I couldn't watch as Ms. Wilson left our room. I was ashamed. I had let Melanie fuck me in front of her. She wasn't a friend of either of us. We knew her, but she was a stranger, really. I shuddered as I remembered licking and sucking Melanie, too. Licking and kissing her ass. My face felt like it was on fire, along with some other parts of me. My ass wasn't burning anymore, but was a tight ball of throbbing flesh. My nipples felt as though someone had held a match to them and my pussy felt so hot and swollen. I shuddered, remembering everything.
"Are you all right, darling?"
"Yes, I just hurt all over, especially my nipples."
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left the clamps on that long for the first time."
"I'll live. Where did you learn all that stuff?"
"Remember the Internet? I have looked for a lot of pictures. Pictures that fascinated me. At first they made me feel funny inside, before I realized that they were arousing me. At the beginning, all I could find was pictures of men doing this to a girl. Then I found a site called Whippedass.com. It shows women doing things to women. I know it wasn't real, it was an act like a movie, but still, it got to me. At first I wondered how it would be to be the woman getting spanked or whipped. I used to undress and spank myself, but it wasn't that good for me. Then I began to imagine myself as the woman doing the spanking. That worked for me."
"All of it was free?"
"No, at first I looked at their free pictures. All the sites have them as a come on to get people to pay for what's really inside. I saved up money and bought a six-month membership through the mail. And that's where I found the other stuff."
"Other stuff?"
"The pictures and movies of the dominant women fucking the other women. After they had supposedly humiliated and tormented and beaten them. I think that they figured out what they were going to film before hand and then just acted it out. But, the spankings and whippings were real, the women's asses and tits turned red and sometimes you could see red lines on bodies from an especially hard whipping. And slapping tits and using clamps or clothespins on the women. And then the fucking. That was real, women fucking other women in the pussy and then In the ass. I was fascinated by all of it. And it made me horny. And I wanted to do it to someone. And then you came along."
"So I am just here to fulfill a fantasy of yours?"
When I said that I lowered my face, hiding it, not wanting Melanie to see my disappointment. She stroked my hair. Tears trickled out of my eyes and down my cheeks.
"Yes, you fulfill a fantasy, but you are much more than that to me, Sabine. Yes, I do things to you that I fantasize about, but even if I didn't have these fantasies, I would still want to have you with me."
I didn't know if I could believe her, I wanted to believe her but what she had just told me made me hesitant. I was feeling that I was just a toy, one to be discarded when a better toy came along. I felt dirty and used.
"Darling, do you think I would have licked you if I didn't want you for something more than just playing out a fantasy game? The dommes never lick pussy, they only tease it, slap it, finger and fuck it."
I wanted to believe her, I really did,
"Sabine, darling, trust me. Yes, I want to spank you and beat you, because it turns me on a lot, but I'd still want you if I didn't have these fantasies."
I snuggled in closer to her, wanting to be held and comforted. Melanie did comfort me. It was nice to feel her warm, soft body close to mine and to feel her arms around me.
She held me for a while, all the time stroking my hair and body, kissing me when she felt like it, making me feel loved. I felt better but always in the back of my mind was going to be that doubt. The doubt that she really loved me. I was willing to take a chance on being hurt a lot, just to have Melanie be with me. I was willing to do a lot just to have Melanie with me.
After a long time of cuddling, kissing and stroking, she had me get up and she looked me over closely. I felt like a mannequin. Melanie pushed me this way and that, looking all over me. It was embarrassing but stimulating too.
"This one is going to bruise nicely. Oh God, your pussy, Sabine. It is all red and puffy on the right side. Did I hit you there? What with? Damn, I didn't mean for that to happen!"
"It's all right Melanie. Don't fuss over me. I'll be fine."
"Yeah, in a few days. I can't believe you didn't say anything or stop me."
"Kind of hard to say anything, with a pair of panties in my mouth, Melanie."
She giggled at that.
"I guess I forgot that. It wasn't too much?"