CHAPTER ONE
I hate her the moment I first see her.
"Oh my gosh,
hey,"
she gushes at my mother, opening her smooth tanned arms out wide. "It is
so good
to meet you!"
It is so good to meet yeeeew,
I mouth at my brother, who laughs a little breathlessly, his eyes glued to the breasts bouncing in her low-cut romper. I punch his arm, but he barely seems to feel it.
She approaches us, her long legs bending forward with confident grace. I want her to trip on those heels. She stops in front of my brother, her huge smile melting to closed-lips, laughing like my brother and her have a huge secret between them. He's never met her before in his life and yet he laughs back. It's so pretentious and disgusting and I put the minimum effort into my expression when she turns to me.
"Mia," she greets me with her teeth. I notice immediately that her smile has tightened. I look into her eyes, and I see nothing but my own feelings wrapped up in a fake bow.
"Hi," I say, giving her a lame one-armed hug. It lasts less than a second and I smell her shampoo, which has a girlish, berry sweetness.
"Love your hair," she says without meeting my eyes, already looking past me to greet my younger sister.
I sweep my fingers through my side-bangs. I dyed my natural ginger hair a fresh apple-red yesterday to reflect my internal crisis at meeting my mum's boyfriend's family. I say, "thanks", but my voice can barely be heard as everyone leaves the foyer into the kitchen.
I meet her dad at the door, whose coming through last. "Hey, Mia!" he says enthusiastically. "Nice hair."
"Thanks Rich," I answer, taking the bouquet of flowers and a shopping bag of ingredients in his hands.
"Have you met Sky yet? She was really excited to meet you." When I don't respond immediately, he makes a
meh
sound, waving his hand in the air, and says, "I guess you're both grown-ups. Too old for excitement. What are you again, eighteen?"
"Yeah," I murmur, following him with a 15-year-old's despondence into the crowded kitchen.
"Sky!" he calls his daughter. "Come and help Mia with the groceries." He lowers his voice and says, "Sky's just two years older." He winks at me. "I'm sure you'll get along just well."
Skylar brushes past her dad with a pretty smile. Then she arrives at the island beside me, and her smile drops as she pulls the first plastic bag towards her. She takes out a jar of passata. "Where does this go?" she asks, her tone light, but her gaze significantly duller as she turns it down me. I notice her take in my outfit, the long, patterned summer dress and brown belt. It goes down to my calves, revealing my golden anklets, while her romper shorts stop just below her ass. Slut.
"Cupboard," I say, pointing my finger over my shoulder. I watch her turn around and reach up to place the jar in the cupboard. Her ass-cheeks hang below the shorts, tight and plump. They shake slightly as she sets back down to her heels.
She gives a self-deprecating laugh, but it's bitter, restrained. "Can't reach," she says. I take the jar from her hands.
We're both about five foot five, not to mention the several inches she has on me with her heels. But I want to be a bitch and prove that she's lazy; that she's making a lousy first impression. I bump her out the way with my hip, rough enough for her to stagger backward, a sharp exhale leaving her glossy lips. "You know what?" she says, juicing her tone into fake niceness. "I got this." She wraps her hand around the jar, her long, manicured fingers brushing mine. My fingers are pale, so pale that my wrists freckle all the way up my arm and shoulders.
"Let me," I insist, staring into her eyes, which narrow with effort as she tries to tug the passata jar away from me. "It's my house, after all." I step closer to her. My breath can ruffle the hairs on her eyebrows. "
My
family."
"Bit old for being a territorial twat, aren't you?" she hisses, the sudden and sharp insult hitting me with satisfaction. The space I've closed between us has stripped back her fakeness. She hates me just as much as I do.
"Bit old for walking around in a tight romper like a twelve-year-old, aren't you?" I spit back at her. Some spittle actually sprays her face, and her green eyes blink with disgust.
"Please," she hisses, still trying to grab the jar from my grasp. "Your brother loves it."
I spit in her face for real this time.
She gasps, the glob of saliva sliding down her perfectly made-up face. "You
bitch,
" she breathes. "You really do have problems."
"What?" I hiss between my teeth, speaking too late to hold back curiosity I didn't want answered.
She rips out three sheets of a kitchen towel--a wasteful amount--and wipes it tenderly down her face, as if it's the most precious thing in the world. "My dad told me you were
troubled.
Smoking and getting into cat-fights at your school everyday."
Anger loosens my tongue. "Hm. Funny," I say, leaning one elbow on the marble counter. "My mum
also
told me things. Things that make me surprised that you even care so much about the saliva on your face." I quirk my eyebrows, drop my gaze. She watches me with wide eyes, her tissue in mid-air. "I bet you just
love
having saliva all over your face," I say, deepening my vowels until I sounded like I was moaning. "I wonder which dick you've been sucking while you've been away from your horny town summer." My eyes slide to the door of the living room, full of the noises from our family. I ran my hand between both my breasts, pinching the nipples. "
Oh daddy, please, please come on my face, daddy!"
Her cheeks are tinted with a red, crimson anger, and she looks like she's going to slap me--her hand is uncurling from the tissue. Her dad's voice snapped her out of her speechlessness, and she puts both her hands out on the island table to orient herself. "What, daddy--dad?" she says, shooting me a look of vitriol while I snort and dig into my bag for a smoke.
"You've barely unpacked anything, I said!" He walks into the kitchen and grabs a bag, shaking his head.
Skylar and I don't speak for the rest of that day.
I smoke on the deck of the beach-house while they eat and talk, tickling my younger sister whenever she got too close. "I'm too busy to play, kid," I tell her.
"You don't look busy," she says, pouting.
I stick my fingers under her chin. "I'm people-watching. That's a very demanding task." She runs away before my fingers reach under her arms. After they finish eating, I see Skylar shoot me several looks that she thinks I don't notice. None of them are friendly: they're all the stares of someone regarding some hostile specimen at the zoo.
They go out into the beach a while later. Skylar changes out of her romper into the sluttiest bikini I've ever seen in my life. It's a wonder my brother doesn't have to pick his eyes out of the sand and back into their sockets.
"Yoo-hoo, Mia!" calls my mum, her hand shielding her eyes. "Can you stop being anti-social for a minute and come out here? Richard's kids are leaving soon. I don't know when we'll get to see them all like this again!"
"Oh, in that case..." I respond loudly, swinging my legs off the lounge-chair. I rip off my belt and dress and walk down the steps in my one-piece. It's high-rising, digging up to my waist, showing off the tattoo of a naked mermaid on my hip. I gather my hair to one side and grab someone's sunglasses off the stair-rail--probably Skylar's. I slide into the empty jacuzzi, which is a good distance away from everyone on the beach and push my glasses up to my brows with my middle finger, knowing full well Skylar is watching.
I hear my mother sigh all the way from here.
As everyone is leaving and I'm happier than I've been all day at the sight of it. Especially the loss of brightness and mild disgust on Skylar's face, as if I've corrupted her, which is just
hilarious
given her reputation. She doesn't look at me or say bye as she leaves.
CHAPTER TWO
A year passes before I see Skylar again.
I'm on a bench in our front garden, smoking as I flip through playlists on Spotify.
"Hey, stepsis," a voice with a Californian twang greets me. Images of summer and thick blonde hair and rompers greet me. I squint at her through the sunshine of her appearance, blowing smoke through the side of my lip.
"What?" I say. The first thing I've said to her since last summer.
"My dad proposed. You didn't hear?" she says, taking the seat beside me. She's bolder than I remember. Still a slut. I look down at her bare legs, inexplicably tanned though we're well into autumn. Does she put herself into one of those coffins that stir-fry her skin into a burnt noodle?
"Nope," I said, popping the p. I return to my screen without looking at her.
She leans over to watch me, and her berry scent makes my nose twitch. "Florence and the Machine," she says in an appraising tone. She ruins it by laughing. "Obviously."
I don't grace that with any attention.
"You're a real bohemian," she says, a giggle warbling her words.
"And you're a real fucking barbie," I say to her. "What'd do you listen to, Taylor Swift?" I nod my head at the bag she has clutched in her lap. "Show me." Her fingers are still a perfect manicure, and they flutter at my blunt request. I tap away, adding new songs to a collection I've named
Summer Has Finally Fucking Ended
, not giving a rat's ass that my nails are chipped and bitten and that my keyboard is smudged with grease.
She takes out her phone. The cover is herself and a man with his arms wrapped around her midriff. They both have matching dimples and blonde hair. Hm. Maybe she had finally settled down and signed up to the commitment department. I watch from the corner of my eyes as she unlocks her phone. Her quick gasp makes me tear my eyes instantly away from the screen. The last thing she was doing on her phone is... interesting.