The week passed slowly. I made the adjustments I'd talked to her about and a few more. I went to my framer and had it put in a frame I thought would work well in her house, hoping she'd feel the same.
On the Friday morning, I spent a good while getting ready and left home about 12, knowing I'd get to her around 12.45. I'd chosen a simple dress, pale yellow, with matching silk knickers under and rope-soled sandals. The weather was still warm, that lovely early August warmth that lasts into the middle of the evening.
I followed the uneven drive up to the front of the house, turned off the engine and grabbed my bag off the back seat before ringing the doorbell. It was a few moments before the door opened and there she was, Harriet Singer, a pair of black trousers, beautifully high cut with a white, sleeveless shirt. We kissed on the doorstep and then she led me indoors.
We chatted for a few moments before she asked me if I'd remembered the portrait. I did a mock, "Oh God," but she wasn't falling for that and I went back out to get it and my easel. With a little ceremony, I placed the covered canvas on the easel then adjusted it's position in the light from the orangery windows and uncovered it. I anticipated her arm across my shoulder and it quickly was. She said nothing and I swear my heart was in my mouth.
"It's simply wonderful. Thank you. I couldn't have hoped for more."
Relief.
"The frame is perfect too. Now we will have to decide where to hang it."
"Maybe in the hall?"
"And take down the one of us? I'd miss it." She had a broad smile on her face. "We'll wander around the house together and decide over the weekend. Just now, though, I want you come down to my wine cellar."
She led me down a flight of steps and opened a door at their end. It led us into a rather small, cosy room with high windows that were obviously at ground level. It was clean and tidy, with tapestry hangings, a large, floor to ceiling mirror and low lighting.
"No wine?"
"This isn't the wine cellar, this is the ante-room. Stick with me." She placed her hand in the small of my back. Why does that always feel so good? Another door and we were in the cellar, this was dark, save for a small, dim light she'd turned on as we entered. There were racks and racks of dusty bottles. "My father was a collector. He left the lot to me and I've added a few. He also collected whisky. Do you like whisky?" I said that I did. "Then we'll select a bottle." The whisky was at one side of the large cellar, about two hundred bottles from what I could guess.
She selected a bottle. "My Dad said this one was a good investment. We'll take it up with us and crack it this evening. What do you think of the cellar?"
"It's incredible. It's like something from a wine tour in France."
We went back into the ante-room and she placed the bottle carefully, almost reverently on a small table in a corner. For the first time, I noticed a chair, oddly positioned, facing the wall and tight against it. It was an old leather armchair with a fairly low back.
She saw I"d noticed. "I'm not one for so-called dungeons, Lauren. They always seem so false and like a set for a silly porn film. I like to have my fun simple. Come and stand with me."
She positioned me so my stomach was against the chair-back, her arm once more across my shoulders. She pointed to a pair of metal rings on the wall, and two more, lower, around the level of the chair's arms.
"They were, I imagine, for securing things and, well, they still are. Hold the top two."
In order to hold them, I had to bend slightly over the back of the chair.
"Now, hold the lower pair."
I got the idea then. Holding the lower rings, I was forced to bend even further, my weight held on the soft, padded leather.
Her hand went under my dress and she patted my arse. "Go back to the higher pair." I straightened up and held them. "With you like this, your back and arse are positioned perfectly for a whipping, don't you think? Whereas, with the lower ones, your arse is offered for a cane. Or, of course, my strappy. Both, if I feel like it. Stand back up."
She led me to a cupboard and opened it to reveal a selection of the sorts of implements that make a sub's heart sing and her bowels turn to water. Pain is pain and masochists feel it just like anyone else does. It's just that, for the masochist, if it's administered in the right way, it takes them to their space. If the dominant accompanies them to that space, well, that's the symbiosis of pain.
"Do you have a favourite?"
"I have a few. This whip is the one I left on your bed; accidentally, obviously." She was grinning. "I wanted to see your reaction. This cane here is a cutter in the wrong hands, and I don't think I want to damage your skin," she paused, "a lot, anyway. This one is memorable." She lifted out a thin, straight cane and caressed it lovingly. "I particularly like this one for the sensitive areas. Lift your dress." I hitched it up. She ran her hand up my inner thigh. "Just here." 'Just here,' was about four inches below my crotch. "It's so, so sensitive there. And after a couple of kisses from this beauty, that sensitivity increases so very much. And it leaves it sensitive, so that the next day, you'll see this and dread it. Isn't that exciting?" The question was clearly not intended to be answered. "This," she said, lifting a short leather tawse, "is one of my favourites. I can take it anywhere, a great travelling companion. You can let you dress down now."
I'd completely forgotten I was holding it up!
Harriet turned and faced me. "I like it down here. It's an intimate space and I wanted it to be comfortable." She stepped back from me and looked at me. "Does it frighten you?"
I thought about this for a moment. "Yes, it scares me."
"Tell me why."
"Because I have so much to learn about you. So much trust is involved when things like whips and canes get involved."
She nodded. "Don't you feel you can trust me?"
"I absolutely do feel that, but there is always a risk, don't you agree?"
"For both of us. Imagine if you were to sell your story to the papers. Or if, bruised, you went to the police."
"Yes, I see that. I haven't been hurt for a while as you know. And, no matter what anyone says, it does hurt, even a masochist. And there is always the fear of not being enough, letting you down, disappointing you."
"Go back to the chair and hold the lower rings."
I said nothing but returned to the chair, bent and held the lower pair of rings. She followed me and, with two black, silk scarves, secured my wrists to the rings. It felt more like a token restraint since I knew I could get my hands free relatively easily.
"If you want me to stop, simply say so, understood?"
"Yes, Harriet."
She squatted beside me to speak quietly in my ear. "If you don't ask to stop, I will decide when to. If you don't feel it's been enough, hard luck. I have to be responsible, and I take that responsibility seriously. Don't be stupidly brave. You have to give me time to understand you." Her hand caressed my back over my dress. Standing, she moved behind me and ran her hands up my legs.
"Keep your feet apart the width of the chair." I shuffled them apart. She lifted my dress and folded it over my back. "Lovely knickers."
"Thank you."
"I do love it that you seem to have made an effort. The painting is wonderful. To wear beautiful knickers like these says, to my mind, you hoped they'd be seen. They look too expensive to risk them, so we'll have the out of the way." With that, she pulled them slowly down until my legs stopped them going further. Thinking that she wanted them off I shuffled my feet back together but learned, from a swift slap on my thigh, that that was not her intention. "They look so good at half mast. And your arse looks good, like you're offering it to me."
I looked over my shoulder. "I am, Harriet."
She walked away and returned with another scarf which she tied quite tightly around my eyes. "Is that ok?"
"Yes, Harriet."
"I will often ask you that. Be honest, totally honest. I will always be honest with you. Asking me to stop isn't the same as saying you don't want to be with me, it's about needing to adjust. Take your time." Her words were reassuring, just as the way she'd positioned me made my nerves jangle with anticipation: dread, want, need.
As she spoke, I heard noises that I tried to interpret. I couldn't decide if she was undressing or selecting an implement from her cupboard but I knew she'd taken her shoes off, the sound of her movements had changed to a padding noise.
Her finger stroked my lips and entered my mouth. As that happened, so her other hand ran over my arse and a finger stroked my cunt. "Wet! Fear and arousal. How perfect." Her finger slid into me. "It's like you're making me welcome." That wet finger slithered up and circled my arse. Then I felt the pressure of it, pushing against my muscle and, as I made myself relax, it pushed in, making me stretch a little. "Hmm. This needs a little encouragement." Suddenly she was gone. I listened intently, trying to understand what was happening for what seemed like an age. Then I felt a cold probe, slippery at my arse and it pushed in. Then I felt my arse being filled with something, a jelly, a lubricant, whatever. The tip of her strappy felt huge against my arse.
"Breathe deeply, this will stretch you, hurt a little but not for long."
Achingly slowly she pressed against me and she was right. It hurt, enough to make me groan as the tip pushed and opened me, my muscle not used to anything for such a long time. She held it there, motionless, the end of it holding me open and then she began to rock a little, forward and back and my arse began to relax. Gripping the scarves that held my wrists, I tried to let my mind float, to enjoy what was happening and, little by little, as she pressed home her invasion, I did relax and began to feel that almost-forgotten pleasure.
I pushed back and she said, "Good girl." Eventually, I felt her harness against my buttocks and she stopped again, deep inside me, and stayed there. The rocking started again, slow, her hips reversing then advancing, her pace increasing. I jumped when she gave my arse a serious slap and I swear I heard her chuckle. One, two, three more thrusts then another, harder slap on the other cheek and so it continued, her fucking me punctuated with sharp slaps of her hand that made me buck.
She pulled it almost out and stayed there, the widest part of it holding me open.
"Are you ok?"
"Yes, Harriet, perfectly ok thank you."
I was thrown forward as she drove into me, hard and fast. She was rough now, more slaps, some pulling of my hair that made me squeal and then, once again, she stopped, the end of her dildo at my entrance. And then it was gone! I felt wide open, and slightly desolate to have lost it. But then, her finger was in my cunt, two fingers and she was finger fucking me and I was moaning, almost ready to cum. But then, she was gone again.
Not for long. I heard it, that cutting of the air and the hideous sting as one of her canes striped me, harder, it seemed, than I'd ever felt it. I waited for the next but it was her finger again, inside me.
"You took it well. Enjoy the pleasure, feel the heat."