Sue's First Time
or What the School Nurse Taught Me
Sue grew up in central Florida in the 1980s. Her parents divorced when she was 12 years old, which changed life much to the worse for her and her mom, who received no money, only the house from the divorce settlement. As a result, they found themselves living in a neighborhood they could no longer afford but with nowhere else to go. Sue's mom had not worked since her marriage and had difficulty earning enough money from the part time jobs she could get. Perhaps because of the absence of a father in the home, her mom tried to compensate by increased strictness, a loving strictness, indeed, but Sue felt an absence of affection in the home. Although Sue was a fine student in school, she had trouble fitting in with the other kids. She did not have pretty clothes like the other girls and found herself pushed to the periphery of the very cliquish teenage world in which she lived.
As she entered her teens, her loneliness began to prey on her, and she began to fantasize about an ideal life where she could fit in. Often in these fantasies, there was an attractive older female, experienced and understanding, who guided Sue. These romantic schoolgirl fantasies changed a bit as Sue began to mature at 15 into a well developed young lady, much more so than the most of the girls at school. Sue was amused at the thought that she had inherited her dad's brains and her mom's very full figure.
Now boys began to take an interest in Sue, but she still felt awkward socially, not having pretty clothes or fitting in with the crowd. Her fantasy life began to take on a more explicit tone, focusing on strong, confident women leading and taking control of her. With her strict upbringing, this really disturbed Sue, so much so that she felt she had to talk to someone about these wild daydreams, but to whom could she talk?
She could not confide in mom; that was out of the question. The minister in her church was too straitlaced. Finally, Sue hit upon Maria, the school nurse, who might be sympathetic and discreet. At age 18, Sue was a bit heavy, 137 lbs., 5'4" with shoulder length, very curly, reddish brown hair. But she was noticed, that was something at least. Her beautiful, naturally curling hair and her large breasts often got her plenty of attention when she walked into a room.
Sue met with Nurse Maria on a Friday in March at the end of the school day. The 40-year-old nurse was a big woman, about 5'8" , still single, who lived through the girls she watched over in school. She had plenty of experience helping young girls with their adolescent problems. Maria asked, "Sue, please tell me what is on your mind?"
"I've been having dreams, fantasies, which I can't get out of my mind. I wonder if I should see someone, a psychologist, because it is getting hard to concentrate on my schoolwork."
"But, Sue, you are at the top of your class. What is the matter?"
"Nurse, these dreams have been haunting me more and more. Mostly, they are romantic fantasies about being with someone who cares for me. But in the last few months, the dreams have gotten more explicit, more sexual, and it is quite uncomfortable."
"Sue, I have been helping young girls like you for 15 years. I have heard everything, dear, so you won't shock me. Besides, these are only dreams, not real life. So tell Maria the most disturbing thing that happens to you in the dreams. Then I can help you, and it won't go outside this room."
Sue felt she had to come out with it. "Nurse, lately in the fantasies the older woman has been taking control of me, making me do things that it is hard to talk about--bad, nasty, dirty things."
"Tell, me, dear, what things!"
