When I arrived to the study as I had been instructed, Lady Lisle gestured for me to come in.
"Close the door behind you, please."
I did so then hesitantly approached the sprawling mahogany desk where she sat apparently engaged in correspondence. She had looked up at me briefly when she spoke but now appeared entirely engrossed in the letter before her. I shifted uneasily and waited for her to address me.
"I see that you are prone to fidgeting, Miss Seymour," she observed without looking up.
"I suppose I am, Lady Lisle."
After what felt like forever but was probably only a minute, she signed her letter with a flourish, blotted it, and sealed it with wax before looking up at me.
"And why do you fidget? Are you an anxious type?"
"I do not believe myself to be generally anxious, my lady... but surely some anxiety is normal when one has failed to meet expectations."
"That is true enough. I was very displeased by your tardiness earlier. Perhaps you did not take me seriously when I told you I am very strict, but I shall soon impress this upon you."
She paused and looked at me thoughtfully. I swallowed nervously, unsure if I was meant to respond and not wishing to compound her displeasure by speaking out of turn.
"What did Mrs. Debenham do when she was displeased with you?"
"I don't know," I said stupidly.
The truth was that I had rarely displeased Mrs. Debenham and when she had punished me, the punishment had often ended with us in bed.
Lady Lisle gave me a look and I hastened to correct myself.
"That is, she did sometimes punish me, but-"
"How did she punish you?"
"She usually smacked my backside, but-"
"Good, then it shall be no surprise to you that I intend to do the same," she cut me off and I subsided, unsure what to do.
"As I have never disciplined you before, I shall go easy on you this time. I think twenty smacks with my hand should do it... Come here and lay yourself across my lap."
She had risen and now sat down in a big leather armchair. I wandered hesitantly over to her. When I was close enough, she reached out and I found myself rather efficiently laid across her lap, my dress folded above my waist. I had to wonder if the practiced air in which she accomplished this indicated she spanked all her servants. Surely not...
"Untie the waist of your underthings, please."
I reached under my hips and did as she asked. She tugged my underthings down and they pooled around my ankles.
I flushed as I felt cool air on my bottom. I had hoped I would be equal to enduring a spanking with equanimity, but the fluttering in my nether regions suggested otherwise.
Lady Lisle rested a hand on me and made a sound of disapproval.
"Why are you trembling? I can think of nothing I have done to cause you to quake upon my lap."
"I am nervous, my lady," I said hesitantly.
This was technically true. She didn't need to know that my anxiety was not at the thought of being spanked but of thoroughly enjoying said spanking.
"I shall give you twenty smacks on your bottom, nothing else."
This seemed a curious statement to me but before I could consider what she might be implying, she continued.
"You must do your best to keep still until I am done, Miss Seymour. Do not seek to interfere or I shall be cross. You may, of course, indicate you are unsuited to serve me at any time and I shall desist."
"Yes, my lady."
"You must count out your smacks. If you lose count, we will have to start again."
Lady Lisle gave my bottom a brief caress then the hand lifted before being brought down with a stinging smack.
"One," I muttered.
I tried to imagine the hand smacking my backside belonged to someone other than Lady Lisle. Someone very unappealing. My former mistress' mother in law, perhaps. However, the memory of her disapproval only inflamed me more. I found myself thinking with rather perverse pleasure of her stern lecture on my wickedness.
"What was that?" Lady Lisle paused and I realized I had muttered aloud.
"Nothing, my lady," I responded, unable to keep from squirming slightly. "Is it over?"
"Have you managed to forget how many smacks I said you would receive? Or have you forgotten what number we are on?"
"You said I would receive twenty... I think we are on fifteen, my lady."
She tutted.
"That is incorrect. In fact, I do not think you even counted the last few now that I think about it. Do you remember what I told you would happen if you failed to count your smacks properly?"
I squirmed again and she delivered two sharp swats that caused a moan to escape from my lips.
"I asked you a question."
"You said we would start over if I did not attend to the counting," I admitted.
"And why did you fail in this task?"
"I suppose I became distracted?" I offered, sounding more like I was asking a question than answering one.
"I am not. At all. Sure," she said, punctuating her words with smacks. "That this punishment. Is having. The intended. Effect."
She paused as if waiting for a response from me.
"I am very wicked..." I mumbled.
"Indeed," she agreed. "What of it?"