This is the final story of this series, which is a companion to my story Truth & Admiration.
I'd like to thank ButteredCrumpet for helping me finish these last few chapters. Her contributions and our dialog have been invaluable - and made finishing a story I didn't want to end much more enjoyable.
I'd also like to thank those of you who have been reading along, for sticking with me. I have tried to make each story in this series stand on its own merits, but if you have been following Leethie from the beginning I'm grateful to you for your time and attention. I hope it's clear how much I've come to enjoy her.
My intent is not to offend, but this is a d/s lesbian romance with strong themes of nonconsent and reluctance. If that's not your cup of tea, I understand and hope you will find another story to enjoy.
As always I hope you will enjoy the story, and that if you do you will leave a comment.
XOSNS
Stink
'Miranda is going to love it!'
The errant thought came into Leethie's head as she stared at herself in the mirror. She flushed with disappointment and embarrassment as her mind caught up with itself for the hundredth time. Seeing the reaction play across her face, she dropped her eyes in shame and struggled to shake off the unwelcome confusion.
"What do you think?" her mother asked.
She looked in the mirror, at her bare shoulders. The dress hugged her figure, accenting her narrow waist and pushing her breasts up. She twisted her hair into a thick gold rope and held it up so she could see her long neck, twisting to see her bare back. The narrow fit looked beautiful on her already long frame, even so, the heels made her ass sit wonderfully high. The little bustle, with its dozens of tiny pale pink silk flowers, was a naughty indulgence on the otherwise minimalist lines of the design.
"It's beautiful, mom," Leethie told her - and it was - but she had a hard time keeping the anger and disappointment from her voice. The dress was everything she had ever dreamed of. The wedding was going to be everything she had dreamt of. But as she looked in the mirror at her mother's smiling but concerned face, at her little sisters and the seamstress. She unconsciously covered her wrist with her hand. The misery threatened to overwhelm her.
She missed Miranda, and hated her for it; hated fucking Thom.
"Whatever I want, whenever I want," he'd growled in her ear as he bent her over.
That Sunday morning after Miranda had returned home Thom had held Leethie to her promise and cornered her the first chance he got. Catching her on her way to the bathhouse alone. She felt nothing as he grabbed her from behind and reached around to jerk her fly open. She let him, felt it happening at a remove; like she was standing apart from herself, watching in confusion.
'You started this,' she told the part of herself that couldn't believe this was happening. Pushing her pants down he took her from behind. Right out in the open, and she let him.
They were hidden from view of the farmhouse only by a small utility shed, but Miranda was still in easy earshot. With her jeans around the tops of her wellies and hands against the side of the shed, she had been afraid he'd try to fuck her ass, but he had slid into her easily instead. When she had seen him coming after her, Leethie had thought of Miranda's cries. She pictured him slipping easily into Miranda, his cock still wet from fucking her. That image was enough, she was wet and open for him and had cum despite herself. Thom held himself to his promise, sliding out of her without cumming.
"Look at you," he'd said as he cooled his cock with a handful of snow. She had collapsed onto her knees when she came; was staring at the snow. "Slut."
She'd watched his hands from the corner of her eye as he buttoned his pants, making no move to get up or cover herself until after he had walked away. She heard the gate bang, then the door to the farmhouse. She was still trying to pull up her pants, they were soaking wet from the snow. She was stunned.
He had used her and treated her like a whore... although the tone he spoke in was so strange. Whatever else was going on, he was clearly getting off on degrading her. Had she'd gotten off on it as well? For a moment she had felt his excitement building with hers until she thought he would finally cum, but he didn't - or not then, not with her. And then she had humiliated herself by cumming. He had felt it, had judged her for it. And he was right.
'I am a slut.'
Her fingers were cold as she buttoned her jeans. Her panties were mucky and stuck to her. Resuming her path on shaky legs, Leethie trudged through the virgin snow towards the bathhouse. In the woods the snow on the path wasn't as deep and seemed finer, like powdered sugar sifted by the canopy of cedar and fir.
She had put the laundry in the washer before the "squall", but hadn't been back and worried that they might have gotten musty. But it had been cold and when she opened the washer she was relieved to find their clothes still smelled fresh. She loaded the dryer but didn't start it. Turning on the hot water heater and stripping down, Leethie stood naked at the basin and hand-washed her panties before putting them in the dryer along with her wet jeans. She showered to the rhythm of her jeans drying. Her head was empty of thoughts, her heart hollow.
Thom was fucking Miranda loudly in the attic again when she came back to the house from her shower. She sat by the woodstove and looked at a page of her book, listening to them. Her pulse pounding behind her eyes.
"I think it's having you in the house," a rosy-cheeked Miranda told Leethie that evening as they got ready to sauna together. "It's crazy," she laughed, "he won't leave me alone."
But Thom wasn't alone in that. As angry as she was listening to them, Leethie found herself wanting Miranda more, not less. After they had finished their first sweat and showered, she told Miranda to shave her. She sat on the bench beside the shower legs spread, still steaming as Miranda settled down onto her knees with her kit. Thom's shaving cream went on cool and smelled clean and mannish. It made Leethie think of waiting for her father at a barbershop when she was a girl.