I had been in love with her since the day I met her, in my beginning acting class. It was my freshman year of college, and everything was new and exciting, and a little scary. She was a sophomore and exuded confidence; tall and athletic, wearing a short skirt and tank top, she breezed into the room, head held high. I was slouched in one corner of the basement classroom, trying to shrink, not wanting anyone to notice my 5'10", slightly pudgy body. She sat down next to me and stuck out her hand.
"Hi," she said, "I'm Sara."
"Mandy," I said, shaking her hand.
The professor came in and told us to break into pairs. Sara scooted a little closer to me, and I smiled: it seemed I had made my first college friend. We were told to stand up and face each other, and I was surprised to see that she was even taller than me, yet seemed to own every inch of her height, even wearing heels that added another inch or two. The professor told us to mirror each others' actions. She took the lead, and I followed along, finding myself standing a bit taller as I mirrored her movements. When it was my turn to lead, Sara gave me an encouraging smile. Soon, we were moving as one, and I wanted to get to know this amazing woman better. I was sad to part ways after class, but I didn't have the courage to ask her to go to coffee or something.
The next day, I was running a little late in getting to class. When I got there, I was disappointed to see that Sara was already sitting between two people, but she smiled and waved when she saw me. The professor lectured for a little while, and then it was time to pair up for exercises again. I started to walk across the room to join Sara, but someone tapped me on the back. I turned around to see a short, geeky guy. He said his name was Josh and asked me to be his partner. I didn't want to be rude, so I said yes. We did the trust falls that made up that day's exercise. When it was time to leave, Sara walked out talking to her new partner.
The next day, the professor assigned us partnerships for our first scene, and I was delighted to discover I was partnered with Sara. We spent the rest of the class looking through the scene options to find one we liked. I wanted to do something safe, but let her talk me into doing a scene from "Real Again", a play about teen girls from abusive homes, who are dating and decide to run away together. It was a challenging thing to portray and included a kiss.
I was nervous about the scene, not only had I never acted, but I also had never kissed a girl before. I was also excited. The scene was dynamic and seemed like it would be fun to perform. Plus, it meant kissing Sara, and who wouldn't want to kiss Sara.
When we asked the professor to approve it, she enthusiastically said yes. She was excited that we were taking a risk, instead of playing it safe like the majority of the class was.
We decided to meet up for coffee on Saturday to read through it a couple of times and get to know each other a bit, since we were going to be acting like we were girlfriends. I was ecstatic to be getting coffee with Sarah. She seemed like she could be my dream girl.
An hour of barely reading the script, and mostly chatting about ourselves had me more sure than ever that Sara was the girl for me. I was enthralled by her. I was trying to work up the courage to ask her out when her phone rang.
"Sorry," she said, "I need to take this call. It's my girlfriend."
Her girlfriend? Of course, she had a girlfriend. She was perfect, after all. I'm sure she never stayed single for long. I was crushed, but I had managed to put on a fake smile by the time she got back.
"She had a job interview today," Sara said, "and wanted to tell me it went well."
"That's great," I said, fake cheerfulness pushing through my voice.
We went back to reading the play, and spent some time discussing our thoughts on the characters. By the time we were done, I was feeling better, she might have a girlfriend, but we could still be friends.
The next day, Sara saved me a seat. I was excited to continue getting to know her better and had a blast doing that day's exercise with her. The day after that, I got there first and saved her a seat. Soon, it was our routine, and people started just assuming we would partner up for everything. We had run through the script a few times, everything but the kiss. I wasn't sure why we were putting that off, but I sure as hell wasn't going to be the one to initiate it.
After class on Friday, she invited me to a party the next day. I happily accepted. I spent far too long the next morning deciding what to wear and fixing my hair and makeup. I tried to tell myself that I was just excited about going to a party, but I knew I wanted to look cute for Sara.
The party was pretty low key. It was at the apartment of one of Sara's friends, a junior. We all kind of just sat around talking for a while. I kept watching Sara in order to try to figure out who her girlfriend was, but while she was friendly with everyone, she didn't give particular attention to anyone. That changed an hour later, when a short pixie looking girl walked in. Sara's face lit up, and she hurried over to the girl, kissing her.
A few minutes later, Sara came over holding the hand of the pixie girl.
"Mandy," she said, "I want you to meet my girlfriend, Tess. Tess, this is the girl I'm going to be kissing."
I blushed and started to say something about it just being for acting class and no big deal, but Tess laughed as she stuck her hand out.
"It's nice to meet you, Mandy," she said. "I find it is always a good idea to know who else your girlfriend is making out with."
"It's just a little kiss," I said, "you know for class."
"I know," Tess said, "but I also know how good of a kisser Sara is and that you are not going to want to stop there."
I blushed and started stammering, but Sara spoke up.
"She's just giving you a hard time Mandy," Sara said, "she has read the script. and knows that I would never do anything that could hurt her."
"Seriously," Tess said, "I'm glad Mandy got such a cool girl for her scene partner, and I completely trust her."
Just then, someone announced that a game of "truth or dare" was starting. Tess looked at Sara, who smiled and looked at me.
"Dare you to play," Sara said.