In the end, all it took was a smile to convert fantasy to reality.
She had begun thinking about it soon after her body started to mature from a girl to a woman. She wondered if she was weird or strange because of her thoughts. She had discussed it confidentially with her friends. Without exception, they thought the idea was gross. With that and her religious upbringing providing her compass bearings, she suppressed her feelings. At a sleepover during high school, one of the girls whispered that Becca, the most popular cheerleader, was a lesbian. The rest of the girls expressed horror at that announcement. She kept quiet; desperately hoping no one noticed her silence. As she lay in bed later, her cheeks burning in fear and shame, she pushed all these urges behind a tightly closed door marked Forbidden.
Her life continued on. High school led to college. College led to work. Her life was filled with the exciting and the mundane. She was like everyone else. Over the years, beginning in high school, she had her share of male lovers, most unremarkable, several memorable. She discovered she was multi-orgasmic in college, and she enjoyed sex. She did not consider herself a prude, and felt herself rather adventurous in her love life. Sex became a more important part of her life.
Over the last several years however, thoughts of sex with a woman had returned. Now in her early thirties, she realized this long repressed desire had resurfaced into her life. Not because she was dissatisfied with her sex life, rather she decided, like the title from the famous Robert Frost poem,
The Road Not Taken
. Was it too late for her to go back and have sex with a woman. It had started innocently enough. She considered herself stylish and fashion conscious, and always noticed what other women wore. But as time progressed, she realized she was noticing the woman more than the clothes she was wearing. Later, she began to dream about women in various stages of undress.
One night while over a lover's house, they had browsed an adult site that contained a chat room. They had caressed each other as they watched others discussing sex. In a private chat room, they vicariously participated in virtual sex with others. At the time, she enjoyed the spontaneity of the sex. This was another new experience in her life. After that evening, she returned to the web site with the chat room on her own. She met a number of people there, and added cyber sex as a part of her life. While not as satisfying as the real thing, she enjoyed the release. Upon reflection, she realized she enjoyed the anonymity of the chat room. One night, she found the "bi Room," her curiosity deepened. Here for the first time in her life, she found other women who discussed and actively participated in sex with other woman. As she returned to this site, she slowly came to the realization that some of the feelings she had repressed for so long were shared by a number of others. This fueled her curiosity even more. As each day passed, she became more openly curious about sex with a female lover.
Several months after first finding the site, she "cybered" with another woman for the first time. Her on-line lover slowly seduced her, little kisses and licks to her skin. As her lover typed her seduction via the keyboard, she quickly undressed herself. Her fingers found her breasts, first caressing and then pulling on her rapidly hardening nipples. As her cyber lover caressed her breasts, her fingers found their way down between her parted thighs. Her fingers moistened with her vaginal secretions, stroked her pussy and then moved to her clit, rubbing herself to a quick orgasm. As her cyber lover moved down to caress her pussy, her fingers continuing to caress her swollen vagina until her cyber lover and her fingers took her to an even more powerful orgasm. Sitting in front of her computer, shaking as she recovered from her orgasm, shivering in pleasure, she added another new experience to her life. The experience was more enjoyable than she would have imagined, sparking her desire to continue these experiences.
After that first experience, her curiosity deepened. She met a number of new cyber lovers online as her fascination with sapphic sex increased. She masterbated as she read stories of lesbian sex, and even fantasized a number of times about having a female lover during sex with men. For a while, cyber sex and visualizing sex with a woman was enough. But of course, she wondered how it would be to have sex with another woman in real life. She had no idea how to translate her desires into reality. Her uncertainty led to inaction and an increasing sense of frustration. She still had a full sex life between her real and her cyber lovers.
Without any concrete action, her desires became reality. It started at the gym with a smile. While exercising on the treadmill one Saturday evening at the gym, her solitude was interrupted when the woman next to her said hello. She looked up from the floor, a smile on her face. She returned the hello with one of her own. The women chatted as they both continued to exercise. As the conversation continued, she felt herself becoming unsure of the texture of the conversation. Her heart beat faster than normal, her pulse racing as she tried to fathom why she was uncomfortable. The conversation continued further before she realized that this woman was making conversation with her and was trying to pick her up! A thrill chased down her spine with the realization. She felt her cheeks blush as her body responded, unconsciously replying with an emphatic yes to the subliminal messages being sent. She felt her nipples harden. She looked over to find her new friend smiling widely. Message received and replied.