Looking out over the valley filled my heart with emotions so twisted, I couldn't untangle them. The sun setting slowly over the distant crest of the tree lined ridge looked enticing. This was my spot, where I came to contemplate the universe. Unfurl the tight knots of tension.
Today... The worst day of my life. The shame, the embarrassment, burnt deep.
"Why god damn it, why?" I screamed at the gods hiding somewhere above.
"You're a bloody fool. Why couldn't you keep your stupid mouth shut?" Picking up a small pebble, I tossed it listlessly over the edge. The steep cliff falling away from view. I counted, waiting to hear it hit bottom. Three seconds... About 45 metres, my estimation.
I couldn't shake the despondency. How the hell was I going to face her now? They'd all be laughing at me. Silly little, Skylar.
The tears came without warning, and there was no stopping them. I wiped my nose ferociously. The polypropylene soaking up the snotty tears. "Fuck!" I screamed loudly, enjoying the echoes.
Maybe I should just jump, get it over and done with. My life was over now anyway. I kicked forlornly at a loose rock. The sun sank below the tree line. The trees filtering the last rays of the sun. I stood up, moved closer to the edge. Leaning out I swallowed, it was a long way down, closer. The loose gravelly sand grinding beneath my feet.
Who was I kidding, I didn't have the guts for it. I wanted to, but, that's the wishy washy spineless person I was. Sitting back down on the large rock, I drew my feet up underneath me.
I felt, rather than saw the presence. "Can I sit down Skylar?"
I didn't have to look up. "What do you want Melie?"
"I wanted to check you were okay."
"How did you know I would be up here?"
"Where else were you going to be."
