EXPLORING HER OPTIONS
Inspired by her new housemate's cavalier attitude, Heidi has applied for a position at Zoe's place of work and is surprised when she makes it through to the second round of interviews. However, it is not the only potential change in her situation. She has learned from Jodie that while Zoe is very assertive, when it comes to her love life she is very much a wait and see girl. If something is going to happen between them then Heidi has to make the first move. But should she? Or would it be better to just keep the arrangement as it is right now?
Heidi had always swung between two poles when it came to porn. The first was curiosity because it was oddly fascinating to see just what people got up to in front of a camera. However that lasted a few minutes or so before it became either boring or ridiculous, and then there was disgust which she blamed on an ex boyfriend with a particular passion for watching porn. She'd had no problems with Malcolm watching porn but refused to try out the stuff they'd been watching. She hoped he would eventually grow out of it, until the day she came home to find him sitting watching porn in her dressing gown. Heidi rarely lost her temper but she lost it that day. She threw him out of the house and told him to never come back but let him keep the dressing gown.
She thought of Malcolm at that point as she watched a short lesbian porn film on the Internet, he'd always had a preference for girl on girl or two girls and one guy. Granted these were two actors just playing a role, the cries and moans were obviously exaggerated. Even she didn't scream like that and she could get quite vocal, but no one did such long drawn out cries unless they were being paid. The blonde woman was attractive in a sluttish kind of way and so she kept watching.
Just as the blonde let out a long scream of fake ecstasy the front door opened. Heidi's eyes shifted as she turned the sound down a few notches but she kept watching it. She looked at the clock on the taskbar, it was the time Zoe normally came home and she kept listening as her heels clipped on the hardwood floor. She would go to her room first before coming to say hello, but this time she veered left and the door swung open before she had time to close the media player.
Zoe stepped into the office a moment later. She was wearing a pale pink blouse tucked into a black leather, draped midi skirt matched with a stylishly cut leather jacket, she had a red handbag in one hand and her laptop bag in the other. Her eyes shifted to Heidi's laptop and she felt as Malcolm must have felt when she caught him in her dressing gown.
"I was just browsing."
"Yeah, Pornhub," she smirked, "haven't been on that site for a couple of years, but where's the dildo?"
"There is no dildo in this one," she brought her knees up under her chin, "how was work?"
"Quiet," she pursed her lips, "we had to update a few programs and run a few checks," she looked at the printouts beside the laptop, "you all set for tomorrow?"
"Pretty much," she finally closed the media player, "I just printed out the last pages and decided to check out some porn."
"So I can see," she sat down at the table.
"Yeah, girl on girl stuff. It's not like I haven't seen it and I'm not into it, I was just curious," she bit her lip, "are you into porn?"
"Me?" Zoe chuckled, "I think I've seen just about every position imaginable including things I wish I'd never seen, there are things you can never unsee."
"I can imagine, Mal, my ex was into it in a big way but that all came to a halt when I caught him having a wank in my dressing gown," she picked up the coffee, "I let him keep the gown."
"He might still have it," Zoe smiled, "it's a guy thing, wanking over porn."
"It's never really appealed, I get mildly entertained but it's not the same as the real thing, and if you want to masturbate then what's wrong with your imagination?"
"So, do you masturbate?"
"Um, yeah, sometimes," she looked down.
"I did last night," Zoe replied, "I find it's healthy to stimulate myself."
"Okay, I didn't hear anything last night."
"I was on the non squeaky side of the bed."
"Of course," she bit her lip to stop herself smiling, "well, maybe I will tonight and maybe I won't, it's just not something I'm into."
"Why not? Just out of curiosity."
"I don't know, no real reason."
"Not guilt?"
"Um," she bit her lip again, "not guilt exactly, more like what's the fucking point?"
"So, how do you do it?"
"Huh?"
"Do you use your fingers or a vibrator?"
"Fingers," Heidi replied a little too quickly.
"Don't like vibrators?"
"I've, never even tried one," she raised her hand and made an imaginary mark in the air, "add to bucket list, buy a vibrator. I have thought of buying one but it's such a you know, an extravagance. Whenever I get money that I can use to indulge myself I buy clothes or perfume, or something for the computer, there's a whole lot of stuff I can buy without spending it on a bloody vibrator."
"But you'd like one."
"Fuck yeah, if I get this job then I'll buy one."
"Come with me," she rose.
"Come with you where?" Heidi asked.
"To the bedroom," Zoe glanced over her shoulder and smiled.
Her heart leapt to her throat as her feet hit the floor. Just like that? She rose and followed Zoe across the passageway to the bedroom.
"Pull up a pew," Zoe nodded at the bed and stepped over to the wardrobe.
She watched herself in the mirror as a door slid open to reveal Zoe's clothes. The older woman had a wardrobe to die for, but then again she had more money to spend.
"I have a spare up here that I nearly threw out but it seemed a shame to waste it," she brought down a box and moved to the bed.
"Here, it's yours, keep it."