"Final check before we start. Are you absolutely certain you're ready for this?"
I rolled my eyes at the question. "For the hundredth time, yes. I'm certain. I'm ready for this now. I want you to get in there and fuck my brain up." Kay was being overly cautious as usual. Since my last breakdown, she'd been treating me like a delicate glass sculpture that could shatter at any moment. Which wasn't entirely inaccurate, if I was being honest, but I really was feeling better this time. Kay had been prepping something special for today, and despite my constant pestering, she hadn't given me a single clue.
"Alright, one last thing before we start. Tell me your safewords." There was a stern tone in Kay's voice, almost like a schoolteacher going over the rules.
"Obsidian is I'm getting nervous, but it's your choice whether to continue or not. Cerulean is to pause the scene for a bit. Arcadia is to stop everything and reset as much as possible back to normal ASAP." It was a comprehensive list, but we were trying to be as safe as possible.
Kay had a cheeky grin on her face. "And the last one?"
I let out a deep sigh. "Marigold is 'I love what you're doing and want more of it but I'm too much of a scaredy-pants to admit it.' I really don't think it's necessary."
"Nonsense, you can never be too cautious when it comes to experiments. And today, my dear, we are going to experiment!" She held up a clipboard, revealing a lengthy checklist of some sort. She moved it away before I could get a proper look, but it appeared to be quite thorough. "Besides," she continued, "I don't want to be asking every thirty seconds if something is okay with you. We have a lot to get through, so the more ways you can quickly and easily express your feelings, the better."
It was hard to disagree with that. We'd already established some boundaries, such as not tackling any serious issues with the app for now. There were too many risks and it wasn't worth trying to fix something when we could just as easily make things worse. And besides, if I was being honest with myself, I wasn't sure I wanted to overwrite all of my issues. That was the sort of thing that could lead me to an identity crisis over whether I still existed, or if I was fundamentally someone new. Although Kay could theoretically use the app to make me not have an existential crisis. In any case, we were planning to use it for hot sex first and address complex personal problems later.
We'd also spoken at length over my feelings towards being forced to act more artificially. For whatever reason, the idea of being treated like an actual unthinking robot or even believing I was one was super hot. I knew there were plenty of humans into that sort of thing, so maybe that's why it didn't bother me as much as it should have. It didn't trigger the negative feelings of dissonance that Kay insisted on calling dysphoria. If anything, it made me feel better about myself, since I knew my real mind wasn't like that.
I'm a literal object with an objectification kink. Go figure.
Explaining why I felt fine with it to Kay had been the hardest part. It didn't work like her dysphoria at all, but she hadn't tried to fight me on it either. The two of us had spent literal hours going over everything, making sure our boundaries were clear, and trying to understand my weird mindset as best as possible.
And this was the result. Kay with her laptop open, clipboard next to her, mad scientist lab coat and glasses on. I just had my basic sweatpants and tank top. And I was ready to get on with it already. "So now that that's all cleared up, can you please tell me what you had in mind for today?"
Kay snapped a pair of rubber gloves on her hands. I had no idea where they came from. "Now, we're going to do some experiments. All systems are ready to go. Are you good to start? Remember, I'm not going to stop unless you safeword."
The mere thought caused a shiver to run through my system. "Hell yeah I'm ready, and you'd better not. Let's get cracking."
"Alright then. Test number one, begin." Kay pressed a single button, then looked up at me. "Tell me what you see."
My vision began to blur, as if the world was falling out of focus. Although strangely enough, Kay herself was crystal clear to me. I blinked rapidly, but it didn't help. Everything around me was a vague blur except for my partner. "Woah, that's so trippy. I can't make out anything but you. Did you make it so I can't see anything but Mistress or something?" The word fell out of my mouth without my control. "Wait, Mistress. You changed your name to Mistress as well, didn't you."
There was a mischievous grin on Kay's face. "Well it appears that the first experiment was a success. Turns out I can pre-load certain functions and trigger them all at once, rather than searching through the app every time. That'll be fun down the line." She wrote some notes down in her clipboard. "Now, let's make sure it's as easy to undo."
After a brief moment, my sight returned to normal. I no longer felt dizzy looking around the room. "All back to normal, Mistress." This time I made a deliberate effort to call her by her title instead of using her name.
Kay's eyes widened. "Wait, is it really still affecting you? You shouldn't have the speech filter anymore. Hang on, I'm going to-" her rambling stopped as she noticed my playful grin. "For fuck's sake Lina, you're gonna give me a heart attack. Is it really fine?"