Note: This story is adult entertainment. It has explicit lesbian sex, vulgar/profane language, and graphic descriptions of the physical effects of a common type of violence against women and girls. Please don't read it if you are underage. This story is fiction; resemblance between these characters and any actual persons is coincidental and unintended.
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She was a rather tall woman, I'd guess in her late 30s. On the day she'd arrived, I'd heard one of the nurses call her Ilham; that's how I learned her name. At the moment, she was sitting up in the bed at the other side of the room. She wasn't crying audibly, but I was sure that her heart was suffering crushing pain. She had just been on a video chat with her mother...saying good-bye for the rest of this life.
She and I were acutely ill with the novel coronavirus. We were in isolation. I was sure that the rest of her family had been around her mother's bedside as she breathed her last, but Ilham had wanted to be there in person also. The PAs, the RNs, the LPNs, and CNAs were as compassionate as they could be, but a 10-minute "visit" over a smartphone screen was inadequate. Where was the comfort? Where was the human touch? Where was the eye contact and the fond saying of names?
She had been here for three days (I'd gotten there a day ahead of her, so four days for me); no family or friends allowed; it was too risky. We'd gotten to know our caretakers a bit while they were looking in on us. The staff had other charges, though. We had seen none of their faces completely, as masks were required in this COVID-only care unit.
Because we were essentially quarantined indefinitely, we had talked to each other a few times: always brief conversations since one or both of us grew short of breath fast. Ilham and I were of different religions and we probably had different political leanings (I had heard a little of the cable news her TV showed.)
I glanced her way. Now that the nurse was gone, she looked sapped. She reclined dazedly on her hospital bed, looking at the window which gave her a view of the overcast, dull blue sky.
She wasn't looking at me yet, but I fixed my eyes on her. "I'm sorry, Ilham," I said.
She turned her mocha, button-nosed face toward me. She didn't say anything, but even her simple nod of acceptance was full of lonely misery.
This was not good enough. Human suffering is borne best by sharing it--I would share it with her, as she had no one else now. "What was she like?" I asked.
"...She was a--" Before she could get any farther, she began to cough. Ilham took a drink of water and tried to relax. In a moment, she continued. "--stern and beautiful mother. She cou--" Coughs shook Ilham's thin body, this time for long enough to be alarming.
As soon as her fit abated, I said, "Please, don't try to tell me about her now. When you're up to it, I'd love to hear about her."
Tears poured from Ilham's eyes. She wheezed angrily, "Can't even..." she coughed again, "eulogize my mom!" Her tears weren't just due to familial loss, but frustration. After a few seconds spent calming her breathing, she rasped, "God is good." More coughing. "Covid be cursed!"
I gave her a sympathetic gaze, understanding her completely. "Please, don't talk until you're ready," I said. "Did your mother raise you?"
She nodded.
"Did she raise your siblings too?"
She nodded again, with more energy. She seemed very open, not guarded or suspicious (as I might have been in her shoes).
"Sisters?" She held up a finger. "Brothers?" She held up three fingers. "My hat's off to her! I have only two children and I find that they're all I can handle!"
Ilham smiled.
"Did she hold other jobs: teacher or doctor or banker, for instance?"
Ilham was so eager to talk about this that she couldn't help trying to answer aloud. "She made wond--" Ilham fell back onto her bed, coughing and nearly choking.
Concerned as I was, I grabbed my remote, ready to mash the CALL NURSE button. Ilham's small-breasted torso heaved with the effort of controlling her breathing. Gradually, her coughing stopped.
"I'm sorry!" I said again. "Let's talk later."
But she was distraught now. Not able to speak an entire sentence? She half-curled, turning away from me slightly. It was easy to see that she was crying. This unheralded sickness had taken so much from her--still it seemed to want more.
I sat up straight and put my hands on my bed, ignoring the tug of the IV catheter in my wrist. I swung my legs over the edge of the mattress and settled my feet on the cool floor. So far so good: I would have had a coughing fit myself if I had tried these sudden motions yesterday.
Taking the wheeled IV stand with me, I reached Ilham's bedside in a few strides. Then I hesitated. I intended to put a comforting hand on her shoulder, but was it a good idea? A stranger presuming to enter her personal space? But a few weak coughs persuaded me. I reached down and rested my hand on her upper arm, trying to demonstrate my commiseration.
She didn't shrug it off. In fact, I felt her relax a little after a second or two. Her breathing seemed to slow, but I might have imagined that.
"Things will get better, Ilham," I murmured to the curled-up woman clad in the standard sage green cotton hospital gown.
She surprised me by slowly moving her right arm and putting her hand on top of mine, gently. Her palm was cool; cooler than I'd expected, as she had a low-grade fever. (So did I.)
I rubbed her triceps and shoulder. "Things will get better. Just rest."
At that moment, time seemed to slow. She turned--head, neck, shoulders, and chest--and faced me. As she moved, the thin gown (you know how useless those things are) gaped and lagged, giving me full views of lovely, teacup-shaped breasts; long, thick, dark brown nipples; and chocolate abdominal skin speckled with tiny, very dark, perfectly circular moles. So...feminine, so pleasing to eye! Just a glimpse, but it was a protracted glimpse--and I wanted another glimpse. (I design manuals--and sometimes packaging--for software applications and suites, so you could consider me a rather visual person.)
Ilham was looking up at me. Her eyes regarded mine with reproach, but her expression softened as I looked steadily at her face. Fear of coughing again kept her from speaking. "Sorry for touching your arm without asking," I said, but she shook her head a little and kept her hand firmly over mine. "...Sorry for looking at your body," I said.