If you want to know how I look, I describe myself in the first paragraph of "I Thought She Was Straight".
I have this friend named Julia. Not to be confused with my friend Jody, who does stuff with strippers because she doesn't really have a choice (I talked about that in my story Heaven and Stripping Isn't So Bad). Julia is more straight than that, or at least she was.
At the beginning of our friendship, I was still unsure whether I was bi or lesbian, but Julia knew that I was into girls to some degree. We were talking once, and I asked her if she would ever do anything with another girl, and she said no. She said she wouldn't even peck a girl on the lips, because she didn't "experiment" like I did, as she put it. A year or so later, however, the subject came up again. By this time both of us had pretty much accepted the fact that I was a lesbian but I never showed it off in front of her. It was like knowing that your friend is black or something. You know it, but you just don't think about it all that much.
I asked her again if she would do anything with a girl, and this time she said that if she had been friends with the girl for a while, and if she was attracted to the girl, she would make out with her. This was a complete surprise. I guess my gayness (did you know that gayness is a word according to Microsoft Word? I didn't either until now) must have spread to her or something. Another time, we were talking and she said something about how she didn't want to have sex with a guy, and she put the emphasis on "guy", before she got married. I let it drop and it didn't come up again until several months later.
I have to say right now that had I never had inappropriate thoughts about her. I asked her these things out of idle curiosity. I had noticed she was pretty, it's hard not to notice those kinds of things. She's a couple inches shorter than me, around 5'1 or 5'2. She has straight, long, black hair and very large dark brown eyes. Her best feature was her lips, they were so full and soft without being overly large. She had a petite body but with curves in the right places. I could wear her clothes if I had to but they were usually tight, especially in the chest area. She has small boobs, but that's better than having mountains on your chest. There is nothing grosser than really large implants. I have a seriously hilarious story involving my guy friend and a stripper with implants, or actually the story is about the guy and the implants since they had a life of their own, but I'll tell it some other time. Anyway, I had noticed a lot of guys (and girls, sometimes) staring at her and guys would often have crushes on her. She was pretty, but I'd never felt attracted to her before.
I was sleeping over at her house one Friday night. We were watching the movie Mean Girls, again. We've watched that movie together a million times. Actually, maybe about 15. It's just so funny though. The casting is absolutely perfect. So the part where Janis announces that she had a big, lesbian crush on Regina came on and Julia said, "You know, I have to tell you something. But you have to promise not to tell." She always says this so I barely even acknowledged that she'd said anything and continued to pay attention to the movie. You would too, she makes me swear up and down not to tell a soul about something, and then she says something like, "I tripped on the stairs" or "I wrote this really long email to the guy I like". In that sense, she's a stereotypical girl. You know, melodramatic and extremely detail oriented.
We finished the movie and got ready for bed. She has a queen size bed so we both sleep in it whenever I sleep over. We had settled in and started talking about unimportant things that I don't remember, then she said, "I still haven't told you."
I said, "Ok what is it?"
She went on for, I swear, ten minutes making me promise not to tell anybody, then changing her mind about telling me in the first place, and so on. I was ready to punch her in the uterus, and I'm not even a violent person. Finally I said, "Jesus Christ, just tell me already. I'll probably forget what you're going to tell me by tomorrow anyway."