My first time was totally freaky, scary and exciting. All those emotions were all at the same time. That makes it so memorable that it will be in my thoughts and basis of my fantasies forever.
I was on the volleyball team. We were pretty good. We won a lot more than we lost. It was high school, I'd just turned 18 and Iâd made the varsity as an 11th grader. I guess one reason I was moved up to varsity was because I was taller then most of my classmates. 5â8â in the 11th grade. In fact I was even taller than some of my teachers. Part of the reason was Iâd been held back a year due to some illness that forced my mom to home school me. So, besides being taller, I was a bit more mature too. Well, mature in non sensual ways that is. As far as sex was concerned, I was totally without a clue.
The first time I saw her was the year before. She was shorter than me by 3 inches and older by 18 years. Her presence was electrifying. It was during a junior varsity game the first time Iâd realized she even knew who I was. Iâd just won a point on a spike that had actually knocked down the blocker. She came up to me after the game and said she expected me to report for varsity practice the next day. I watched her as she walked away. Her short page-boy cut blonde hair made her look almost masculine except for the graceful neck and swaying hips. My âdoâ was only slightly longer than hers actually. God, I hoped I didnât look masculine but would have loved to be as pretty and sexy as she was. Maybe looking a bit masculine wasnât so bad.
Most of the men teachers appeared to leer after her whenever she walked the halls but she seemed to be above their feeble attempts to draw her into more than school or activity conversation. I didnât know for sure but had head sheâd actually told a couple of the more aggressive men to âbug off.â I laughed to myself over that. I said the same to a couple of football players that thought they owned every girl in school by just being on the football team. No-way!
Iâd gone on just 3 dates with guys in the past and all in the last 7 months of this school year. Two dates were to a dance and one was to a movie. The dances were ok until the guys wanted to maul me on the way home. As for the movie, not with another guy for sure. All he wanted to do was touch my breasts. Little did he know there wasnât much to touch but I didnât want him to do it at all. My mom hadnât let me date the year I was home-schooled and there wasnât a chance at all prior to that to go out. I had to be over 16, that didnât happen until I was already at home and totally supervised. Besides, not going to school really cramps your meeting anyone other than the neighborhood guys. No thanks!
God, I was so elated and excited. VarsityâŠWOW!
She came into the locker room while we were dressing for practice. She went around to each girl and said words of encouragement to them. When she got to me, she said, âListen Renae, I just know youâre going to be a fantastic addition to the team. Just listen to what I say and always do everything I say.â Little did I know how much she really meant by that.
She was blonde, pretty and, well, sexy too. Most of the time she wore shorts or a sweat suit. When she wore shorts, everyone could see she had fantastic legs. The bulky sweats she wore hid her breasts so that was anyoneâs guess. I guess I was as curious as the others when it came to wondering what was under her ever present sweatshirt but it was more idle curiosity than anything else. Or at least thatâs what I believed.
Her piercing blue eyes could make even the toughest female in gym class step back with caution. The way they looked at me when she was telling me she knew I was going to be her best âpupilâ was altogether different though. They seemed to pierce directly into my soul. Rather than be concerned about her wrath, I had a feeling of foreboding but intermingled with some perverse anticipation too.
What I was anticipating I wasnât sure of. I just knew I was totally honored and thrilled to have been chosen by her to be on varsity. The fact she seemed to favor me at the same time was just extra.
The change in the way she treated me was slow and subtle. At first she was just patting me on the back and complimenting me on my play and hustle. Then, occasionally, sheâd add a small rub on the back of my shoulders following the pat. I had to admit, I liked the attention. Some of the other players sort of observed what she was doing and started to call me coachâs pet. I must confess, I started looking forward to her congratulatory pats and rubs.
The coach started to visit the dressing room more often when we were dressing out for practice and games and suddenly never ever missed being there after practice. We were all required to take showers after practice and games. Some of the girls liked to prance around nude with their towels around there heads or shoulders to and from the individual shower stalls. I never did that. Not that I was a prude, I just felt to exposed to allâs view and always had the towel wrapped around me on my trek to and from.
At first I didnât notice but then I started to observe coach paying a lot of attention to those that like to be exhibitionists. But, well, it seemed she like to look at me a lot too. I didnât know why because I was more covered with the towel than I usually was when in our playing uniform; shorts, sports bra, (even though my 34 A cup breasts didnât need it except when I was cold or excited, and then my nipples gave me away as they extended like almost half an inch), and tank tops. Oh yeah, and panties of course. Some girls wore body suits but I never did like the feel of them when playing. To restrictive.
The shower stalls had a draw curtain across the entrance for individual privacy. I welcomed that and always closed it. A few times one of the girls that liked to do practical jokes would walk through the shower room and open all the curtains. Sometimes sheâd toss in a pitcher of cold water onto the person inside. One time she did it to me and I saw the coach standing outside looking in and I got really embarrassed when I saw her eyes sort of narrow and a smile appear on her face as she looked directly at me as I stood there totally naked. I knew I turned at least 4 shades of red. I tried to close the curtain but in my haste, it got stuck and I could feel her eyes taking in all of me. I got a really funny feeling deep down inside my abdomen and I kept trying to close the curtain, standing on my toes facing her and knowing she was seeing all of me. I donât know why I was feeling so funny and tingly inside. I mean, even though Iâm modest, as I said, I wasnât a prude. What was different was the way see looked at me. It was almost like my pet catâs look when she was studying a bird on the ground and crouching in a position of leaping towards its prey.
The rest of the season was dramatic. We kept winning a lot more than losing and the coach kept patting and rubbing me. I was liking it more and more. What I also liked and started to allow happen was to keep the shower curtain open a little longer every day as I knew the coach was standing there almost expecting me to do just what I was doing. I couldnât explain to myself why I was doing that or what exactly I expected the coach to do. I just knew I was starting to feel really comfortable and cozy letting the coach see me. It embarrassed me at the same time too because I couldnât explain in my own mind just why I was suddenly being such a flasher.
The day after our final game, we lost in the quarter-finals, we were all feeling pretty low even though everyone thought weâd played very well and coach was very proud of how far we had made it in the playoffs.
Coach always wore a pants suit to games. She looked very business-like and could almost be mistaken for a young manâŠagain if they didnât look at the sensuous face, striking eyes, and hint of a bust. She never wore heels except for games and then they were 2â heels. She commented often on how sheâd prefer 3â spike heels but being on a wooden basketball court for the volleyball games made that a school âno-no.â
I always thought she looked the best in a black pin-stripe double-breasted suit. Very aggressive and domineering in appearance. Other than a bit of lipstick, it didnât look like she used make-up. Maybe she was one of those women that didnât need enhancement or cared to use anything. The initial effect was one of wholesomeness with a hint of dominance. Once you got to know her, then it wasnât just a hint.
Coach had called me back to the bus to console me over the loss so by the time I got to the locker room, most of the other girls had already showered, dressed and left. There were just two others but they were finishing there shower. I started to undress but the coach came in and told me she had to leave on an errand and couldnât wait for me to shower. The other two girls came out, finished dressing and left to meet their boyfriends who were waiting for them in the parking lot.
Coach said, âJust get your clothes; Iâll give you a ride home. Iâve already sent the bus to the barn.â
She knew my mom was out of town for the weekend and it being Friday, Iâd planned on riding the bus home. My mom had made plans for the team bus to ensure I got home after the game. Mom is an account executive and does have occasional weekend business trips. She was really disappointed sheâd missed our playoff game but had called me on the way back to school from the match and had commiserated with me over our loss. She told me sheâd be home late Sunday evening.
I guess I was still in denial that weâd lost so I just mumbled my assent, picked up my clothes and got ready to ride home.
It was soon apparent we werenât heading to my house and I said, âCoach, Ummm, this isnât the way to my house.â
âI know sweetie, I have to go by my place to pickup something. You donât mind do you? And call me Kay, not coach!â
Calling me sweetie was totally out of the blue. I didnât know how to respond to that. Sheâd always called me by my last name, âWhite,â before. And her telling me to call her âKayâ didnât sound like a request, more like an order.
When we arrived at her apartment, she ordered me out. I complied without even a murmur as her tone left me no choice. I got out and as she sort of pushed me forward, entered her apartment.
âYou smell, go in and take a shower while I get the things I need before I take you home.â she demanded. She pointed me towards the bathroom, tossed me a large towel and, watching me closely, opened a cabinet and took out a bottle of Chardonnay and 2 glasses.
I demurely complied and wondered if the glass of wine she was going to pour was for me. Iâd never had a drink before and didnât know if I should try or not if she offered it to me. I didnât think I had a choice when she walked in and said, âHere, drink this, itâll relax you. You seem really tense. No wonder after the great game you played. Now get in the shower.â
I did as I was told. I carefully closed the bathroom door, got undressed and got in the shower. I suddenly had a panic attach when I realized Iâd left my tote bag with my school clothes out in the other room.