A mild flash of irritation constricts my chest when I see the email notification with her name on it pop up on my screen. Or is it nervousness?
It's way too early for this shit.
It's always something with her. How a millennial (an older millennial, but still) can lack computer literacy is beyond me. I click open the email and scan the message. She is in top form this morning, which is to say she's characteristically blunt. Annoyed, I grab my phone and keys and shove them into the back pockets of my jeans as I leave my office. Another little flash of apprehension grips me when I hear my office door click closed behind me.
I really don't feel like playing nice today.
It's still very early and the building is absolutely quiet and still. This is usually the most productive part of my day precisely because no one is around to interrupt me with their SOS emails. I reach the stairs that will take me up to her first floor office and start to climb. My heart is beating a little bit faster by the time I come up on the open door to her office. I breathe deep and quiet the tension that's started to wrap itself around my chest again before popping my head through the doorway and knocking a knuckle lightly against the door to let her know I'm there.
"Good morning," I say when she looks up.
"Hey,"
She's sitting at her desk looking up from behind a laptop and two impractically large monitors. All I can see is the top of her blonde head and a pair of light hazel eyes behind chic tortoiseshell glasses.
"How's it going?" I ask, simultaneously trying to sound casual and knowing it sounds forced. I silently curse myself.
"Good," the clipped response comes quickly. "But I get a network error everytime I try to access my media server," she says, standing up and stepping out from behind her desk.
"Where is it?" I'm a bit confused. The "media server" she means is actually a Mac Mini computer with a two terabyte solid state drive that I put on the network for her to use as a place to keep the photos and videos she works with. My eyes flick to the spot where I'd left it on her desk, currently occupied by sticky notes of various sizes and a take away coffee cup, and flick back to her questioningly.
"The storage room," she indicates towards the back of the massive open plan office she shares with the journalists and photographers that work under her. "My desk was getting cluttered." She starts walking in that direction, expecting me to follow.
We walk past rows of desks arranged in groups of four and interspersed with coffee tables surrounded by armchairs and low sofas. Every coffee table is stacked with back issues of the publication we work for. Despite myself, my eyes start to linger on her longer than casual observation calls for.
Stop it.
I'm so curious about her though, I don't stop looking. She's tall but I can't quite tell if she's taller than I am, we are very similar in height. She's got an athletic build and I would guess that she was an athlete in school. As it turns out, we belong to the same gym where I've seen her running on the treadmill and where she always seems to find me while I'm stretching, twisted into some unflattering and ridiculous looking pose. Although, I'll admit to once strategically claiming a squat rack that was in her line of sight from her chosen treadmill. In my shorts and cut-off tank top I knocked out rep after rep, curious to see what, if anything, this would get out of her. I have no Idea if she watched me, but I hoped she had. That was ages ago though, and she'd never said or done anything to indicate that she'd noticed a bit. Regardless, it didn't really matter, it would be entirely inappropriate and unprofessional if anything were to actually happen between us.