One Halo, Two Wings, And An 'A'
Thursday, May 16th, 1991, 2:03 p.m.
"Karen Boswell?"
"Here."
"Ricky Burke?"
"Yeah."
"Angela Cadwick?"
"Present and accounted for!"
20-year-old Angelaâwho preferred but did not demand to be called Angieâliked to announce her attendance in such a fashion. When the semester opened and she did so, pockets of classmates tittered at her. Now as it came to a close, they were pretty much used to it. Whatever reaction or none at all, Angie refused to let them persuade her to be anything but herself. She was whimsical, quirky and sweet-hearted, with a nice dash of goofballishness. And more than a bit, she'd striven to be unique. Quite honestly, conformance and the like bored the tears out of her. This didn't mean she went about being rebellious and breaking rules; she'd always been a good girl. It meant that Angela didn't just march to her own drummer. She
was
her own drummer.
Professor Catherine Reeds finished taking rollâa more or less obligatory task at Denmore Universityâand got class underway. She'd been teaching college algebra and trig for twenty-five years, and molded one of the most successful math curricula in the United States. Her secret was her ability to analogize course material with real-life situations. This dispelled the widespread declaration that these maths held no practical uses, or that normal individuals would never need them. She hoped these analogies served her students well when it came time for finals in just a few more days. She was also, however, astute enough to perceive that math was a core requirement for most degrees, and for many students nothing more. So she divided her exams in halves. One half were take-home open-book exams, the other were not. The upcoming final would be fifty-fifty.
Over this semester, Prof Reeds taught Angela something other than mathematics without even realizing it. Upon meeting on day one, Angie'd thought,
Gosh, she's really pretty.
Over the four months that followed, her feelings developed beyond those of a simple girl-crush. The young lass realized she had an
actual
crush on her professor. This in turn challenged her to reexamine her feelings for boys and men, which had diminished to mere friendship. And few things had been clearer in her twenty years. It would seem she'd turned out to be a... lesbian? Sources of pop culture had acquainted her with male homosexuality. But the female variety? Not very much. Also less than typical of most girls, Angela'd always liked math and numbers. A lot. And thought she'd like to cultivate a career in the sciences with this power (no pun intended). But this "lesbian" lesson she saw just as valuable.
The epiphany alone determined she'd a tough row to hoe ahead of her. The minority was self-explanatory. She'd hardly met any other gay chicks in film, television or literature, let alone in person. (Not that she'd been specifically looking for them.) She had no clue how to meet another lesbian for a friend, to say nothing of more. It also made her look at other young ladies in a special new way. Their allure was real. And intense. So this was...maybe how it felt for boys when they hit puberty. It seemed her challenge of finding a significant other had grown... significantly steeper.
She'd dated a number of boys, but hadn't steadily been with anyone. And she was perceptive enough to see that a durable education weighed heavier right now. So this was what she focused on. Though in Prof Reeds' class, focus (on what she was "supposed" to be studying) could be tough. Angie turned in a decent performance and got her homework done, but golly, could she get distracted. And were she to be totally honest, she'd have to confess to a more than occasional impure thought about Catherine Reeds. Prof regarded the students as the adults they were, placing herself on a first-name basis with them. And suggested they call her Cat. Angela liked this. She imagined being intimate with her and making her
purr
. As well as the experienced prof making her
own
kitty's engine hum.
Though Angela didn't know her exact age, Professor Cat Reeds was twenty-eight years her senior. And while there was nothing wrong with girls her own age, Angie
liked
older women. She admired their warm touch and disposition, their wisdom, their faces nicely worn with laugh lines and wrinkles, their voices naturally deepened in pitch. In the case of Prof Reedsâagain, in complete honestyâAngie now and then put those impure thoughts into action, scratching and jilling off to fantasies of her. Australian band Divinyls had just come out with the international hit "I Touch Myself," opening the '90s with a bright new dawn for the art of masturbation. Angela approved. She was all for sexuality being expressed in creative ways.
Using a few of the logical tactics Cat Reeds had taught them, Angie developed a rationalization. She deemed her arguably depraved behavior okay, with the reasoning that the chances of Cat liking her back were absurdly low. This way, she could finger or vibe herself beyond oblivion and back and keep her libido in check in class. At the same time, she felt anxiety grow as the semester rolled to its end. Once it was over, she didn't know if, when or where she'd see Prof Reeds again. This weekend, the take-home half of the final exam would be handed out, and the last two classes would take place next Monday and Thursday. The following Thursday, Cat would hand out the in-class closed-book half of the final. Angela'd be very sad to not see Professor Reeds anymoreâat least without letting her know she liked her. Even if only in a respectful platonic way.
As much as she really did
like
the woman, Angie'd been preparing herself to face reality. The semester'd be over after just a few more hours spent in this room. All this in mind, she could live with the prospect of sharing her feelings and letting this be her farewell. She simply felt she needed this closure. They wouldn't associate anymoreâunless perhaps Angie flunked the course, which she definitely didn't plan on doingâand that was fine. She just had to say
something
. So at 2:50-ish, as Cat prepared to dismiss, Angela prepared her approach. Figuratively and literally. She got up, took a breath, and trod forth.
Ahem.
"'Scuse me, Professor Reeds?"
Cat raised her eyes.
"Oh, Miss Cadwick. Yes, always a pleasure. I respect your preference, but you know you can call me Cat."
"Okay...Cat," the girl smiled. "And, me, Angie. Um...oh gosh, that sounded silly. I meant you can please call me Angie. Please."
"Noted, Angie. What can I do for you?"
Oh... golly, well... there's a
number
of things you can
do
for me. But, within the confines of reality...
"Well, erm... I dunno if you're leaving yet. But, I am, and, well...