By no means would Madelyn Knight ever have considered herself an unhappy woman. The 33-year old brunette would have said quite the opposite had anyone ever put the question to her.
She had a good job as a Financial Planner and was well-respected in her position. In fact, in a little under a decade, she was on the fast track to becoming a partner. She seemed to have a good head for facts and figures and was well thought of by clients and associates alike.
She was a cherished daughter and beloved sister to her parents and 3 siblings. Her parents had been married for nearly 40 years and had set a good example for their children. Madelyn had several nieces and nephews who all thought the world of her. There was nothing that the family would not have done for one another, theirs was a close-knit bond.
She loved the community in which she lived and was a popular member of that community. She gave back, working for several charities and she always worked towards helping those less fortunate. Every Christmas, she helped deliver Christmas Hampers to those in need and she had helped more than a few people find meaningful employment so that the following years, many of them were able to give back.
Her own two girls adored their mother and were both happy children who did well in school. Madelyn chuckled to herself at one Parent / Teacher conference, wishing that at least
once
one of her girls could get into some kind of trouble so that she might have a break from the monotony of having their teachers praise the girls to the high heavens.
Despite all of the things that made her life wonderful, Madelyn was unhappy and she knew the reason why. She was married to a man who adored her very much. She had met Jack when she was 16, married him at 19 and been a mom six months later. Jack was a terrific guy, a wonderful father and a great provider. So why had she never loved him back the way that he deserved? Why did she feel so unfulfilled as Jack's wife?
Jack sensed her unhappiness and to his credit, he tried. He did everything that a man could do to make her happy and despite all of that, it failed. So after a number of years trying, he told Madelyn that he wanted out. He left a few months after the previous Christmas. Their girls were devastated, but Jack and Madelyn made it clear that there was no animosity between them. Madelyn could not convey what was making her so unhappy, only that something was.
Madelyn would likely never have figured it out, save for an encounter with Jack's sister. Becca called a few days after Jack moved out of the house, wanting to have lunch. Madelyn and Becca had always been more like real sisters, despite Becca's 11-year age difference. Madelyn had been there for Becca more often than her own parents and Becca thought the sun rose and set on her adored sister-in-law. The thought of her no longer being family caused her no little anguish and Madelyn knew that she had to do something to reassure Becca.
"We will
always
be family," Madelyn hugged her sister-in-law to comfort her. The auburn haired lovely was attracting a bit of attention, likely as much for her outfit as for her sniffling. Becca was wearing a holiday-themed red dress, a "Santa" cap and sexy new boots. The part-time model never once went anywhere without looking spectacular and their lunch date was no exception. Becca had once told Madelyn that she always kept one eye out for potential suitors and she wanted to give them something to look at. She was not in the least bit embarrassed by saying she liked to "cat around" and at times, Madelyn lived vicariously through Becca. At times, she wished that she could have played the field a bit more before settling down with Jack as a wife & mommy.
"I'm glad to hear that, Maddy," Becca sighed, feeling a sense of relief. Becca was the only one that could get away with calling her sister-in-law "Maddy". "I guess I don't understand why you're divorcing my brother?"
Madelyn was looking around their favorite Bistro. Normally it was busy, but today it was hopping and almost all of their servers were working. The Bella Bistro only hired the prettiest and most attractive servers and the soon-to-be-single Madelyn allowed herself to enjoy the view. Becca's query brought her back to the here and now. "I'm not divorcing Jack," she answered in total candor. "He's divorcing me; I would have hung on until the girls entered university or even gone for counseling. He just doesn't see the point."
"Well, as long as the two of you can remain friends and the girls will be okay," Becca nodded in support. As she was only a few years older than her nieces, they were more like sisters than aunt / nieces. "Hey, you seem really distracted - is there anything else going on in there?" She teased, tapping Madelyn's forehead gently.
"I honestly don't know," Madelyn answered. "I've never known why your brother doesn't make me happy. He's the sweetest man I ever knew, the nicest guy I dated in a parade of losers. That's why I agreed to marry him, I suppose. No other guy made me anywhere near as loved and cherished. It's just - and please don't judge me for this - I've never loved him as much as he loved me and the sex - he's a good lover, I suppose - but most of the time, I'd just as soon skip it." After saying that, Madelyn went back to people watching, letting Becca take in all that she had just said. As it was so incredibly busy, their server had yet to arrive and take their orders, so Becca did have a lot of time to contemplate Madelyn's words.
"I'm going to say something to you now," Becca said looking directly into Madelyn's deep, dark eyes. "I don't want you to freak out, just hear me out. I know you haven't been happy with my brother for a while, but hearing what you just said, I wonder if
any
man is capable of making you happy. Is it at all possible you might not be attracted to men sexually?"
"Are you asking if I might be a...?"
"... lesbian, yes. Is it possible?"
"No, of course not, what would make you think such a thing?" Madelyn protested. "I don't even
know
any lesbians!" She said to Becca. An unusual smile crossed the younger girl's lovely face.
"Actually Maddy, that isn't
quite
true," Becca replied. "You do know
one
lesbian very well."
Madelyn's head almost snapped all the way around at Becca's last statement. "Rebecca Aurora Knight!" She gasped, using her sister-in-law's seldom-used full name. "Are you telling me now that you are a lesbian?"
"Yes," Becca nodded and smiled softly. "My first sexual encounter was at 18, with the mother of a close friend. It was so gentle, sensual and intimate that I've never wanted to be with a man. All of my lovers since that time have been women and I see no reason to change. I don't dislike men as friends, but when I want a sexual experience, I always look to other women for my needs and desires."
"I had no idea," Madelyn said as their server finally arrived. She ordered herself a very stiff drink, feeling that she likely would be needing one.
"You and I don't exactly discuss sex when we have lunch," Becca grinned, ordering a drink of her own. "Sometimes, I think that you still see me as a little kid."
"I've known you since you were a few months shy of 5, so I probably do," Madelyn laughed nervously. "Wow - my gorgeous sis-in-law likes girls."
"So do you, or at least, I think it's a possibility," Becca nudged Madelyn in the arm. "Haven't you noticed that you've been checking out almost every pretty server almost since we got here?"
"Isn't it only natural to admire another sexy person?" Madelyn responded.
"Of course it is," Becca smiled and took another sip of her drink. "But sweetheart, here's something of which I don't think you're aware. Every one of the servers you've admired has been female. You haven't given one bit of attention to the males, but the women have had your undivided attention."
Madelyn's hand flew to her mouth as she took in the weight of Becca's words. She had never before considered it and yet, things were already falling into place. Whenever she went to a social event, she paid scant attention to the men. Her attention was always diverted to the women in the crowd, what they were wearing, how they were acting. It seemed ludicrous to the 33-year old brunette that she might have lesbian tendencies and yet, many prominent sexologists believed that most women had the potential for bi-sexuality.
Yet for Madelyn, denial was not just a river in Egypt. "I've never been with another woman, never even considered it," she protested as she thought about what to have for lunch. "We both know that I'm not the type of woman who would hang out in a gay bar and look for another woman to sleep with."
Becca laughed. "You'd be surprised how many women you would likely meet even in a normal social situation of you allowed yourself to just open yourself up to the possibility," Becca counseled her. "I'm sure there are some women at your office who would love to date you, you've just never noticed. I know of a few women who have put out little feelers to see if you play for my team."
Madelyn leaned back in her chair, her silk and lace blouse drawing tight over her 36C breasts. She was aware that her beauty had gone undiminished since marrying Jack, she liked to put forth an image of attractiveness and used every little trick she knew to remain alluring. "You're just teasing me, aren't you?" She said to Becca, although secretly enjoying the titillating conversation. "You don't really know anyone."
"Honest injun beautiful, I could name at least 5 women who would pay good money to get you into bed," Becca said to her best friend. "Not just women your age or even older - young and sexy, vibrant women who've all told me they think you're the kind of women they could really get into."
"I-I wouldn't even know where to start," Madelyn admitted, actually trembling at the forbidden thrill that Becca was suggesting to her.