It is the little things that capture the imagination. The devil - the horny little devil - is in the detail. My eye is always drawn to the smaller picture. You can keep your supermodel looks and your Harvard MBAs, I'm far more likely to be drawn to a nicely turned ankle, the shape of a bra through a top, or a skirt curving neatly and snugly around an ass. Once noticed, those details gnaw away at my imagination, like a dog with a bone, leaving me - almost - helpless before the power of my own eroticism. Even the word wicked - now here's a clue for ya, if you want one - in an e-mail can be enough to set the pulse on a little dance. What's she thinking, what does she mean, how should I reply, she's feeling horny, to write that, hot to trot...
And I am captive. Sex is wonderful, beautiful, the supreme moment in any day, but is it right for me to be its slave? I have a responsible job, can I really afford to pull my chair in close to my desk, slide low in my chair, tease my skirt up my thighs and slip my hand inside my knickers, feeling the wetness of my pussy, just because a temp bent forward a little too far, or my most recent correspondent on Hotmail (now there's an appropriate name) told me what she was thinking or doing last night when she came? Steel chains couldn't hold and possess me more completely.
My resistance is weakest when it comes to my preference, my obsession. My perversion. I have been in the UK some years now, and I've decided that it is an English English word that describes what I like, what I crave, the most. The epicenter of the earthquake zone that is my sexual imagination, almost my sexual life, is a simple three letters that can be used quite innocuously in the grandest of company. But it has the power to thrill me to the very core.
****
"Of course in Rome, all they try to do is grab your bum." The voice was cut glass, the perfect product of the English public school. (By which they mean private school, by the way. No I don't understand either). The speaker, enjoying her Gap year (no I can't help on that one, either, but I'm pretty sure it has nothing to do with the clothing store), was eighteen or so, long blonde hair, and just graduated from said school. The bum in question - I risked stealing a quick peek - well, although it was covered by a sweet little blue silk number, I could tell the Romans got that one right. Seeing the way it swelled away from the slimness of her lower back, the hemline of her dress reaching midway down to her knees, as far as I was concerned grabbing was nothing, what this bum really needed was a full-on Samantha inspection, me kneeling behind her, reaching up...
Somewhere in the house, a bell sounded. Oh yes, the ceremony.
***
Sitting somewhere near the back, I tried to spot her. It didn't take long, the combination of blonde on blue was striking. The question on my mind, stupid really, I knew that, was "is she with somebody?"
She was talking to a guy on her left, leaning in, but that was probably just because everyone was trying to keep their voices down. Or because he was her boyfriend. Or because they liked each other, and at some point in the day they were going to get it on together. Shit.
***
I barely took in the ceremony. I'm sorry, but who really gives a fuck? I mean, how many marriages end in divorce? Tom had been married before, we all knew that, who was to say this would work out any better? It was nice to spend a weekend in a nice English house in the nice English countryside, but I, for one, was taking all this commitment and vows stuff with a whole cellar-full of salt.
Besides, I had better things to think of. My close observation had persuaded me that the Girl and the boy were not an item, nor were they going to be. His teeth were too big for a start. Which, theoretically, left the field open to me. Now I was fully aware of the likely outcome of the day's chase.
I may be sexy, pretty, seductive, hot and horny (yeah those are the kind of compliments that ring in the ears) but I knew damn well that an eighteen year old high-school graduate does not go to weddings looking to make out with twenty-nine year old American ladies. You won't find that happening in any films starring Hugh Grant. But just once in a while all the right buttons get pushed and, before you know it, and yo everyone's amazement, you're in the sack.
So there was just enough hope to let my mind wander. My eyes may have been open, but my imagination was in a completely different place altogether. As we'd walked in to the ceremony, me a convenient couple of feet behind, I was sure I'd picked out a couple of interesting details. First, she was wearing panties, not a thong. Probably worried what would happen when the dancing got going in a dress so short. Second, she had on a garter belt and stockings. That figured. Just out of school, she probably thought they were classy and sexy not uncomfortable and damn obvious.
So as the "I love you"s droned on, I let my mind slip. It was more a collage than a fantasy. The Girl, standing facing away, fingers toying nervously with her hem, lifting the dress, the smoothness of her thighs, and then the pert flesh of her bum, barely covered by the blue lace of her knickers. (I figured she'd have something matching and frilly). Those knickers coming down, revealing the bare flesh of that pretty young ass.
Despite the people around me, and the marriage ceremony less than thirty feet away, I could feel the familiar warm wet heat between my legs. I crossed my legs, then uncrossed them, fidgeting as my arousal increased with my fantasy.
Her hands, pulling her cheeks open for me, her head turned to one side as she wondered curiously, anxiously, why was I so interested in her bum? I tried to picture her asshole, so rudely exposed to me. How would it look, smell, taste, feel on the end of my tongue?
The ceremony was still going on. If they didn't hurry up and get married soon I would have to up and out somewhere private, my fingers teasing my poor throbbing clit to a desperate climax.
Then, the wedding service was over, people were standing up, and despite the dampness in my panties I was forced to return to reality. My mind was set, though. I was going to try to seduce her.
***
I won't bore you with the meal. The Girl and me were sat at different tables, and at mine the discussion mainly revolved around "hunting". In England that means chasing a fox(?!), and I'm afraid I may have slightly damaged transatlantic relations by my references to high velocity rifles and endangered species. Whatever.
So it was early evening before I could make my way over to her. The guy with the big teeth was still hanging around, but all the body language was going against him. He was actually a help to me, because it seemed all the other people she presumably knew were giving them a clear run at it.
"Hi," I said, "we weren't introduced earlier. I'm Samantha."
I wasn't sure she remembered me standing by during the earlier conversation, but cool as a cucumber she put out a hand. "Sarah." We both ignored Goofy.
"I so loved hearing you talking about Rome," I said. "It's such a beautiful city. Did you get to the Pantheon?" We were off.
***
There is a technique, that I think I have quite polished, of shifting a conversation imperceptibly into more intimate areas. I could say "I know what you mean about the men, they were all over my ass," we would laugh knowingly about having our bottoms fondled, and then I'd continue, leaning in, "but so good looking. And they don't disappoint, either." And to see the uncertainty of her reaction, and I knew - so she didn't put out in Rome.
We moved quickly to an easy, relaxed closeness, enough for Goofy to wander quietly off and anyone else to realize that joining in this conversation probably wasn't a starter.
There was a band playing, loud, not very good, but it was another plus for me, because the only way Sarah and I could talk was by leaning in and almost breathing into each others' ears. Sexy and intimate, but limited, so after a while I suggested we take a walk outside.
That was a make or break time. If she was worried about being monopolized, now was the time to make some polite excuses and scoot out of there. No. "Fine." I'm guessing she suspected I was coming on to her, and I'm guessing that, for the moment at least, that was fine too.
There was a bench outside partly lit by one of the windows. Now I like to think I can charm and seduce, but I'm not stupid. If Sarah had been a 100% died-in-the-wool hetero girl, no way she'd still have been there. Somewhere along the line I could only imagine that the possibility of a little Sapphic dabbling had appealed. Maybe just arousal in the changing room after sport, or an innocuous daydream about a friend that inexplicably turned bluer, but enough to plant a seed that would grow to the possibility, the potential, now, to think "Well I don't care if this yank is seducing me. Doesn't mean we have to do anything. And it's always nice to be flattered."
That said, I knew I had to be careful how I went at it from here. I was guessing that, however interested Sarah was in fucking me, at least part of her wasn't ready to admit that yet. I needed to follow an indirect path into her knickers.
My route was sex. Conspiratorially, maybe like big sister to little sister, I confided my experiences in Rome. Sucking off this guy, him being too rough, forcing my head down, wanting me to deep throat him when I didn't know how. (Yeah, right).
Course Sarah didn't know how either, so I explained how to practice, and I was sure she must be getting off on hearing me talk about such sexy things.