Samantha Pt 8
Please go read part 1 through 7 before reading this...
After running into Anna in the hallway between seminar's and agreeing to dinner at 6:30, I was so excited that I could barely focus throughout the rest of my afternoon classes. As soon as I finish up in the afternoon I head back to my room. After this long day, I took a short nap then jumped into a shower. I shaved my legs and Vagina to make sure I am ready for tonight. I dressed in an old faded pair of blue jeans, my Florida Beach T-shirt, bobbie socks and my gym shoes. At 6:30 P.M. I was in the elevator hitting the up button. I arrived on her floor and walk towards Anna's room. I knock on her door and hear her yell, "Just one minute."
Anna opens the door and smiles at me, she says, "Please come in."
As I enter into her room, she greets me with a big hug. Her room is slightly different than mine, but it's still a pretty nice room. Anna says, "The room service menu is on the bed, look through it and let me know what you want, I'm pretty hungry so I'd like to order right away."
I look through the menu and decide on a cheeseburger, fries and a coke. Anna picks up the phone, calls in our order and we sit down at the little round table in her room. We chat about our day and as nervous as I am to be here with her, I am overly excited and anxious. We sit for a bit just talking waiting on our food, but the more we chat the more she seems to be drifting off to other pressing thoughts.
I ask her, "Are you ok?"
Anna smiles at me and says, "Yes, sorry, I have been in a blah mood today. Mark has been on my mind all day and I really miss him."
I ask, "Was Mark the guy you were with after your divorce?"
"Yes," Anna replies.
Anna continues, "We met a few years back and fell instantly in love with each other, but due to circumstances out of my control, I was unable to leave my marriage when I wanted to. Mark finally got tired of waiting and called it quits."
Just as she was finishing up her sentence there was a knock at the door, "Room Service!"
Anna got up and opened the door. I followed her to help with the platters of food. We sat back down at the table and start eating. I can tell she was upset; because she only ate about half of her food and started fading out again in thought.
I ask her, "Does Mark know your divorced?"
Anna replies, "I don't think so and I doubt he'd even care."
I ask her, "Did you ever tell him?"
Anna says, "No, because the last time we talked I told him I had to stay and work on my family, which never worked out, so he probably thinks I'm still there." Anna follows up, "I hurt him badly and inadvertently treated him like shit, so I don't blame him for walking away. But when he left, it broke my heart."
I reply, "Maybe you broke his too."
Anna nods her heads and mumbles, "I'm sure I did."
I propose she should call him, but she shakes her head no and goes back to nibbling at her food.
I ask Anna, "Did Mark know about your previous lesbian experiences?"
Anna replies, "Yes he knows of them. But Mark said he wasn't to concerned with that because he had dated Bi-Sexual women before and has been involved in several threesomes." Anna follows up by saying, "Mark said he would never ask for one, but if I found a woman I was interested in, I could court / date her as long as he knows about it and is involved."
Sounds like Anna had a good guy.
After we finish eating, I press the issue with her by saying, "Why don't you just call him, now that you're divorced? Let him know you're still thinking about him and still have feelings for him."
Anna replies, "I know when he left, he was really mad and hurt at me for not leaving when I promised; that I didn't manage to make us happen. I don't blame hm for leaving. However, when he said goodbye to me it absolutely broke my heart. I just couldn't handle another rejection from him, if he doesn't want to see me or talk to me. My heart can't handle that again."
I feel so bad for her. I know what it's like to have your heart broken and be rejected by someone you truly love. I begin to think back to the night I met Ashley. How she went out of her way to meet me and sit and listen to me, before she offered advice or suggested anything. I remember her letting me vent and say what I needed to say which helped me tremendously. Suddenly, I get an idea. I stand up, take Anna by the hand and start walking her to her bed. Anna starts to talk, but I cut her off and tell her, "This isn't about sex, just sit on the bed and hear me out."
I tell her about my dilemma and how amazingly and surprisingly Ashley had helped me out.
I told Anna, "Tonight, I am Mark. I want you to do is close your eyes and visualize yourself showing up at Mark's house and knocking on his door. Mark lets you in and you sit down and talk to him and say everything you need to say."
Anna looks at me funny and unwillingly agrees. She closes her eyes as I start talking through it. Once in her mind, she is at Mark's house and talking with him I whisper to her, "Now tell me what you have to say."
Anna takes a breath, gathers her thoughts and says,
"Mark, I am sorry things turned out the way they did. I wanted to leave there, you know that, but uncontrollable circumstances kept me there. I love you. I have never stopped loving you. I think about you every day and wish I could be here with you permanently. My heart died the day you left and I am still not over that heartache. There isn't a day I don't want to call you, see you or talk to you, but I couldn't keep dragging you along, so I left you in peace. I miss you so much. I see you in my dreams, feel you in my heart and know I fucked up. I want to be with you again. I want us to start over, I want to be everything you have ever needed. I want you to know I have never loved anyone else deeper than I love you. I want to prove to you that you didn't waste your time and that you meant the world to me then, just as you do now. I want to be your wife and build a family with you. I am in absolute love with you and I don't ever want to lose you again. Please give me, give us another chance."
When Anna finishes speaking and opens her eyes, I am literally crying. Those words were the most heartfelt things I have ever heard and I wish somebody, somewhere in my life would have said those words to me.
I lean forward and just hold Anna as she breaks down and starts crying. I let her get it out for a bit, until I have another idea. As she starts to compose herself; I sit upwards as Anna is straightening herself out, I tell her, "Grab your phone and call Mark right now."
Anna replies, "No, I can't, No."
I shake my head yes telling her, "Anna, you absolutely have to! Those were the most beautiful words I have ever heard and if Mark hears that, he will start over with you again. I have no doubt. And if you don't call him, I'm going to snatch your phone, find him in your contacts and call him myself."
After some more back and forth Anna gets up and grabs her phone. She stares at it for a while still giving me all the reasons why she can't call, instead of the reasons why she should. Finally, she dials Mark. Her hands shaking as she holds her phone out listening to it rings. I hear him answer and she puts him on speaker phone. She nervously and anxiously tells him; she'd like to see him after she gets back to Chicago because she has some things to tell him. After a bit more of back and forth, Mark agrees and Anna ends the call. I can see the weight just lift from her shoulders and her mind eases. She is giddy as a school girl and practically jumps into my arms thanking me for helping her with this. She is so excited she can barely get words out of her mouth and her mood and mind set has surely changed. I can tell her heart is coming back to life and she needs time to think. It's almost 8:00 O'clock and I decide it's time for me to go and let her celebrate her success by herself.
I tell Anna, "Hey it's getting late, my back hurts a bit and I need to get my shit packed so I can blast out of here tomorrow as soon as sessions are done." I follow up by saying, "I'm driving all the way back to Florida and it's a long drive, so I need a good night's sleep."
Anna appears shocked and surprised I am leaving, but says she understands. Anna walks me to the door and gives me a big hug and thanks me again for helping her. She holds my hands and tells me, "I never expected to meet someone like you, I hope you and David have a great life together."
I tell her, "I hope everything works out for you back home."
Anna slides her hand out of mine as I turn my back to her and walk out of her room. I hear the door shut behind me as I walk towards the elevator. Part of me disappointed we did sleep together again, but part of me absolutely ecstatic she may re-kindle a romance with the man she wants to be with. I get back to my room and start packing up my stuff. After getting all packed and organized I flop down onto my bed. I was just drifting off into deep thought, when I heard a knock at my door. I figured it's one of my co-workers, so I yell out, "Hold on, I'm coming."
I drag my ass of the bed and walk to the door. I open it up and find Anna standing in my doorway. I ask her, "What are you doing here?"
Anna says, "Just because I am trying to put Mark and I back together when I get back home, doesn't mean I don't want to spend time with you while I'm here."