Second Sight Ch. 9
The walk back to their dorm room from Nancy and Maura's room seemed to take forever for Kimberly and Maria. Up until now they had just been roommates. Now there was a chance they would become something more. Kimberly had never conceived about having sex with another girl. Maria had been planning to try to convince Nancy and Maura to bring her into their lives completely and for them to become a throuple. Suddenly, it seemed like some walls might be crumbling down.
Maria closed the door and leaned back against it. Kimberly had crossed into the room before she turned around to stare at the gorgeous Latina standing before her. Kimberly was so nervous because she also knew that Maria was an experience lesbian lover (although she did not know just how experienced). How could she possibly be enough for such a beautiful and experienced woman? How could she hope to please her, satisfy her sexually. She had absolutely no idea, but she knew she wanted to try.
Kimberly had suggested they make love the night before and Maria had said "No." She did not want to do it the same night Kimberly had broken up with her longtime boyfriend. Maria had been just a good friend last night and just a good friend all day today. Now Kimberly was ready to try again.
Maria just leaned against the door, staring at her. Kimberly thought, "
God she is so beautiful and sexy. She is so out of my league. Why does she just keep staring at me?
" Kimberly was actually getting annoyed at Maria staring and it gave her the courage to ask, "Why do you keep staring at me?"
"Because when we're seventy years old and sitting on our couch together watching television, or whatever it is we watch in the future, I want to remember this moment."
"This beautiful goddess wants to spend the rest of her life with me
?" The initial joy that this thought brought to Kimberly was countered by a sudden sense of panic, "
This beautiful goddess wants to spend the rest of her life we me.
" Kimberly stood rooted to the spot until Maria's next words broke her out of her daze.
"Get on my bed." Maria said in an authoritative voice.
"Why your bed?" asked Kimberly.
"Because the moment you don't feel comfortable with anything that is happening, you can leave. I won't be upset, I won't force you to stay or even try to convince you to stay. We will still be friends and as long as you still want to, we can still be roommates. I want to be sure anything we are doing is what you want to do."
Kimberly felt a tremendous sense of relief at these words. Thinking back to the previous night and how she felt with Maria holding her throughout the night, the one word that came to her mind was, "
Safe! Protected! Wait, which is it? That's two words but they mean the same thing. I know I felt...
"
"Unless you think I'm moving too fast?" Maria noticed that Kimberly was not moving and seemed to be in some kind of internal struggle. Maybe she had misjudged things.
Hearing that caused Kimberly to jump. "No, no." Kimberly ran over to Maria's bed and hopped on, the bedframe banging into the wall. "I want to do this so much; it's just I really cannot believe that we might actually do this."
Maria smiled. She could sense Kimberly's nervousness, but she was now on Maria's bed. That was exactly where Maria hoped Kimberly would be when they woke up the next day.
Maria said, "Kneel up in the middle." There was no questioning this time, Kimberly just did as Maria had said. Maria climbed on the bed and kneeled as well. The two young women were facing each other only inches apart.
Kimberly said, "I wish I was beautiful like you."
Maria replied, "You are beautiful."
"You're just saying that to be nice."
"AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!" Maria screamed in frustration. "Come over here." she said to Kimberly as she got off the bed. Maria stood in front of the mirror and when Kimberly came over, she put her hands on Kimberly's shoulder and stood behind her. Now only Kimberly could be seen in the mirror.
Maria said, "Tell me what I see."
Kimberely replied, "The back of my head."
They both laughed at this. When they stopped laughing Maria moved Kimberly back into the same position and said, "Okay smartass, I'll tell you what I see. I see a very beautiful young woman. Now, are there women in the world who might be as beautiful as you or maybe even a little more beautiful? Yes. But I am not making a comparison, I am just stating a fact. You are beautiful. Plus, I've known you now for over five months and I also know how beautiful you are in here." At this moment, Maria put her arms around Kimberly and joined her hands up against Kimberly's stomach.
Maria added, "I don't want you to be beautiful like me or anyone else. I want you to be your own beautiful self. That woman in the mirror is why I'm here tonight. That is the woman I want to be with. That is the woman I want to want me. And that is the woman I want to get back up on the bed. Okay?"
Maria had moved over a little but was looking at Kimberly through the mirror. "Okay." was Kimberly's reply. She continued to look straight ahead but made eye contact with Maria in the mirror and smiled.
Maria's face suddenly turned stern and she said, "Well, get up there then." Kimberly was initially shocked by the tone, but Maria quickly went back to a smile and Kimberly hopped back up on the bed.
They were both back kneeling on Maria's bed facing each other when Kimberly asked, "Why is it suddenly
me
you want to be with?" Without mentioning any names, it was clear by her tone that Kimberly was referring to Nancy and Maura. The smile dropped from Maria's face. The thing was, she did not really have a good answer for the question. She had an answer, but even she did not like it. Still, it was all she had and she did not want to start this relationship with something other than honesty.
"Kimmy, I don't exactly know myself. I have known you for over five months and I have never thought of you as anything other than a friend. And it's not just because I knew you were already with Brent. I just never really felt this way about you before.
"But when I saw you last night, I just...you were so beautiful but so sad. And it just seemed so wrong that you would be sad. You should never be sad. You are too wonderful a person and I just had to hold you and comfort you and protect you from all the bad in the world, not just Brent. The feeling overwhelmed me and it was like my sole purpose was to hold you. I've never felt like that with
anybody
before." Again, no names were mentioned but Kimberly knew that Maria was also talking about Nancy and Maura.
Kimberly began to tear up a little and she said, "That's why I am on this bed right now."
"What? I'm not...what do you mean?" asked Maria.
"No one has ever just held me like that. Took me in their arms and let me know without even having to say it that I was safe and protected. Brent never did anything like that. We hardly ever cuddled and I think he only did it because he read somewhere he was supposed to and he felt obligated.
"Even my parents never did anything like that I can remember. Maybe when I was a little baby. They are not the most affectionate people in the world. But last night just felt so...right."
This also caused Maria to tear up and sniffle a little. However, they were both smiling as they had just expressed to each other a sentiment which, while they had used a lot of words, could also have been summed up in just three.
They leaned into each other and tilted their heads and let their lips touch for the first time. "OH!" said Kimberly as she pulled back almost instantly.
"What's wrong?" asked Maria.
"Nothing. I was surprised that's all. Your lips are so soft that it was nothing like kissing Brent. I liked it but it was a surprise."
"Well, now that you are expecting it, let's try that again." This time the kiss did not stop. It was long and slow. Throughout the kissing, their hands ran up and down each other's back or through the other's hair.
Maria moved things to the next level when she brought one hand around Kimberly's body and lightly stroked the back of her fingers across one of Kimberly's nipples. They were both still clothed, so the contact was minimal. Still, when Maria's fingers first ran over the nipple, Maria could feel that it was already hard. Kimberly did jump a little at this contact as well, but this time it did not disrupt the kiss.
Kimberly's breathing was getting noticeably short as Maria continued to let her fingers gently skim across Kimberly's breasts and over her nipples. Kimberly finally broke the kiss. She looked at Maria and said, "You know, even thought I was not into girls, I have snuck peeks at your breasts from time to time. Can I see them now?"