"You need something, Maryann?"
"Could I have something for pain?" Her voice was small and hesitant.
"I'll check. If you can, I'll bring it and then let it take effect and then," Sharon Caswell, R.N., paused with a whimsical smile of her face, "we'll do your bath."
Maryann Hollander sort of laughed and then groaned, "Sharon don't make me laugh, it hurts."
"Okay, babe, sorry. I'll be right back."
Maryann Hollander lay back in her hospital bed and waited, hoping, praying, it was time for something for pain. She had been in a bad car accident and had spent the last eight weeks in the Intensive Care Unit.
The first week in the Unit she was unconscious for which she was very thankful. She missed the worst of the post-operative pain from having her spleen removed and her leg in traction. This was her first day on the Orthopedic floor with her leg out of traction but she was still in a fair amount of pain.
"Okay, babe, here you go." Sharon was back, holding out a medicine cup with two white pills and a smaller yellow one.
Maryann took the cup and looked inside while Sharon poured her a cup of water. "What's this?"
"Two oxycodone's and a Valium."
"What's the Valium for?"
"Muscle relaxation. You're going to be walking today with PT."
"Ohhhhhh," Maryann groaned, "no one told me."
"Yeah, fun with Physical Therapy begins today. Sorry."
Maryann popped the pills in her mouth and Sharon handed her the water. "I'm going to take your catheter out in a while, too."
Sharon pulled Maryann's covers up around her chin, lightly touched her forehead and said, "I'll be back in a while. You rest."
Soon Maryann felt the pain begin to melt away and she felt like she was floating.
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Maryann heard the curtain go around her bed and then felt her covers come back and her hospital gown come up around her waist but she didn't open her eyes. She was still floating, very pleasantly.
"Hey Mary, wake up." Sharon said gently.
Maryann opened her eyes and then involuntarily shivered. "I'm cold," she complained.
"Here, I anticipated." Sharon laid a blanket from the warmer over Maryann's upper body and then another over her legs leaving her upper thighs and hips uncovered. "Time to take the cath out."
"Will it hurt?"
"Nah, might feel a bit funny for a few seconds but it'll be over before you know it."
Sharon reached for the valve on the catheter and stuck a syringe in it.
"I itch down there," Maryann said, half embarrassed.
"They shaved you. I think they thought they might have to so some surgery in your pelvic area. I'll put some lotion and powder on it when we bathe."
Sharon pulled the water out of the balloon that kept the catheter inside Maryann with the syringe and then looked at Maryann, "Okay, here we go."
Sharon pulled the catheter out and Maryann involuntarily tried to close her thighs as the catheter passed by the sensitive area of her urethral opening and she felt the urgent need to pee.
"There. Not so bad, was it?"
Maryann smiled a small smile, "No. Not so bad."
Sharon moved the bedside table over the bed and pushed the button on the bed rail to raise the head of Maryann's bed so she was almost in a sitting position. There was a plastic basin with water and several washcloths on the table.
"You want to do your front and then call me and I'll do your back?"
"Uh, Sharon, do you, uh, have the time to do it all?" Maryann was hesitant.
"What's the problem, Maryann?" Sharon looked at her patient with concern.
"Uh, I...no problem. Really." Maryann stuttered in her small voice and pulled an arm out from under the warm blanket and slowly reached for a washcloth.
Sharon pulled the washcloths back just out of Maryann's reach. "Funny, it sounds as if there's a problem."
Maryann blushed. "I...uh, well, I..."
Sharon looked down at the floor and quietly said, with a hint of question in her voice, "You don't want to waste your high, you're a little lonely and you like the way it feels when someone else bathes you? Those ICU nurses spoiled you, didn't they?"
"I'm sorry. I know it's wrong to feel this way. I'll do it."
"Whoa! What do you mean it's wrong?"
"Being high, wanting someone to touch my body...being naked for you...isn't that all a
sin
?"
Sharon looked at her patient for a moment then she pulled her chart off the end of the bed and looked at Maryann's admitting sheet.
"Ah. I think I understand," Sharon said gently, "I'll be right back."
Sharon was back in a minute with another nurse who looked slightly older than Maryann and who had long, black hair down to her butt. "Maryann, this is Jeannie. She's going to have you in a day or two when I'm off. She used to go to the Apostolic Church. I wanted her to talk to you about bath time. Okay?"
Jeannie stepped up near the head of the bed and casually pulled the covers up so they covered Maryann's naked pelvic area. "Hi, Maryann. Sharon tells me the ICU nurses spoiled you and now you're having a little problem with your conscience."
"Ummmm, well, uh, this is wrong, isn't it?"
"Listen Maryann, my daddy was a Pentecostal preacher and watching TV and going to movies and listening to rock music was all a sin. Sound familiar?"
"Uh, yeah." Maryann looked away.
"Anything that might make you happy was generally bad, right?"
"My daddy's a preacher too. Yeah, he tells us those things are bad."
"Where is your daddy?"
"Mom and Daddy have kinda shunned me since I moved here. They were here for a while when I was in ICU but they went back home. It really upset them to find out why I was in the wreck."
"And why was that, hon?"
"I was riding with one of the few friends I've made since moving here. She was drunk. I, uh, was a little drunk, too."
"Hmmmm," Jeannie bent down close to Maryann's face, "Now listen to me honey, okay? You've been through a lot and you've still got a lot to go before you're completely well. You've got a lot on your mind right now too. So you need to kind of set your conscience aside and let us take care of you and let your body feel good. Will you do that? No one here is going to judge you."
"I'll, uh, try." There was a glimmer of relief in her voice now.
"Good. Now, I've got to talk to Sharon for a minute and then she'll be back to give you a bath, okay? You still in pain?"
Maryann crinkled her face and wrestled with her conscience, "Uh...no..."
"Maryann," Jeannie said sternly, her voice rising in pitch.