Looking out over the valley filled my heart with emotions so twisted, I couldn't untangle them. The sun setting slowly over the distant crest of the tree lined ridge looked enticing. This was my spot, where I came to contemplate the universe. Unfurl the tight knots of tension.
Today... The worst day of my life. The shame, the embarrassment, burnt deep.
"Why god damn it, why?" I screamed at the gods hiding somewhere above.
"You're a bloody fool. Why couldn't you keep your stupid mouth shut?" Picking up a small pebble, I tossed it listlessly over the edge. The steep cliff falling away from view. I counted, waiting to hear it hit bottom. Three seconds... About 45 metres, my estimation.
I couldn't shake the despondency. How the hell was I going to face her now? They'd all be laughing at me. Silly little, Skylar.
The tears came without warning, and there was no stopping them. I wiped my nose ferociously. The polypropylene soaking up the snotty tears. "Fuck!" I screamed loudly, enjoying the echoes.
Maybe I should just jump, get it over and done with. My life was over now anyway. I kicked forlornly at a loose rock. The sun sank below the tree line. The trees filtering the last rays of the sun. I stood up, moved closer to the edge. Leaning out I swallowed, it was a long way down, closer. The loose gravelly sand grinding beneath my feet.
Who was I kidding, I didn't have the guts for it. I wanted to, but, that's the wishy washy spineless person I was. Sitting back down on the large rock, I drew my feet up underneath me.
I felt, rather than saw the presence. "Can I sit down Skylar?"
I didn't have to look up. "What do you want Melie?"
"I wanted to check you were okay."
"How did you know I would be up here?"
"Where else were you going to be."
"Yeah, guess."
She grabbed my hand in both of hers squeezing tight. "Skylar, I'm so sorry. You caught me by surprise. I wasn't expecting that."
"Forget it, I don't care."
"Rubbish," she sighed. "That's clearly a lie. Your top, is sodden."
"Dust." I mumbled.
"No, don't lie. I hurt you. Like I said you caught me off guard."
"What a joke, you made it pretty clear Melie. You're not interested. I get it."