May Jannah forgive me, I simply cannot stop these lustful thoughts which swirl around my head whenever I look at an attractive female. Since I've had sex with a woman for the first time, and Nadeeya Osman, of all women, my life has changed. My name is Amina Khalid, and I'm a young Somali Muslim woman living in the City of Ottawa, Ontario. Got one hell of a story to share with you folks today.
The worlds of Islam and lesbianism aren't supposed to mix. That's what I was taught. We Muslims are supposed to live a certain way, and homosexuality and lesbianism definitely aren't part of it. I used to believe that one cannot be lesbian and a Muslim. Now I am not so sure. There are lots of queer women in the City of Ottawa, and the Islamic community is full of them. That's what I am discovering these days.
Ever since Nadeeya Osman and I first had sex, life hasn't been the same. I find myself craving what she does, and I've come back to her, again and again. Nadeeya Osman, the tall, short-haired, athletic Somali chick whom I used to mock for her tomboyish style and western ways because I considered myself a proper Muslim sister, never venturing out of the house without my Hijab, or my Holy Book.
Nadeeya Osman, the young Muslim woman who brought intense pleasure and lots of confusion into this carefully ordered life of mine. I am a prim and proper Somali Muslim sister. I go to school, I go to work and I go to the Masjid. I shun the company of unrelated members of the opposite sex. Those are the things that a good Muslim sister is supposed to do.