For those of you looking for a quick fix or a cheap thrill I suggest you look elsewhere. This story builds slowly and I hope that at least some of you will persevere to the end.
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The View From The Window.
The first time I met Anna we didn't speak. No sound passed between us. For my part the only sound was some soft music in the background. It was a long time ago but I believe it was Beethoven but I might be wrong and either way it's not really important. What was important was the silence that was filled with messages, hesitant at first but becoming quickly bolder. I was I think more used to this than she was at the time as I spent a lot of time chatting both at home and around the world. She, it turned out, was taking her first baby steps not just in the world of idle chat but into one of a more intimate nature.
Let me start from an earlier beginning. I have both a public and a private persona which are kept separate from each other. Not through shame on my part but through the difficulty many of my friends and colleagues would have with my other lifestyle. To most of the world I am simply a middle-aged lesbian with a nice middle-class job in a nice home. Even my best friends know me as such and accept me. I'm sure some of the neighbours must use me for some over the wall gossip but to my face they are as friendly and kind as one could wish for. It is after work and in the privacy of my home that my more secret side comes to the fore.
In those more private moments I am a Mistress or Domme, call me what you will. Some of you may already be aware of the lifestyle, may even be part of it, in which case little more is needed in the way of explanation. Others may be completely ignorant or mildly intrigued. Although I have had one or two 'girlfriends' in real life most of my work, and I do think of it as work, has been done online sometimes via Skype but mostly via text chat. It may seem strange to the uninitiated but there are many women who enjoy and crave being submissive to someone else. Anna was one of those.
I regularly use a chat and meeting site designed for those of us who are into the lifestyle to meet and chat and occasionally get more intimate with each other. For the most part I spend most of my time simply chatting with like-minded people and that was what I was doing on the night I met shyanna as her on-site name showed her to be. At first she was a silent watcher in the crowd while I chatted away to other regulars. Then, at very rare moments, she would come out with a comment before lapsing back into silence. For some reason her posts began to capture my attention and I started to respond to each one with a comment in reply. Slowly she began to comment more often and the underlying impression I got was that here was a young girl who was a newcomer to the site and who was very nervous, almost frightened to be there. After about an hour in among all the general chit-chat we began to get a little rapport going and I could sense that she was beginning to relax. Her posts became very obviously directed at me alone. One regular friend in chat even joked that I had a new fan. Annoyingly this sent her back into her shell and it was a few minutes before she posted again. As she had now piqued my interest and to avoid her any further embarrassment I decided to offer her the chance of a more private one to one chat so I opened a chat box in her name.
Mistress_Christine: hello shy anna.
There was then a long pause before ...
shyanna: hello Mistress Christine.
Mistress_Christine: please, just call me Christine.
shyanna: sorry Miss. I mean sorry Christine.
Mistress_Christine: you're new here?
shyanna: yes Miss I joined today.
I decided to let her use of the title Miss go for now. She seemed more comfortable when she used it as many do.
Mistress_Christine: in that case welcome. Are you enjoying your first experience?
shyanna: I am Miss mostly thanks to you chatting to me.
Mistress_Christine: the pleasure is all mine. What prompted you in here in the first place?
Here again there was a pause during which I brought her profile on screen. This claimed that she was 19 (a year over the minimum allowed by the site), a lesbian, of average build and height, blonde and of most interest, living very close by.
shyanna: I sort of found it by accident Miss. And it interested me.
Mistress_Christine: interested in what way?
Poor girl, I was keeping her off-balance with all my questions.
Mistress_Christine: does the D/s lifestyle interest you?
shyanna: I'm not sure Miss.
Mistress_Christine: not sure? But curious enough to come in here, fill out a profile and start chatting?
shyanna: yes Miss.
Mistress_Christine: I've read your profile.
shyanna: is it ok, Miss?
Mistress_Christine: how long have you known you were a lesbian?
shyanna: since about 13 Miss.
Mistress_Christine: and now you are looking at pastures new?
Again a pause.
shyanna: I'm not sure Miss.
Mistress_Christine: tell me about your last girlfriend. Did she dominate you?
shyanna: errr not really Miss
Mistress_Christine: not really? What is that supposed to mean?
shyanna: I suppose she was more or less in charge
Mistress_Christine: and you were happy with that?
shyanna: in a way it was nice not having to decide everything
Mistress_Christine: is she still around?
shyanna: no Miss she moved away
Mistress_Christine: and since then?
shyanna: nothing Miss
Mistress_Christine: so now you are frustrated and thought to pick on me?
shyanna: no Miss please don't think that
Mistress_Christine: be that as it may I have to go now. If you are lucky I may be here tomorrow night
shyanna: I shall try and be here Miss
Mistress_Christine: goodnight for now
shyanna: goodnight Miss
And that, in essence, was the first conversation we had. She was to me interesting but not outstanding as a prospect although there was something that hinted of more to come. The true test would be tomorrow. Would she be there? Would she summon the courage to contact me? I was interested enough to want to find out.
The next night I deliberately didn't log on to the site. I thought I'd let her stew for a while. I needed to make it clear that I was not at her beck and call and that it was her job to wait for me. Two nights later I finally logged on quite late only half expecting her to be there. I scanned the list of names and, to my surprise, there she was. I ignored her and started joining in with the general conversation and making it clear that I had arrived in the room. After about ten minutes her name appeared at the top of the page. I ignored this as well for a further five minutes before finally opening the box to see what she had written.
shyanna: good evening Miss may I talk to you?
Mistress_Christine: you may
shyanna: I waited for you last night Miss
Mistress_Christine: I was busy elsewhere
shyanna: of course Miss thank you for being here tonight
Mistress_Christine: I don't have long but we can chat for a while
shyanna: thank you Miss
I left a silence to see how she would respond.
shyanna: I really enjoyed our chat the other day Miss