"Oh no, don't tell that story!"
Freddy winked and smiled at me from across the table. "Well now you know I have to." He looked at the other two people and began without pause, "We went to pick up some of Cass's crap from Jeremy's place." Everyone, including myself, made a face at the sound of my ex-boyfriend's name. "Yeah, I know. Of course he was sitting in front of his computer, hand down his pants and screaming racial slurs at the poor people on the other end of his headset when we walked in. He hadn't even gotten up to let us in. Told us is was open. So, we walked into the bedroom and started grabbing everything of Cass's. I looked at the nightstand and saw this thing sitting there and asked her what it was. She looked up and, without missing a beat, informed me that it was the penis cozy she'd knit him." By this point in the retelling, Freddy was almost doubled over laughing and clutching his stomach. Across from me, Tammy was wiping tears from her eyes and shaking her head.
"Oh God, Cass," Andrew said to me. "Why?"
I shrugged and sipped my margarita before saying, "It was all I could make. It started as a potholder and..." It hit me: the absurdity of it, penis cozy and all, and I began laughing hysterically. My one and only knitting project had been a cozy for my ex-boyfriend's penis.
"Do you guys still need a minute?" our waitress asked, looking at us suspiciously. We must have appeared crazy, the four of us mid-hysterics, if you did not know the cozy story. She looked to be in her mid-twenties, had long blonde hair and the greenest eyes I'd ever seen. They have to be contacts, I thought.
"No," Andrew said. "We're ready."
We gave our orders and she took the menus. When she grabbed mine, our fingertips touched and a shiver ran up my spine. Stupid, I thought, but when I glanced up, she was staring at me. I'd never been with a woman, even in college, but there was something there.
A second after she left, Freddy whistled. "Girl."
"What?" Andrew asked. Tammy smiled and kissed him on the cheek.
"It's always the straight mend who have the worst gaydar," Freddy said.
I hit him. "No, it wasn't anything like that." But my protest sounded weak, even to me.
Tammy shook her head. "I don't know, Cass. She's cute."
Freddy nodded. "Go for it. You deserve a little fun after all the crap you dealt with with Jeremy." Easy for you to say, I thought. You've been out since you were fifteen. I'd always found some girls attractive, but I'd never thought of myself as a lesbian.
When the check came, Anni had written, "Thank you!" with her phone number underneath. Freddy shoved it in my purse.
We parted with Andrew and Tammy in front of the restaurant and walked to Freddy's car. He and I had been roommates for two years and it was great. We were both neat freaks with a touch of OCD, never fought over the same guy and loved eating Ben and Jerry's Phish Food while watching Disney movies on Netflix.
"You'll thank me later," he said without preamble when we got in the car.
"What?"
"Anni's number." He turned to face me. "Call her. She was into you. I know these things. And you do deserve it."
I nodded. He was right. Freddy often was. I'd been with Jeremy for eight months before things went south. Then, I'd stayed with him for another miserable three before finally calling it quits. Honestly, he was so addicted to video games that I don't know if he registered my absence. Well, probably only when he got hungry and had to leave the virtual world to fix himself a sandwich.
When we got home, we said goodnight and went to our rooms. I washed my face and changed into sweats and a tank top. Sitting on my bed, I held my phone in one hand and the receipt in the other. I debated with myself for ten minutes before I dialed.
She picked up on the third ring. "Hello?"
"Hi, it's Cassie, from tonight."
"Table seven, pasta primavera." She laughed, a deep, smokey and seductive sound. "How are you?"
"I'm good, thanks. Is this an okay time for you?"
"Yeah, I just got home."
"How are you?" I settled back against my pillows and stretched my legs out.
"Better now that you called."
I smiled and felt a pull low in my stomach. We stayed up past midnight taking and made plans to get coffee the next morning.
I couldn't find anything to wear. I had half of the contents of my closet on my bed and the other half scattered across my floor when Freddy knocked at nine. "What happened?"
"I'm having coffee with Anni in thirty minutes and I don't know what to wear. Guys don't care as long as they can see a little boob," I whined.
Freddy walked over and took my by the shoulders. "You're over-thinking again. Wear what you feel comfortable in. It's just coffee." He smiled. "Lesbian coffee, yes, but coffee nevertheless."
I hit him on the arm and smiled. "Not helping, Fred."
He fished out a pair of dark skinny jeans and a green sweater. "Wear your black sandals and curl your hair a bit." He kissed my cheek. "Have fun. Tell me everything later."
At nine-twenty, I walked into the coffee shop a block away from Anni's restaurant and saw her sitting at a table by the window. She smiled and stood as I approached.
"What do you want?"
"Oh, um, I can get it."
She shook her head. "No, I asked you out. So tell me what you want or I'll get you the craziest drink on the menu."
I laughed. "Okay, grande vanilla latte."
She nodded. "Be right back."
Over two rounds of coffee and a split blueberry scone, we talked about everything. I learned that she was an only child; I have an older sister. She was raised on the East coast but had moved to the West when her parents divorced ten years ago to live with her mom and swore she was never living through another East coast winter. I was born and raised in the Bay Area but loved to travel. She'd dated boys in high school and came out during her freshman year at a public university an hour south of here. I'd had three serious boyfriends but didn't think I'd ever get married.
We went to a bistro down the street and had lunch. The more we talked, the more I feel for her. Everything from the way she moved her fingers while she talked to the impressions she did of people as she spoke of them pulled me in. She was light, funny and beautiful. I found out her eyes were natural, not contacts though she did dye the ends of her hair. I had forgotten what it felt like to go out with someone and talk for hours. There were no lulls, no pauses or silences during the four hours we spent together that day.
Her shift started at three. I couldn't believe my disappointment as she walked me to my car.