She stepped through the dingy glass door into the shop, the soft tinkling of the overhead bell alerting the owner to her presence.
"Kori, is that you?"
"It's me, Mrs. Grossman."
"Running late today. Kept you at the hospital, they did?"
Kori smiled. Sometimes trying to decipher Mrs. Grossman's Jewish came close to having a conversation with Master Yoda. She seemed to be about as old and as wrinkled as the puppet Jedi and even had wispy white hair growing out of her ears. The only thing missing from the heavy set matriarch of used books was the green tint. Kori felt a little odd at being such a regular in the bookshop that the owner knew when she was running late, and yet, it also was a strong sense of belonging. Of family.
Family was something Kori was sorely missing in Omaha, her Radiology job having taken her away from her brother Julian two years earlier. She still missed him terribly, and had found nothing to fill the void but her books. Her Kendal was full, the bookshelves in her tiny apartment stuffed to overflowing with hardcovers, paperbacks stood in perilous stacks on every available surface and along baseboards and in closets. A co-worker witnessing the disaster picking her up for work once commented, "Heaven help the apartment complex if there was ever a fire." To which she'd replied, "Heaven help Omaha."
Today the hospital had indeed kept her late with a backlog of paperwork of all things. She hated paperwork, and wanted her Thursday night ritual: to go home, strip out of her blue scrubs and take a nice long, hot bath, complete with bubbles and candles and a good book, then masturbate until she came and pass out till tomorrow.
"Yes Mrs. Grossman, it's me." She called out before beginning her exploration of the shop.
It mirrored her apartment in many ways. Books crammed every available surface, nook and cranny. The one difference was outside. Her apartment was on the third floor of huge building, part of an immense complex, but when you opened the door it seemed cramped and tiny amid the printed chaos. The book store was a small brick building on a remote and forgotten side street, but it seemed bigger on the inside. Kori kept meaning to ask Mrs. Grossman how she did it.
She moved into the bowels of the store, past the racks of western and military fiction, breezed through the sci-fi and fantasy, then ignored the fiction of F. Paul Wilson and Dean Koontz. It wasn't that these categories didn't appeal to her, it was simply that she knew what she wanted today.
The last row of shelves along the back wall of the store were stacked floor to ceiling with the vibrant red, pink and purple spines of the romance novels. But even these she passed by, moving to the swinging doors at the end of the aisle and into the "21 And Over" section.
She breathed in deeply, enjoying the musty smell of the books and closed her eyes. She could still make out the brazen images the blazed from the book covers behind her shut lids. Hunky men with raging hard-ons ravaging busty women who always seemed to be wearing that dumb "It's so big!" expression. She opened her eyes and started her search, barely looking at the books, but moving instead by instinct. Her hands feather light caressed the spines of the books, moved from one shelf to the next.
She knew she'd find what she needed this way. She didn't know how or why it worked, just that it did. The tactile touch of the books was part of the ritual.
Her fingers paused briefly on a copy of
Naughty
by Julian Soul, then kept roaming. The movie adaptation had just come out, and she'd spent two hours in a theatreโaloneโgetting sexually frustrated at the goings on. It was a HOT book and a HOT flick. But she wasn't quite ready to revisit the story this soon after.
Not to mention that Julian Soul was her brother. She was immensely proud of him as a writer (even when explaining to people that yes, he was THAT Julian) and while she loved his way with words and how they got her wet, she wasn't quite ready for the where the complex nature of those thoughts might lead.
At least, not today.
She moved into the gay and lesbian section, her favorite, and continued feeling up the books. Her fingertips slid over the spines not unlike that of a responsive lover, and at last she paused again on the bottom shelf. She had stopped on a hardcover, bound in purple leather, and she freed it from the bookcase and reeled it up with the deftness of a deep-sea fisherman with today's catch.
The book was old, it looked to be hand written and bound. Inscribed on the cover was the title:
Lady Catherine and Sarah Hawthorne
.
This one
. She thought, not knowing why she felt so confident and compelled, but sure it was right.
Well, right for tonight, anyway.
Kori moved back through the double swinging doors and joined Mrs. Grossman at the counter.
"Didn't take long, that. Find a good one, did you?"
Kori smiled while digging money out of her purse. "Maybe." She said. "Won't know till I get it home."
"If it's mushukina, you bring it back. Oi, what am I saying? Two years you've been coming to my shop, I've yet to see you sell anything back."