It's a bright and sunny day as I stand by the window overlooking the meadow. It's filled with so much life. I can imagine all the little creatures running abouts here and there. Maybe the only thing on their minds are finding where their next meal will be. I guess there's a bigger worry and that is to stay alive...well.
For me it's not so much worrying about life. I get by and I do have my ups and downs just like any other person. But I am in a phase and I have an ache in my heart. One that is so big and overwhelming at times. I long for someone so dear to me. We would share many laughters, talks and even cried together. There were lots of disagreements between us, but in the end we always found mutual solutions. For the times we agreed on things, life was sweet. So many issues were debated and taken apart until there was an understanding. Many times we would dress each other up and would model for our entertainment. Those times were hilarious and sexy. Most of all, we were there for each other. She was my best friend, my confidant and my lover. And I do miss her so much. It's been six months since the car accident. That day I will never forget. Then the funeral, that was so unbearable. I had willed myself to be strong just to make it through the process. Loosing someone who was always by your side is like dying a slow and painful death inside. They say time will heal a broken heart...are they for real?
Now I stand here all alone without her. Sometimes I can smell her scent, still fresh. How at times in bed I reached out for her. Many tears were shed as I cried myself to sleep every night. It's a wonder how I don't die of a broken heart. So strong on the outside but yet all shattered to pieces on the inside. Tomorrow would have been our 10th anniversary together...
My such a bittersweet time it will be for me. I'm sure I will survive and the least I can feel is a burning sting in my heart. Oh, my dear heart...please be strong for me.
Moving on:
The next day has arrived for one lone survivor. It was raining since last night and only a sprinkle left. Opening her eyes and focusing on her surroundings, Lori felt nauseated. Running to the bathroom while clutching at her heart, she dropped to the floor. The pain, the burning sting of what today should have brought was so great to bear. Leaning forward as she let out all her anger and thoughts of betrayal. With a deep moan she let out a piercing scream..."Why, Why!" was all she could muster from her lips. It seemed as if time had stood still as she sat there on the floor frozen.
The sun rays has now penetrated through the window and onto her. From nowhere she felt a warmth full of love engulfing her. Then a whisper of soothing tenderness caressed her ears. There was a feel of soft lips upon her delicate skin that sent her into a high. Kisses upon kisses she felt throughout her body. With her eyes now closed she gasped as she felt a soft kiss on her breast. The sensation was all too much and she started to moan. So warm to the touch as she begged for more, not wanting it to end. Now the kisses continued upward towards her neck and it sent chills down her spine. She was now on her knees with her back arched and felt the wetness of lips upon her lips. Embracing the moment she gave into the unknown pleasures. Lips opening and accepting as tears ran down her cheeks. For that moment it was as if she lost all sense of time. Suddenly, she felt arms wrapped around her tightly.
The hold was so familiar and she knew that it was her love Kalie. Knowing this with all her heart, she still could not bring herself to open her eyes. Desperately, she prayed for this moment to last. Despite what she wanted, there was a sense of seperation. More like it was a final goodbye. There was a gentle pull and as much as she wanted to hold on...she knew it was time to say "farewell". She let out a low cry and said "please don't go my love". But deep down inside she truly knew that this was the final act. She had to let go and release the hold, not only for her sake but also for Kalie. One last kiss on her cheeks and the embrace weakened until she can no longer feel a presence. Kalie came to acknowledge this special day and to let Lori know that she needs to move on with her life. Now, she was all alone once more. Yes, a bitter sweet reunion and one to remember for some time.
Nine months later:
Finishing her morning run just outside of town Lori rested atop one of the boulders that were scattered throughout the trail. Slowing her breathing down she scanned the area around her. She was the only one there until she spotted a figure coming her way. It was a woman and she didn't recognized her. Turning her head away she noticed the time and started to climb down and make way towards her car.
Just as she was getting into her car a friendly voice called out "Hello". Turning around it was the woman she saw in the distance. She had the most beautiful smile and the brightest blue eyes. It almost melted her heart and somehow she was stuck in a trance.
"Well, hello there again"...the voice said.
Snapping out of the daze, she felt all blushed. "Hello to you too" she finally managed to say.
"Come her very often?" the woman asked. "By the way my name is Kacie"
"I'm fairly new to this trail run" Lori told her. "What about you, do you come her often?"
"Once in a while, I take turns here and at the gym in town"
"I have to tell you that you have the loveliest smile and killer blue eyes"...Lori said with a childish grin. Just then something in her began to come alive. It's been over a year and she was yearning for companionship with another woman. Something was awakening and stirring inside of her.
"If you aren't busy we can have lunch later if you like"...Kacie said as she looked deeply into Lori's eyes.
"Yes, I would like that very much"...replied Lori as she was reaching for something to write her number on.
With a smile she handed Kacie a small paper with her name and phone number. Just then Kacie reached out and took the paper and gently slid her hand over Lori's hand. Lori felt a tingling sensation throughout her body and it did show. Kacie only smiled and pulled her hand back with the information she needed. She did this without taking her eyes away from Lori. Sliding the little paper into her pocket she asked "Where would you like to go for lunch?"
"Anywhere is fine with me. Maybe you can surprise me"
"Maybe I will surprise you afterall". With this said, Kacie felt an attraction to this brown eyed beauty.
Right then, they locked eyes onto each other. It must have been several minutes before a car pulled up right beside them and broke their lock.
Kacie cleared her throat and felt a shiver run down her spin. She stepped back so Lori can close her door and settle in for her drive.
:"Well, I'll see you real soon" Kacie told her. Once Lori made her way she started towards her car. She had plans to make.
Lori hadn't felt like this for a very long time. She missed the tender touch of another woman. It's been over a year now and she's been feeling to connect with someone again. What she and Kalie had was beautiful and it was one of the best relationship she ever experienced. But it's time to move on and feel love once again. She looked forward to lunch with Kacie.
The phone rang just as she climbed out of the showers. Grabbing a towel she hurried to answer the phone.
"Hello Lori" the voice said on the other side.
