This story is a work of fiction. The main characters are all imaginary. However it is interwoven with real people, places and events.
Some readers may remember Vix as a character in Savour Me Part 3, and that episode is revisited during this first part of Vix's story.
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I never liked my name. Victoria. Whenever I think of it, my mind flicks to that fat, sour-faced Queen of England, dressed in frumpy black. As early as I can remember I wanted to get rid of it. I think my mum and dad would have been happy if I had adopted "Vicki" but once I was in junior school some of my friends started calling me "Vicks" and, by the time I was in secondary, I had restyled it to "Vix" and that has firmly stuck. I have embraced "Vix".
The name is my mum's fault. When she was a struggling musician on the USA's west coast, she was spotted and befriended by Vicki Peterson of The Bangles, who championed her as a vocal talent and brought her to the attention of influential contacts, resulting in her career taking off. Mum always felt a debt of gratitude to Vicki, so when I was born....Victoria it was.
Apart from being saddled with a crappy name, I'm a lucky little bitch really. My parents are rich; Dad is Jack Standen, lead singer, songwriter and guitarist of the successful British rock band The Chootes, and Mum is the million-selling American singer Tessa Marshall, so by any standards my family is loaded.
Dad came from a working-class background though; it was always important to him to keep me firmly grounded, and his no-nonsense, unpretentious philosophy has definitely formed the core of my personality. For a rich kid, I'm pretty down-to-earth, I think.
Having said that, my parents didn't deprive me of anything, or place artificial restrictions or repressions on me. I was brought up to believe that life was for living and we should embrace all the joy we can get out of it. Having money just makes that a bit easier, that's all.
So, I learned to play guitar (of course) piano and saxophone, got into mountain biking, and later motorbikes and cars. I guess in that respect there's a bit of tomboy in me. I also bought myself a boat. We live on the banks of the Thames, near London, so boats have been a part of my life since we moved there when I was only 5 years old.
Dad had spent time in the US, where he met Mum, and I was actually born there, but as soon as they were both career-secure, Dad brought Tessa over to the UK to live. She's always been a bit of an Anglophile anyway.
As a youngster, I was only interested in playing my instruments, singing, riding my bikes, and kayaking on the river, and I guess I was a slow starter, sexually. I don't really remember having any sexual feelings until I was in 6th Form. It was around then that I started touching myself in my bedroom, and discovered what sexual pleasure was. Previously, I'd spent a lot of time practicing my guitar licks, but then I found something that was finger-licking good and there was no going back.
This was truly a time of wondrous discoveries, like wet orgasms (I found to my great joy I was a squirter) and multiple orgasms. OMG. Once I found that I could come over and over again there was no stopping me. I would drive myself to O after O, only stopping when tenderness and sensitivity made my clit untouchable and there was a curious ache in my abdomen.
After a session like this, I would sleep super-deeply, and have fantastic erotic dreams, then wake up so hungry I was like a ravening beast, raiding the kitchen. My mum thought it was just the normal hunger of developing teens, and maybe it was. All of it.
As my body developed, I began to see myself more and more as a sexual creature, and an attractive woman, though I was a little disappointed that I hadn't quite inherited my mother's curves. Mum is a bit taller than me, more busty, and very sexy. My dad has great taste.
Still, my figure was good, and I soon started attracting the attention of boys, which led to my first sexual experience in the store room of the college gym. He seemed OK and I was feeling horny, so I thought 'why not.' It was a horrible mistake. A rushed, clumsy, fumbling affair, which I don't think lasted much more than a minute. It wasn't just disappointing, I really didn't like it. When he kissed me afterwards, my natural reaction was to recoil, and I wondered why. It wasn't meant to be like this, was it?
In fact, if didn't take me long to realise I didn't fancy boys at all, but I was more and more excited by girls or, to be more accurate, women. I found I especially liked older women, like Dad's keyboard player Lindi. I guess she was around 40 (i.e. more than twice my age) when I first took a sexual interest in her but she had a great figure, with long legs and a very impressive cleavage that I couldn't take my eyes off.
Dad has a small studio at the back of the house, so band members were regular visitors and whenever Lindi came I was all agog. I'm sure I blushed whenever she looked at me. She always wore tight trousers and very revealing tops and I realised I had a massive crush on her. I even started watching YouTube videos of Dad's band, just to get a glimpse of her.
I think she knew I had the hots for her and she would deliberately sit next to me on the sofa, and pat my leg, or flash me a sexy smile. Quite often, I'd have to go to my room to get myself off, just from seeing her.
I obviously realised by now I was gay, and I was cool with that. I didn't think there was anything wrong with being a lesbian, or even fancying the pants off older women, but I was a bit freaked when I realised I was also getting turned on by my mum. I found myself trying to get sneaky glimpses of her getting dressed, or in the bathroom, and once, I saw her kiss Lindi on the cheek as she was leaving. The sight of the two of them together sent a jolt straight to my clit. Oh God, I needed another wank...
My lesbian libido wouldn't stay quiet though, and I found myself fantasising about fucking Lindi, and even my own mum, more than once. Very often in these fantasies, I was very domme and they were very sub. It was a recurring theme; queening older women. Not normal, I'm sure, but harmless enough if I kept it purely in the realm of fantasy, which I did.
After college, I went on to university to do a BA in music, and it was just my luck that I had a lecturer on the course who was a real sexpot. Mrs Knight, who insisted we call her Kate, was very busty, and always wore tops that looked like they were about to burst at the seams or the buttons pop off at any moment. She was quite obviously very proud of her tits, and it wasn't just the boys that got hot under the collar over them. I remember she was helping me with something one day, leaning over my laptop and pointing at the screen. Those big breasts were inches from my face, crowding me, and I could feel the warmth of her body and smell her womanly scent. I had to excuse myself and rush to the toilets to get myself off, I was so frigging horny!
My libido was raging, and my fantasies about older women were achingly intense. I needed to do something! I thought about trying to seduce Kate. She might have latent lezzy desires and I was an attractive and sexy young woman. It was worth a try. I also considered coming on more strongly to Lindi, but then I realised that starting an affair with my dad's keyboardist was probably a bad idea. Think of the trouble that could cause.
In fact, a real, serious relationship with a woman 20 years older was unlikely to work, for many reasons. I realised it was just a fantasy, and I tried to shelve it. It was persistent though, and wouldn't go away. I started trawling the web for any advice or case studies I could find, and that's where I stumbled upon Olivia.