Is She Bi? Or just shy?
As far back as she could remember she had wondered what it would be like to feel the arms of female. To feel her soft body pressed against her own. She was shy, and yes, she knew it. Even her closest friend growing up had no idea of her secret thoughts. But as growing up years do, she grew up and continued to keep her thoughts to herself yet the 'unknowing' always stayed close in her secret place that she dare not reveal to anyone. Even though she dated and eventually married, still, there seemed to be 'something' lacking in her life. And once again, as she pondered this, somehow, deep within, she knew what that was.
She wondered why she never felt completely satisfied in the arms of her lovers; and why she never felt completely whole with anyone in her entire life. And somehow she 'knew' that her life was about to change.
She walked into the store one day, the hairs on the back of her neck stood up as they did when something major was about to happen to her. When the lady came out of the back room, she stood transfixed as she stared at the other woman. She became speechless, her eyes looking into the most beautiful eyes she had ever seen, and yet – there was an instant 'knowing' feeling that penetrated through her body like an electric jolt. She lost track of time, of how long she stood there, not hearing the question until the third time the lady asked her if she could help her. Still stunned, she never remembered what she said as she quickly, almost ran, out of the store.
It would be several months later before she gained enough nerve to visit the store again. But those eyes penetrated her as if she could see through her shields of protectiveness. She had felt so connected to this woman, this stranger, yet she knew that 'she' was – 'the one' that she had waited for all her life. The one that could make her have the courage to take that step, to be bold, to open up to her true inner most feelings and desires.