Part I
The line at the other end was ringing. My heart was racing and I was having a problem catching my breath. The breathing part I could understand. I was squeezed into a wedding dress that made me look like a size 2. While I liked the novelty of having cleavage, the dress was just damned uncomfortable. I guess the heart racing part could be explained by who I was calling. Natali. Just thinking her name got me a little flustered. Natali was the uncontrolled substance in my universe. She was exciting and thrilling, intoxicating and forbidding, and if I spent too much time thinking of her, I could soak a pair of panties. Right now, between the wedding, and calling her I was a basket case.
"Hello?" she answered. I could feel my throat catch.
"Hi Natali. It's me."
"Oh. What do you want?" Shit. Her voice was flat and emotionless. I didn't know whether to burst into tears or hang up.
"Natali, I just wanted to know the truth. Do you love me?" I choked out.
"You mean you didn't know? God, you're thick" and then she hung up.
Slowly, I put the cell phone away and made my way back to the dressing rooms. My mother was anxiously looking for me.
"There you are dear! We've been looking all over for you. It's almost time to begin! Where have you been? Never mind, we've got to get going. Smile dear, it's your wedding day. Why are looking so sad?" Life with my mother was a non-stop stream. Usually I hated it, but today it was washing over me, leaving me untouched. I guess nothing was touching me...
My father was standing at the door, ready to escort me down the aisle. With a last minute check of my hair, I slowly made my way towards him. I could see in his face that he sensed my sadness. As he stepped up to me he gave me a hug.
"You know you don't have to do this if you don't want to," he said quietly.
I loved my dad. I could always count on him for support when I had a hard choice. I had long suspected my dad wasn't a big fan of Chad, my fiancΓ©, but in typical Dad fashion he'd never criticized him, or made unkind comments about my choice. I knew that he would stand behind me and that no matter what I did. He made me feel like his princess. I suppose I grew up really spoiled. Perhaps I was, but I wouldn't trade my dad for anything.
I held his arm as he escorted me down the long aisle. As the wedding march played, I thought of how I'd gotten here. Playing the events back in my mind, I could sense my impatience feel the anxious desire to get through the boring parts. Suddenly, I was there. Memories so treasured, they felt worn and smooth. I had come to Natali.
I had been seeing Chad for a year or so and we'd recently become engaged. I guess he was looking for ways to spice up our sex life. One night when we were sitting on the couch drinking some wine and watching a movie, he asked me if I had been with another girl. The truth was that I hadn't. Just because I hadn't done it didn't mean that I hadn't given it serious thought though. As I watched the actress on screen, I could feel that familiar longing come back. I had masturbated myself to sleep in college what seemed like every night thinking of the girls on my volleyball team, or other class mates. I had pretty much decided in college that I was bisexual. For the better part of a semester, I'd had a terrible crush on one of my professors. I guess the fact that I was very shy, and she was married had prevented me from trying to act on my desires.
"Well, I've never been with a woman, but I wouldn't mind kissing the blonde." I giggled. The woman I referred to was a stunning blond with a classic forties fashion sense. She'd recently made news when she kissed another actress on the red carpet at an awards ceremony.
This was evidently the right answer. Chad slipped his hand inside my panties and started rubbing my clit. What the hell, I decided. I closed my eyes and went with the flow. As I closed my eyes, I could see the starlet in my mind. I imagined her nude, rubbing her mound against mine and kissing me deeply. In no time I was panting heavily.
"Oh, I'm cumming. Oh, yeah baby, yeah. I love you. Oh..." I moaned. As I came down, I was amused at the smug look on Chad's face. No doubt, he thought my quick orgasm was because of his skills. Grabbing my hand, Chad led me to his bedroom. I closed my eyes and stayed with my fantasies, imagining that my history professor was crazily fucking me with a strap-on. I must have came three times in the short period he was fucking me.
Later in the week, Chad asked me what I thought of having a 3-some.
"I'm just not sure Chad, I've never really pictured you with another guy." I smirked. His face flushed red. I could see him getting pissed off, and then I saw the calm come over him. All the emotions played through his face in under a second, but they were there. In less than a heart-beat, he was smiling gently.
"Actually, I was thinking of having another girl join us. It seemed like something you might be interested in. What do you think?" he half-pleaded.
The truth was, I was all for it. The little stroll I had taken down memory lane on Sunday night had rekindled the desires that I had almost forgotten. After some consideration, I said, "Well, OK, but I get to choose the girl."
"Sure, that sounds good," he gushed. "Did you have someone in mind already?"
"No, I thought I'd look on-line." I snapped.
"You could try looking on craigslist." he suggested placatingly. "I noticed there seem to be a lot of women posting there looking for encounters."
"OK," I said, "I'll post something this week."