Samantha Pt 8
Please go read part 1 through 7 before reading this...
After running into Anna in the hallway between seminar's and agreeing to dinner at 6:30, I was so excited that I could barely focus throughout the rest of my afternoon classes. As soon as I finish up in the afternoon I head back to my room. After this long day, I took a short nap then jumped into a shower. I shaved my legs and Vagina to make sure I am ready for tonight. I dressed in an old faded pair of blue jeans, my Florida Beach T-shirt, bobbie socks and my gym shoes. At 6:30 P.M. I was in the elevator hitting the up button. I arrived on her floor and walk towards Anna's room. I knock on her door and hear her yell, "Just one minute."
Anna opens the door and smiles at me, she says, "Please come in."
As I enter into her room, she greets me with a big hug. Her room is slightly different than mine, but it's still a pretty nice room. Anna says, "The room service menu is on the bed, look through it and let me know what you want, I'm pretty hungry so I'd like to order right away."
I look through the menu and decide on a cheeseburger, fries and a coke. Anna picks up the phone, calls in our order and we sit down at the little round table in her room. We chat about our day and as nervous as I am to be here with her, I am overly excited and anxious. We sit for a bit just talking waiting on our food, but the more we chat the more she seems to be drifting off to other pressing thoughts.
I ask her, "Are you ok?"
Anna smiles at me and says, "Yes, sorry, I have been in a blah mood today. Mark has been on my mind all day and I really miss him."
I ask, "Was Mark the guy you were with after your divorce?"
"Yes," Anna replies.
Anna continues, "We met a few years back and fell instantly in love with each other, but due to circumstances out of my control, I was unable to leave my marriage when I wanted to. Mark finally got tired of waiting and called it quits."
Just as she was finishing up her sentence there was a knock at the door, "Room Service!"
Anna got up and opened the door. I followed her to help with the platters of food. We sat back down at the table and start eating. I can tell she was upset; because she only ate about half of her food and started fading out again in thought.
I ask her, "Does Mark know your divorced?"
Anna replies, "I don't think so and I doubt he'd even care."
I ask her, "Did you ever tell him?"
Anna says, "No, because the last time we talked I told him I had to stay and work on my family, which never worked out, so he probably thinks I'm still there." Anna follows up, "I hurt him badly and inadvertently treated him like shit, so I don't blame him for walking away. But when he left, it broke my heart."
I reply, "Maybe you broke his too."
Anna nods her heads and mumbles, "I'm sure I did."
I propose she should call him, but she shakes her head no and goes back to nibbling at her food.
I ask Anna, "Did Mark know about your previous lesbian experiences?"
Anna replies, "Yes he knows of them. But Mark said he wasn't to concerned with that because he had dated Bi-Sexual women before and has been involved in several threesomes." Anna follows up by saying, "Mark said he would never ask for one, but if I found a woman I was interested in, I could court / date her as long as he knows about it and is involved."
Sounds like Anna had a good guy.
After we finish eating, I press the issue with her by saying, "Why don't you just call him, now that you're divorced? Let him know you're still thinking about him and still have feelings for him."
Anna replies, "I know when he left, he was really mad and hurt at me for not leaving when I promised; that I didn't manage to make us happen. I don't blame hm for leaving. However, when he said goodbye to me it absolutely broke my heart. I just couldn't handle another rejection from him, if he doesn't want to see me or talk to me. My heart can't handle that again."
I feel so bad for her. I know what it's like to have your heart broken and be rejected by someone you truly love. I begin to think back to the night I met Ashley. How she went out of her way to meet me and sit and listen to me, before she offered advice or suggested anything. I remember her letting me vent and say what I needed to say which helped me tremendously. Suddenly, I get an idea. I stand up, take Anna by the hand and start walking her to her bed. Anna starts to talk, but I cut her off and tell her, "This isn't about sex, just sit on the bed and hear me out."
I tell her about my dilemma and how amazingly and surprisingly Ashley had helped me out.
I told Anna, "Tonight, I am Mark. I want you to do is close your eyes and visualize yourself showing up at Mark's house and knocking on his door. Mark lets you in and you sit down and talk to him and say everything you need to say."