side won.
Wanda was 18, and just out of school. Never a strong student, Wanda had decided to take a year off from schooling. She was working at the local Wal-Mart, and it was there that her current confusion had started.
She was cashiering earlier that day when her favorite teacher, Ms. Franklin, came through her line. Ms. Franklin had been her English teacher in 10th and 11th grade at Independence High, and was a very beautiful woman as well.
Her blonde hair hung to her shoulders, and was currently swept off her face by a ponytail. She was young for a teacher, only 28, and dressed like the kids off the BYU Campus. Today's apparel consisted of a short blouse, hanging just above her belly button, and hip hugger capris. Her belly button was adorned with a small diamond, and through her tight shirt, Wanda thought she could see the outline of nipple rings.
Wanda immediately shook that thought out of her mind as she checked out Ms. Franklin. As she worked, she made the usual small talk ... How are you, what have you been doing, anything new, etc. Ms. Franklin, Wanda knew, was unmarried, and Wanda had spent many an evening at Ms. Franklin's home, getting special tutoring to improve her grades. Ms. Franklin had taken a special interest in Wanda as well, though she had not told the teenager about that interest yet.
Wanda was a beautiful woman herself. Short, at 5-5, but bosomy, with 38c breasts and a large butt as well. Wanda was a Puerto Rican-American mix, as her father had married a Puerto Rican in New York before moving to Utah. Wanda's looks came from her mother, though. Her father had died six years before, and Wanda lived at home with her younger brother and sister.
As Wanda and Ms. Franklin talked, catching up, Wanda finished checking and bagging her groceries. "That's $56.79, Ms. Franklin," Wanda announced when completed.
Ms. Franklin paid Wanda, then said, "Wanda, what time are you off work today?"
"5:30, Ma'am," wanda said.
"Please, dear, would you come over and have dinner with me tonight?" Ms. Franklin said. "I've enjoyed talking with you again, and I'd love to continue this conversation later."
"I'd love to, Ms. Franklin," Wanda gushed. In truth, she had enjoyed seeing her favorite teacher again, as well.
"You remember where I live?"
"Yes, Ms. Franklin, I remember."
"OK. See you about 6 tonight, And please, Wanda, call me Anne."
"I will, Ms. Franklin ... Anne. See you tonight."
All the rest of the say, Wanda's mind whirled with excitement. Her favorite teacher had invited her to dinner. Wanda idly wondered if the rumors about Ms. Franklin ... Anne ... were true.
Wanda had reason to wonder. Two years before, she had determined that she, Wanda Catron, was a lesbian. During lunch, when she could remember more vividly, Wanda's mind flowed backwards to her sexual beginnings ....
Wanda had tried having boyfriends. She dated a series of different boys her first two and a half years of high school. Despite the variety of boys available to her, she was never satisfied with them. Not their kisses, not their pawing attempts to feel her growing breasts, nor their sexual innuendos in their cars during dates.
The closest she ever came to sex with one of these boys was the time she jacked Tommy Bigelow off. But even as his penis grew in his hands, and all too quickly spilled its seed over her fingers and her hastily-grabbed handkerchief, Wanda found no satisfaction.
In fact, her mind wandered over to her best friend, Nancy Stanton. Nancy had been over to Wanda's for a study night the previous Tuesday, and the teens' talk, as always, turned to boys. Nancy wanted to date boys, but was shy. She always found herself hanging out with Wanda and whatever boyfriend Wanda had that month.
"Wan, how do you get so many boys interested in you," Cara asked.
"I don't know," was Wanda's reply. "They love kissing me, and I think they expect more than kisses back, but I don't really want to ... you know ... yet." Wanda's face was turning red, a common occurrence when Nancy and she spoke of boys.
"Oh, come on, Wan. Boys like kissing you?" Nancy was skeptical.
"They must, Nan," Wanda replied. "They kiss me a lot."
"What's that like? Kissing a boy?"
"Every one of them are different, Nan. Some of them kiss so hard, it feels like they're pushing my lips through my teeth. Some of them open their mouths so wide, I think they're trying to swallow my nose. And some of the kisses I can barely feel, they're so gentle."