I can't believe it.. I really did it, this is really happening. I'm going to college. So many thoughts raced though my mind as I stand just below the stage inching closer and closer to the top step. The time going slower and slower until they call my name, until I walk across the stage, shake hands, pose for pictures and receive my diploma. Everyone told me to enjoy life while I was young because the time would go by quickly, I didn't believe them. But now, here I stand, 18 years old, all grown up and now there's no turning back.
Summer went by fairly fast. I played my last summer travel season with my team and we wished each other luck as we were all attending different colleges. Some staying in state and others leaving. Some getting softball scholarships and others knowing this was the end of the road as they wouldn't be able to move on to the next level of softball, at least not yet. As moving day approached I was getting nervous. Would I like my roommates? Would they like me? How many roommates would I have? So many questions that couldn't be answered until I arrived.
I was staying in state attending a college that was basically like my second home. I had been going to work with my mom since I was young, when I was doing online school so I knew the campus very well. Besides that, my brother was now attending that university, he was a junior. The night before it was time to move in was probably the most nerve wracking for me. I couldn't sleep, I was just thinking about all of the possibilities. I had committed to play softball and was excited for that as well. They were a D2 school and I kept asking my self really how hard it would be to keep up with my studies while playing sports, I wasn't in high school anymore so I knew it would be a challenge.
The next morning i ate showered, and packed the last things in to my suit cases. I looked around the room like school wasn't 15 minutes away, like I would never see it again. Although, it may be true. Freshman are required to live on campus so I don't really know how often i'll be back. I loaded my things into an already packed Honda Civic and hopped in the car. I threw my beats over my ears and let the music play. "It's our party we can do what we want, it's our party we can say what we want, it's our party we can do what we want we can kiss who we want we can.." the music was interrupted by a text message. I looked down to see my ex- girlfriends name appear on the screen.
About 3 months ago I broke up with my girlfriend. She cheated on me yet she can't seem to get over the relationship. She texts me at least 6 times a day (Not including when I respond) and calls me twice a day but I usually don't pick up. I told her we should just be friends even though I didn't mean that. I didn't want anything to do with her. Even if I did mean what I said it wouldn't of mattered, she insisted she wanted a relationship, I refused. The car pulled in to the BUSY and FULL parking lot. I should of came to the room earlier and unpacked all of my things I mean it's not like I didn't know where I was going.
There were 4 dorms. There were all girl dorms, all boy dorms and then a dorm with boys and girls. Kennedy was the only boys and girls dorm but still, it was mostly girls. Then there was Bristle, the all girl dorm, Matt, the all boy dorm and Jazz, the all girl dorm. Every dorm had a "family" room which was a lounge room. With games, vending machines, microwaves, tv etc. It felt like home.
My mom and dad helped me carry my bags to my dorm, I was in Bristle. "You need help with that sweetie?" my mom asked seeing me carry 2 packs of 35 water bottles. "Thanks, but I think I got it" I said, my voice carrying backwards. I unlocked my dorm to see my roommate already inside. I paused, in shock. My parents looked around me to see my roommate. "Hi we're Sarah's parents" they said smiling and extending their hands. My roommate smiled and extended her hand. "Hi, i'm Jess. Nice to meet you" "Sarah, aren't you going to introduce yourself?" My mother said nudging my shoulder. Jess looked at me and then to my parents "There's no need we already know each other" She said with a smile My parents smile got even wider and said "Well isn't that great!!" I looked down aggravated and said "Yeah, something like that" My parents left leaving me and Jess to "catch up".
I continued to un pack my things not paying any attention to Jess. "So you're not going to say nice to see you again or ask me how i'm doing" Jess said "Jess, come on. this living arrangement isn't going to work. The hatred I have for you is unbelievable. I said we could stay friends but I didn't mean that. I can't stand you. I gave you my heart and you broke it. " I said holding back tears. I want to tell her to leave but seeing as we both live in this room I can't do that. "What are you even doing here? I thought you got a scholarship to play softball at Kentucky. Why didn't you take that instead of staying out here and why the fuck are you my roommate" I said anger starting to rise
"I took a scholarship here because of you. I'm your roommate because i requested to be. Sarah I love you. I made a mistake." she said looking me in the eyes
"You made a mistake? You weren't drunk you weren't high. You were in your right mind, you cheated on me knowing what you were doing. Knowing it would affect me. I can't forgive that. You can have this room to yourself, I won't be staying here much. I'll probably go stay with my brother at his apartment" I said grabbing my phone, walking to the door and closing it behind me.
