My hand was heavy on the doorknob as I felt it turn. I felt I had raised the dead as I walked through the fence gate it rattled so, but I wanted this in the worst way and all my anxiety would not make me turn back to my car now.
I felt as if She was watching me, needing to know if I obeyed every direction. I looked around the flower garden, nothing moved.
The door opened and I smelled something unusual, pretty, light and angel-like. The light above the puter was on...I giggled at the tiny kitty holding the edge.
I looked about and found the candle as She had said. It was in plain view but I was so nervous, I could have walked on it and not noticed.
I bent down for on the floor, next to the candle, was a note. "Look in the box on the desk, put it on, then proceed." I had seen the box but now quickly opened it and placed it upon my neck. The next door was ajar so I opened it expecting it to squeak. Another candle and note, which read "Remove all your outer clothing, hang them on the hanger, then assume nadu position." I looked around for a hanger and caught site of it. My mind was racing...which was nadu? Had I forgotten already? I took off my blouse, my skirt as I tried to remember the words, hung them carefully as I slowly thought it through.... on my knees, thighs spread, slightly back on my heels, back straight, hands on my thighs with palms up, head up ...did I remember correctly? I hoped She would forgive me if I messed up.
I waited; it seemed like hours, was it? Or was it only moments?
My eyes drifted closed as my heart raced with anticipation...I heard a noise and opened my eyes like a startled bunny....She was not there.
