You are the very first person my eyes discover as I enter the library. I am soon to turn 32 and I have not been with another woman since, well, since too long ago. I smile at you as I have that thought. Maybe you can read my mind because you smile back at me in a way that makes a delicious shiver slink up my spine. My smile changes into a goofy grin accented by a deep blush and I move away towards the book stacks, trying to recover my composure. I roam the isles, but my mind keeps drifting back to the ecstasy I felt when I was in the arms of my college girlfriend. Our love was so fresh and new. My willingness to open to her love was complete. Maybe it is the shape of your body that reminds me of her, or the way you tuck that strand of hair behind your right ear. I swallow hard, my mouth has gone dry. I feel silly, skulking around the room, trying to catch unseen glimpses of you. Backing around the corner, I swirl and bump right into you - blushing again, I apologize. Oh my, you are so young, so pretty, so attractive. I smell your perfume and in that second it takes for my nose to inhale your scent and my mind to register my desire, I decide that I want you.
I pull myself together and look you in your eyes. They are so beautiful. Your lashes are long, your eyes bright. Your nose is freckled like a robin's egg and your lips are round, soft, moist and curl up impishly at the corners. You are wearing a camisole under a wide necked tee shirt and as I am taller, I can look down and see the round swells of your breasts. I wonder if you can hear how loud my heart is beating.
"Hi", I manage. You say "hi" back. Oh, how I want you. I hear myself talking to you, telling you about how you remind me about a friend I knew from college, you tell me that you are new in Anchorage and looking to meet people. On an impulse, I say "my apartment is just down the street, would you like to come by now for some tea?" OMG, you are nodding your head. My husband is gone tonight on a business trip to Fairbanks and my library trip today was my attempt to find something to sooth the restlessness I have been feeling. Little did I know...
Our house is on a cul-de-sac atop a small knoll. We have no immediate neighbors and a commanding view of the Chugach mountains to the east. The living room is cozy with wood accents and a large rock fireplace in one corner. Everyone comments how "comfortable" they feel upon entering as do you as you take off your shoes and plop into the overstuffed couch facing the mountains. I busy myself starting the fire, putting the kettle on and shedding my coat. I am wearing my favorite purple silk blouse with a multicolored vest over the top. I gave up on bras several years ago and use the vest to cover my nipples which are quite large and stay constantly hard in the cold Alaskan climate. I decide to take off the vest.