I sighed deeply as I unpacked the last of my toiletries onto the little wooden shelf in my corner of the cabin. It was the first day of a long summer, and while I was excited to begin my third year as a Counselor at Camp Chipewana, I was still smarting from being dumped out of the blue the night before. I had been with Lauren for 18 months, and it had always been perfect. We were even planning to share an apartment on campus for senior year. As I straightened the quilt on my bed and folded my clothes neatly in my trunk, I thought about the events of the preceding night, my last night in the city before two months in rural Vermont.
Weâd had dinner at a sushi place â her favorite â and after a few too many glasses of sake, weâd gone back to my house and had amazing sex on the couch for an hour while my parents were out at some benefit dinner. Then, on her way out the door, she told me it wasnât working for her and there was someone else, someone from her theater internship. Iâd cried and pleaded, but she told me this girl â this woman, actually, as she was in her thirties, way older than Lauren â was right for her and that sheâd been thinking about breaking up with me for some time. I didnât get much sleep and had to be up at the crack of dawn for my bus to Lakerton. Now, as dusk was setting in, most of the campers had arrived, settled in, and were in the big wooden auditorium that served as both a stage and a dining hall eating pizza and drinking âbug juiceâ. I checked my reflection in the dusty old mirror hanging from a single nail on the cabin door. Not bad, I thought, for a girl who just got dumped. My eyes were slightly puffy from hours of crying the night before, but other than that, I was surprised by how good I looked. The daily trips to the gym were paying off. I wore a white wife-beater that showed off my abs and shorts that showed off my trim thighs. I smirked to myself as I let the cabin door bang behind me. A lot of the other Counselors were lesbians, whether out of the closet or not. Maybe Iâd get lucky this summer and forget all about Lauren.
As I entered the noisy, crowded auditorium, I spotted Janie and Max, the owners and directors of Camp Chipewana. Janie waved me over with her clipboard. She was a strange little woman who dressed like a hippie and wore a big flower in her hair. âLydia! Darling! Welcome back!â she gave me a big hug. âYouâre late; your campers are almost done with dinner. Donât worry though â Samantha has been keeping an eye on them.â She motioned to a table in the back of the room. I could see Samanthaâs flame red hair over the sea of heads. Iâd known Sam for years, back when we were both campers. She was three years younger than me so we werenât exactly friends but we got along. Now, about to start her freshman year of college, she was a Counselor-in-Training, assigned to help me run my cabin and keep the kids in line. She had always been funny-looking â tall, skinny, and gawky, with lots of freckles. Her parents had home-schooled her through high school since they lived in the middle of nowhere in New Hampshire, so she was a bit socially awkward and was the butt of jokes when she didnât understand slang or pop culture references. Her taste in clothes had always been slightly out of the ordinary. She was perfectly nice though, so I was relieved when Janie and Max had assigned her to me. I was in for a surprise, however, when I got to the table and saw Sam for the first time in a year.
âWOW!â I exclaimed as she stood up to give me a big hug. âHi! Youâve changed!â She giggled and took a step back to let me inspect her. Gone was the lanky girl Iâd known since we were kids. Sheâd grown into her body and looked amazing. Her red hair and freckles had taken on a Julianne Moore-like quality, making her look beautiful instead of awkward. Sheâd filled out since last summer â her legs were still ten miles long but they werenât skinny, they were toned and lean. Most of all I noticed her breasts. Last year sheâd been flat as a pancake. Now her large, full, round breasts strained against the thin cotton of her thin grey Camp Chipewana t-shirt, her nipples showing as she clearly wasnât wearing a bra. I was getting a little wet despite myself. I couldnât take my eyes of her chest; sheâd gone from an A to at least a C in a year. âYou look so great!â I stammered, my eyes wide. She noticed my shock and giggled.
âYeah, yeah, I know. I finally got boobs. It took long enough,â she laughed, cupping her breasts in her hands. I felt my panties get even wetter watching her nipples harden to her touch. She was still obviously socially retarded, and didnât know that you shouldnât fondle yourself in public. Whatever, I liked the show and I wasnât going to tell her to stop.
For the first few days of camp, I couldnât concentrate on anything but Samantha. All thoughts of Lauren were banished â this total knockout was living in my cabin! I was in heaven. Her bed was next to mine; sometimes Iâd catch myself staring at her while she was sleeping. Luckily, since she didnât know the rules of propriety, she changed her clothes out in the open, right in front of me. Our 12-year-old campers didnât really care, but I certainly did. I loved watching her peel off her little t-shirts and stand topless in the middle of the cabin, looking for her swimsuit. Her breasts were perfect â pale white with a few cute freckles, large pink areolas and pointy nipples. I wanted to suck on them more than anything. I would touch myself in the shower just thinking about my tongue on her breasts, licking and sucking. As far as I knew, Sam was oblivious to my huge crush on her.
Things changed between me and Sam on the first weekend of camp. The kids were all gone for two days, on a hike through the hills. Theyâd be sleeping in tents and roasting marshmallows. Luckily, Janie and Max only took the Head Counselors with them to supervise, leaving us college kids to do what we wanted for two whole days. Most of the Counselors had taken the bus to the nearest town to the movies or bars. I was tired and decided to stay behind and relax by the lake for the weekend. Sam had decided to stay too. On Saturday evening, after a quiet day of reading on the shore of Lake Chipewana, I returned to the cabin. I found Sam curled up on her bed, sobbing.
âWhatâs the matter Sam?â I immediately rushed to her and draped my arms around her.
âDonât worry about it. You canât help.â She hid her face in her pillow. I stroked her back slowly, feeling her delicate shoulders all the way down to her perfect hips.
âWell, tell me anyway, I donât like to see you upset.â
She sat up and wiped her tears away. She still looked beautiful, even with tears running down her cheeks. As usual, she wasnât wearing a bra. Her nipples were hard, pointing at me through her tank top. She was wearing the tiniest, shortest shorts Iâd ever seen. For a moment I thought I glimpsed her red bush as she crossed her legs.
âSomethingâs wrong with me. Iâm not normal,â she sobbed.
âWhat do you mean?â I stroked her back again.
âWell, Iâve never kissed a boy.â
I laughed. âSam, you didnât go to high school. Youâve never even had the opportunity to meet boys, let alone kiss them. Youâre starting college in two months, and youâre a total knock-out. The boys wonât be able to keep their hands off you.â
I thought I was comforting her, but she just started crying again.
âThatâs not what I mean though! I donât think I want to kiss boys. Like this morning I saw Angela coming out of the lake. She was wearing a really skimpy bikini. I donât know why but I couldnât stop staring at her. I could see her nipples and her body was all wet and she was dripping. It just seemed really beautiful. She saw me staring. I was practically drooling. She came over to me, really angry, and asked if I was a dyke. I donât know what that means! What if itâs true?â
She was crying harder this time. I couldnât believe what I was hearing.