It was a warm spring day as I was driving home from work at the end of the day. Despite the nice weather, I was feeling stressed as I was hoping I would get there in time to nurse my baby girl Addie. She was home with my nanny, Mari. I was looking forward to seeing her after being gone all day. My soon to be ex Ryan was supposed to be picking her up after work but I didn't think I was going to make it before he picked her up.
Ugh, I grimaced. The thought of him made me gag, the fucking ass. Because of all his cheating while we were married, we were now in the process of getting a divorce and he no longer lived at home. Since I was nursing, we agreed on a schedule that included him picking up the baby a couple times a week to spend time with her.
I could feel my breasts were full. I had been pumping at work, but I had forgotten my pump at work in my rush to get home. Anyway, I never got out as much milk with the pump as I did when compared to the baby!
I finally got home and pulled into the garage and walked into the house. The nanny, Mari, was in the kitchen cleaning up some dishes.
Mari was a part time college student who also nannied for us. She was a great nanny; kind, responsible, but she also had a strong personality. I have to admit I also thought she was a very attractive woman, tall and athletic with curves in all the right places.
As I looked at her, I couldn't help but think about how I had secretly thought about her sometimes when I was masturbating. I felt guilty because she was only in college; but I would think about her soft, beautiful skin, kissing her full lips, and how her curves would feel with my hands running down her body while she was on top of me and pressing against me. I would never in a million years let her or anyone else know about those thoughts! She was 20 years younger than me for one thing. Two, she was my employee. Three, even if I went against my better judgement, I would still be much too shy to say anything to her. I thought about women a lot but I had never had a chance to explore what that meant. Also: see points one and two!
Even if I had had the guts to say anything to her, I assumed she wasn't attracted to women or that she wouldn't even find 42 year old me attractive. Although I am happy to have big boobs and a smaller waist, I'm still a middle aged mom! For work I made sure to style my curly auburn hair but only used minimal makeup: mascara and lipstick. I was sure Mari wouldn't even give me a second thought but I quickly got all those thoughts out of my head to focus on the baby.
She heard me come in. She turned towards me and said, "Ryan already picked up the baby about 15 minutes ago. Sorry."
She gave me a sympathetic look because she knew I wanted to nurse the baby right after work. I frowned, and in that moment I felt so overwhelmed with everything. I didn't get to cuddle my daughter, my breasts were full, leaky and uncomfortable. I couldn't concentrate at work because of missing my baby and the impending divorce. I went into the living room and slowly sat down on the couch. I could feel tears forming but I tried to keep it together since Mari was there.
Mari could see how upset I was and came over to comfort me.
"Sadie, I know it's hard, but you have been doing such a good job with everything going on! I'm sorry about your shitty husband, too!" She was sitting next to me rubbing my shoulder gently. I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths to calm myself down.
"I know I'll get through this but right at this moment, I'm so frustrated. And more than anything, I'm so uncomfortable! My boobs are leaking because they're so full and I just don't want to deal with that right now and wish it would go away. I don't want them to start hurting, too!"
Mari looked at me in her no-nonsense way and asked, "what can I do to help right now? Want me to massage your boobs?" She said this with a grin, as if of course that would be ridiculous.
Looking straight ahead, I shrugged and said, "anything would help at this point! What I really need is this milk out!" I half jokingly added, "so unless you have experience sucking on a woman's breasts, I don't think there's anything you can do." I groaned inwardly after I said it, that was not how I meant that to come out!
She was quiet for just a moment after that and gave a small laugh and said, "well, I DO have some experience with that," letting out her breath. "Although not with someone who is lactating! Seriously, would you want me to do that? Why don't you let me help you?"
Even though I was sad and I WAS really uncomfortable, the truth is just the thought of this lovely woman sucking on my nipples immediately sent a twinge of desire to my pussy. Now that it was said aloud, I desperately wanted her to try. But I wanted to be chill and not be obvious that I was aroused just hearing it said out loud.