It was Saturday and the news was playing in the background. Some apocalypse or another. We weren't quite tuned in to whatever social catastrophe was happening as we scrolled through our phones. I was having my typical earl grey with cream and she was sipping her flowery-hibiscus-something she likes. The light coming in through from the slats on the floor-to-ceiling window that overlooked our city was golden and calming.
As I sipped my tea, tasting the lovely bergamot, I looked over at her. She had her legs intertwined with mine, playing footsie with me randomly or shifting to stretch her leg over the angle my bent knee made. This was my favorite. The coexistence and companionable silence. The easy way we moved against each other to get comfortable. She was drowning in a fluffy white turtleneck sweater and fleece pjs. Her rosy cheeks peeking out of the sweater made me smile. I was scrolling through funny dog videos and let out a chuckle here and there.
"Mor?"
"Hmm?" If she asked me one more time if a pink and gold aesthetic would really work for the restroom, I would put my foot down. We already have the damn paint and have been planning this for months already. I'm done talking about it.
"Do you think nipple orgasms are real?"
My head whipped up to look at her and she blearily looked my way, still frowning.
My eyebrows were high on my face and she laughed.
"Mor, I'm serious!"
"What on earth are you reading??"
She laughed again and showed me the title of the article she was reading.
HOW TO HAVE A NIPPLE ORGASM: 23 TIPS FOR YOU AND YOUR PARTNER
My eyebrows went higher.
"Well--I mean...uh. Do you wanna?" I asked eloquently.
She pursed her lips seriously.
"I don't think it's possible..."
"That's not a no." I smirked at her and she rolled her eyes.
"It's a myth."
"Well, how will we know unless we try?" I wheedled.
"What do you suggest?" She smiled back playfully.
"You're the one reading the article, darling."
Her eyes drifted back to her phone. "Toosh."
"What?"
"Hmm?"
"What did you say? Tush?"
"No, toosh. Like 'good comeback?'"
I thought for a second, frowning. "You mean touchΓ©? Like fencing?"
"Oh, is that how you say it?" She didn't seem very invested in her mispronunciation, her eyes back to the screen. I grinned widely, even more fucking happy than I was fifteen minutes ago. I stared at the little frown lines on her face and her plump pink lips that twisted and twitched with the words she was reading. I nudged her elbow with my socked foot.
"Well? What does the article say?"
She threw me a quick smile before continuing to read.
"Oh, you know, typical Cosmo tips...Set the mood, take your time, use toys..." My hands flexed in my lap. I didn't know if she was toying with me or genuinely didn't want to try this but I felt like I needed to tread carefully to get what I wanted. I untangled my legs from hers to sit up and reach her. As I laid gently over her, I took her phone from her grasp and made a show of locking the screen and setting it on the end table next to her tea.
"Suzie? Do you remember the night you tried edibles for the first time?" I said slowly and carefully.
She linked her hands over my neck.
"Yes...Fuck, that was nice."
"Understatement, but yeah. Babe? You almost came just from me touching your nipples...I really think we can do this." She blushed and looked at the side of my arm. "Do you want to try on me? Or do you want me to try it on you?" I continued to prompt her, giving her the typical multiple choice questions I usually present her with.
"I'm still not sure." She bit her lip. I leaned against the back of the sofa for leverage as I caressed the front of her cashmere sweater.
"How about...we watch a little porn together?" I paused and looked at her eyes. I raised my eyebrows in question. "To have a better idea of what it looks like." Her eyes widened and her mouth fell open. I couldn't resist and swooped down to kiss her. Her fingers tightened in my hair and we squirmed, moving against each other. I finished our make out session with soft pecks to her lips as we both smiled sappily.
"So porn?" I grinned.
"Omg, Mor..." She looked in my eyes. "You really want this, don't you?"
"So, so much. But it doesn't have to be a big deal if you don't wanna! I've just been sort of thinking about it."
"You mean...if I didn't want you to touch me and make me come?" She cocked her head and grinned.
"Well, when you put it like that..." I leaned down to kiss her again.
I kissed the side of her face and sucked her earlobe in my mouth.
She moaned. "What if...I can't?"
"What? You mean if you can't come like that?" She nodded quickly.