Here is my attempt at a slow burn lesbian romance. I will not be doing a sequel to this. No sex until towards the end. I did mention that it was a slow burn. Feel free to do any spin-offs you wish but reference this story in the introduction or somewhere else if you do. It should be obvious where my inspiration came from. Just look up the song. Turn the Page. No, not the whole song, just the first stanza.
Long and Lonesome Highway:
On a long and lonesome highway, East of Omaha, you can listen to the engine moanin' out his one note song. Actually, dudes, I'm nowhere near Omaha. I'm actually somewhere in Arizona. As usual, I'm in the sleeper compartment of my rig, getting ready to sack out for the night. It was a pretty good day today. I put over 700 miles in my mirror. I made good time and didn't encounter any idiots on the road today. I should make my destination by noon tomorrow, then I've got another load to pick up and head back East. Who knows, maybe I will actually go to Omaha this time. Anywhere but -- THERE! Sorry, I shouldn't be thinking of that. It begins to bring the darkness back to me.
I've been getting better, though. I haven't thought about THERE in a while. I think that what brought it back to me was at the truck stop I'm parked in for the night. It was kind of late when I pulled in, so I figured I'd get some dinner before crashing out. There was a new waitress tonight. I've been here several times before, but this was the first time I have seen her. She was pretty, gorgeous even. Long blonde hair, sparkling light blue eyes. A figure with so many hairpin curves that it would be a slow drive to check them all out. Very friendly too. She was even flirting with me. Yeah, not going there. She was probably just doing it to increase her tips. She's probably just like all the other ones. She even reminded me of -- HER. I think that's what is bringing the darkness back again.
It probably wasn't hard for her to suspect that I'm gay. I don't really hide it. No point really. Not that I've done anything about it for the last 10-years. I tried a couple times, but every time I just saw -- HER. Laughing. Taunting. Yes, I've told you guys all about that before. Several times. I won't repeat it tonight. I watched as she was flirting with all the other truckers in the diner as well. She was just like all the rest. Flirting gets better tips. She didn't care about me. No one cares about me.
Thought about maybe going into the bar next door. There's a problem with bars, though. Bars have people in them. A diner is OK. I get my own both and I am left alone. Usually. Bastards wouldn't even let me back in after I paid for the window I throw that asshole out of. Fuck it. They had lousy food anyway. Bars are different. Assholes see an attractive woman drinking alone and automatically think she needs some company. If I did, it wouldn't be them.
That's all for tonight. Catch ya tomorrow -- probably.
Lonesome signing off.
I clicked to post it to my blog, then shut down my laptop. I have no idea if anyone actually reads it. I really don't care, that's not the point of it. I write it because a therapist I saw a couple of times suggested that maybe writing my thoughts down would help. Who knows. Maybe it does, maybe it doesn't. It doesn't matter. It's just something that I do. Maybe there's someone out there that reads it and feels better knowing that their life isn't nearly as shitty as mine is. Regulations state that I need to be off for 10 hours before driving again. I should probably get some sleep. I got out of the truck to smoke my last cigarette of the day. Once that was done, it was time to rack out.
Tasha:
God, what a long day it was. Waiting tables in the diner of that miserable truck stop. Pretending to be friendly and flirting with all the customers there, just to get better tips from them. Sure, there were a lot of nice guys there, but there were a significant portion of complete assholes. Over the last month that I had been working there, I had learned very quickly how to move to avoid the roaming hands that targeted my ass. Perverts. God, I hated that. On the upside, at least my abusive former boyfriends would never find me here. There was one nice thing today. A trucker that I had never seen before came in. She was fucking gorgeous. Long red hair, lithe body, beautiful face, moved like a panther stalking her prey. OK, so the boyfriend was a mistake on multiple levels. Not only was he an abusive cheating asshole, but even going out with him in the beginning had been a bad idea. It was mainly to convince myself that I wasn't really a lesbian. I found out that I actually am, thus the two days in the hospital when I tried to break up with him. I left town two days before he was released from the county jail.
Anyway, back to the woman. I stopped dead in my tracks the instant she walked in. I don't know what it was about her, but she just caught my full attention. I prayed, and God actually answered my prayers as she sat in my section. It wasn't until I got to her table to hand her a menu that I saw it. She looked up at me, and I saw a deep sorrowness in her deep green eyes. She did smile at me, and she responded to my flirting, be there was no real depth to it. It was as if she was just trying to humor me. In reality, she would have been the only one that I would have meant it with. If she would have offered, I would have beaten her back to the cab of her truck, or taken her to the trailer I was renting behind the Truckstop. Fuck it, I would have drug her to one of the rooms in the attached motel.
Oh well. Such is life. I'll probably never see her again. With resignation, I opened my computer and went online. I pulled up one of my favorite sites. It was a blog I had stumbled onto a few months ago. I was surprised that there were over 1,000 followers to it. I don't know what it was, but it captured my imagination. There was never anything that could remotely identify the writer. There were a few photos of highway scenery, and you could see the Kenworth logo on the front of the truck, but not a single picture of the rest of the truck or her. Yes, it was definitely a her that wrote it. Either that, or a guy with a fantastic imagination.
Awesome! A new post. I began not read. She started it out with the same line as every other post. 'On a lonely lonesome highway.....' As I read the post, two things struck me. First, she mentioned that she had never seen the waitress before. I can assure you that I had never before seen the red-haired, green-eyed goddess that came in today before either. That makes me pretty sure that she had never seen me before either. I definitely would have remembered that. The second thing was that she mentioned being in Arizona. No, that would just be way too much of a coincidence. I was impossible. There were millions of miles of roads in this country. Thousands of miles just here in Arizona. True, women are only a small percentage of truck drivers, especially solo drivers, but there are still thousands of them out there. The odds of my redheaded beauty being the same Lonesome that had captured my fantasies with her words were just too astronomical to comprehend. Still, one can imagine, can't they? My vibrator sure agreed with me that night.
Lonesome:
On a long and lonesome highway, East of Omaha, you can listen to the engine moanin' out his one note song. Hi again. Another day on the road. Nope. Still not anywhere near Omaha. I'm on a lonely highway in Nevada. I passed a few brothels on the way. Had a fleeting thought of stopping and seeing if any of them did women, but I just kept driving. I can't do one-night stands. Then again, I can't seem to do relationships either. Relationships mean pain. They cut out your heart and soul.
I thought about that waitress again today. It's been a month since I've been to that Truckstop. I wonder if she's still there. Maybe I'll take that rout on my way to drop this load. It's not really that far out of my way. Probably better if I just avoid that place all together. Nothing good could come from that. Just another broken piece of me left behind. I don't have that many pieces left to lose. I don't know. Something seems to be pulling me back there. I can't seem to get her out of my mind.
Anyway, this was a short one tonight. Time to rack out. Need to be on the road early tomorrow.