I lift myself weakly up on my elbows from my recumbent position, and looking down between my splayed legs I see Ellie standing submissively at the bottom of the massage couch. Ellie. My new lover. Formerly my masseuse, nineteen, hot, and just a few minutes ago her skilful hands were straying to places most of us can only dream of when we're on the couch. Now as I look at her I can see that her face is still honey-slick from lapping me to a beautiful orgasm.
Normally I am slow to recover, like a volcano that has erupted with such power that only a little flame still burns in the core. Normally.
But then sometimes the circumstance and the experience combine alchemically and my orgasm simply transports me to another place, and I am transformed into an almost wholly sexual being, every whim and desire transfigured into an all-consuming need. Alchemy is dangerous. People get burned.
My eyes rest on Ellie. She is so sweet, five foot something with her chocolate-brown hair tied neatly back in a professional ponytail.
"Come here," I say softly, and she pads around to the side of the couch. "Thank you."
"My pleasure, miss," she says.
I reach my hand out lazily, to stroke behind her knee and then up, under the hem of her skirt. How many times have I lain here under the expert attention of a skilful masseuse and dreamed of reaching out like this? Even when they haven't been as hot as Ellie – and in truth none of them have – the combination of skin on skin and the way any massage steers teasingly close to intimate contact has always made the possibility of something more come into my mind.
"You're a bad girl, Ellie." My hand strays further up the back of her thigh.
"Yes, miss."
"But oh so good, too." I pause just where I would begin to feel her bottom.
"Thank you, miss."
"Seems only fair I should return the compliment, one way or another." I give Ellie's buttock the briefest of brushes over the cotton of her panties. "Would you like that, Ellie?"
"Yes, miss. Thank you, miss."
"Why don't you show me those lovely boobs of yours?" I ask softly, my hand lightly cupping her ass cheek.
Ellie fiddles with the buttons of her top. She is nervous, clearly, and it occurs to me that maybe I am her first woman. It would be indelicate to ask about this now, I realise, but it is another intoxicating element to the cocktail.
She slides the top off and stands before me in her bra, a fetching white lace number that is more decorative than I was expecting for someone who has a relatively physical job. Below the full curves of her breasts Ellie's stomach is flat and lightly tanned.
"Take off your bra," I say. "I want to see your beautiful breasts, Ellie." She fumbles with the catch for what seems ages, and once again I get the thrill of believing that her nerves are down to inexperience. She even mutters a little apology before she has done it, but then her breasts are free and exposed.
She is beautiful. Something of the fullness, the creaminess, the proud pertness of Ellie's still-teenage breasts takes my breath away.
"God you're beautiful," I say, and reach my hand up, scarcely able to believe that Ellie is offering me her breasts to see, let alone touch. She stands there, awaiting my caress, and as I brush my fingers across the smooth milky skin she closes her eyes and I wonder how many times she has fantasized about being touched by another woman.