I had been in London for less than a month when I discovered my taste for the delicious sensations provided by oral sex had grown tremendously.
So many aspects of my sexual awareness were expanding, and when a young English gentleman - though he turned out somewhat less than gentle - asked me on my first date since arriving from America, I learned he had rather specific and peculiar sexual tastes.
When he introduced me to his fiancΓ© - the one who showed me much more than I did in return - I learned that her time in boarding school was in reality an education in pleasing other girls. When she asked if I wanted to study with her, to improve the lacking aspects of my broadening education, I could hardly say no.
But it was Benjamin, engaged to her less than six weeks, I discovered, who first offered the lesson; he was a very impatient teacher.
Of the many reasons I wanted to come on this trip was the idea that European boys, and possibly men, were that much more sophisticated and experienced; I'd nearly sworn off boys in my home country altogether after one too many disappointing sexual encounters.
The summer before was when my body finally emerged.
I was the youngest in my class and had just turned 18, and I watched enviously as the bodies of all the girls around me developed. Tawny Melrose was nine months older and grew an impressive chest and shapely hips nearly overnight, and the number of times I either had to listen to another story of her lustful weekend antics or watch discreetly while she repeatedly lathered her impressive curves inside the girls' shower was infuriating.
I wanted those; both hers and mine.
One fall afternoon after an exhausting game of lacrosse, I found that Tawny and I were the last two still inside the locker room. I was a mess of grass and mud, and when I finally emerged from the shower, I found Tawny fondling herself in front of the full-length mirror at the end of the lockers; and when she noticed me, she did nothing but grin.
"Aren't they amazing?" she asked while continuing to run her hands over the bountiful flesh and across her nipples.
I noticed they'd already reacted to her touch and the tips were peeking through her fingertips each time she ran her hands across them.
"I still can't believe they're mine," she said in a playful tone, completely unconcerned that I'd seen her. "And they're so firm. I can't help myself sometimes; watch this."
When she said it, she pulled her hands back and shook side to side from the waist; her magnificent young breasts barely moved; they were so tight and firm, yet delightfully full.
As I approached my locker, still wet from the shower - my towel completely covering my flat chest - I expected her to stop, to sense my apprehension, and start getting dressed.
She merely placed her hands back onto her breasts, spread her fingers, and began rubbing them again.
She stood there, her towel barely around her waist - the tiniest hint of her butt cheeks above it - completely naked from the waist up.
I was slightly uncomfortable yet so excited by the movement of her hands across her impressive breasts; I tried not to stare, to open my locker and dry my hair, but the way she touched herself, the way her hands cupped her breasts - her fingers rubbing along her nipples - I froze in place with my eyes glued to her every move.
She was so engrossed and unashamed in the feel of her own body. When I expected her to laugh or make fun of me in some way she surprised me again.
"Do you want to feel them?" she asked and turned from watching herself in the mirror toward me: "They're so soft and firm."
I had no idea what to say; my face turned beet red.
"Come on," she encouraged. "There's nobody here. You can touch them. I just covered them in body cream."
I remained frozen but couldn't take my eyes off her. As she invited me to feel her breasts she began walking toward me; as she did, I saw her towel was coming loose around her waist.
"Have you ever touched another girl's tits before? I have," she said in an alarming fashion as she inched closer to my frozen body.
When her towel came undone and she made no attempt to catch it or cover herself my heart skipped and rose into my throat. I swallowed hard in an attempt to catch my breath and shake the paralyzing grip she had over me, but nothing changed.
Her hips had expanded as well, and she had the most perfect v-shaped pubic hair; so keenly manicured.
As she stepped uncomfortably close, so close I could nearly feel the warmth radiating off her, she let her arms drop and she reached to hold me by the waist. I was convinced she'd feel the trembling in my limbs and once again turn and laugh; but instead, she reached for my hand and slowly placed it directly onto her right breast.
I thought my hand would melt.
"What do you think?" she asked. "And go on, pinch it a little. Can you feel how firm it is?"
It was gloriously firm in my hand and my heart raced inside my chest.
"Now try the other one," Tawny instructed.
With slight hesitation, I reached for her left breast but she stopped me short.
"No, with your other hand, silly; play with both of them. I do."
And like an obedient servant, I reached up with my other hand and began fondling both her magnificent breasts in my hands; the feel was so soft and round and firm; they moved like delicious mounds of flour or putty inside my fingers; her hard nipples rolling against my fingers as I gripped and massaged each one.
As I did, Tawny's eyes closed and her head fell back slightly; she let out a low moan each time I clutched her breasts tighter.
"Yes. Like that. Just like that. Can you feel how young and firm they are?"
I could; my hands took on a life of their own and I continued massaging Tawny's breasts and pinching her nipples between my fingers. I had fantasized about this moment so many times while attempting to conceal my fervent looks at her naked body in the girls' shower.
Tawny began to sway a little and her head rotated ever so slightly from side to side; I became aware of the pleasure both she and I were enjoying.
She gripped my sides tighter and dug her fingers inside my towel; I could feel her hands pressing against my wet skin as I continued rhythmically massaging her breasts, pushing them up and around inside my hands; my eyes glued to them.
Then, with no warning, Tawny pulled my towel down. I could feel the tension of the moist fabric lowering under my arms and I was too overtaken by desire to do anything about it other than let it happen.