I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Evanescence - My Immortal
This is a romance about two girls told mainly in third person with two different points of view. It is long-winded and quite wordy; this is not your usual erotica, although there are extensive sex scenes to be found later on. This is not a quick fix. If that's not your cup of tea, please exit now. You have been warned. All characters portrayed here are above eighteen years of age. All places, names and locations may or may not be the product of my imagination but I'll leave that to you to decide.
I'd like to dedicate this story to my wife. She is an ocean of love upon which the boat of my life sails in.
I'd also like to express my gratitude to several people; to V. for being my life-long friend. Without her I would never had met the love of my life. To N. for honoring me with her friendship and trust. To all my female friends whose valuable feedback allowed me to peer inside the wondrous world of female magnificence.
Finally, I'd like to sincerely express my admiration and send along a huge "thank you" to Literotica writers HarmonyHaze and SweetestThing. Their works of art have been an incredible source of inspiration and have helped me in becoming a better writer. For that I am grateful. My own weak efforts could never possible measure up to their greatness.
Spring, 2011
Anna
There were few fans watching the game. It was after all women's junior volleyball. Usually, when the boys were playing you couldn't fit a piece of paper between the jam-packed spectators. Anna didn't mind the lack of a crowd one bit; she wasn't a people's person in any case. As she sat there in relative solitude her eyes lingered on one person in particular; it was the settler of her school's team.
Anna had her eyes on her for more than one reason; Leila was her best friend and her biggest crush. Not the easiest of combinations. Anna had known she was into girls since she was fourteen; Leila was as straight as an arrow, popular and beautiful, with girl-next-door looks combined with a toned firmness that practicing sports from an early age will give you. She had the loveliest and most intense blue eyes that you could simply drown in. Her white skin had a pinkish hue in it with just a cute dusting of freckles. Her hair was a shoulder length golden mane, beautifully framing her face. Her body...Anna caught herself daydreaming again...her body was worth dying for. Just thinking about her made Anna squirm in her seat. "Stop that!" she quietly admonished herself.
Oh yes, Anna had gradually learnt to live with her crush. Sometimes it could get fairly painful but by now she had mastered survival and endurance. The rational part of her brain never ceased to remind her that going after straight girls was the path to the Dark Side. Going after a straight girl who happened to be your best friend was an especially painful pitfall that Anna knew she should avoid. But that was the rational part of her brain; her heart told her otherwise. Since she couldn't just rip her heart out and order a replacement, she did the next best thing; she suppressed her feelings hoping and praying that somehow they would go away.
The referee's whistle and the girls' cheering brought her back from her reveries. Alba College had won yet another match and was steamrolling its way towards the provincial finals. Anna watched as the girls huddled in the center of the court yelling their cheers and high-fiving each other. With their celebrations finally over, they made their way towards the lockers for a much earned shower and change of clothes.
Anna, as was her custom, headed towards the locker's exit to await for her friend there. She was absentmindedly fiddling with her cell phone when she felt a pair of hands cover her eyes.
"Guess who?"
"Hmmmm...yes...let me think...warm hands...finger tape still lingering on left hand digits...hmmmm...and if I do this..."
Anna extended her hands mercilessly tickling Leila's exposed flanks causing her to hit the wall in a fit of giggles.
"Well, well, well! If it isn't Alba College volleyball sensation, Leila Duval ladies and gentlemen!"
Leila stuck out her tongue in mock disdain.
"Girl, I've told you a thousand times, that's no tongue sticking. If you stick out your tongue you should at least be able to do this..." said Anna as her tongue slithered out and effortlessly touched the tip of her nose.
"Wish I could do that...In fact, I bet you could even lick your own boobs with a tongue like that..."
"Why would I want to do that you weirdo?"
"Nicholas would cream his pants if he saw me do that."
Ah yes, the ever-present Nicholas, always there to remind Anna of her friend's straightness.
"Yes I'm quite sure you'd be a sensation" said Anna somewhat dejectedly.
"You don't like him."
"He's fine. If you're happy with him, I am happy with him."
"But you don't approve of him."
"It's none of my business. Can we get out of here please?"
"What's gotten into you? Anyways, yes...let's go...I'm famished...You fancy a burgher or something?"
Leila was an athlete but she did take her junk food seriously, especially after a volleyball match. It always amazed Anna how much food her friend could consume and stay in tip-top shape. If she, on the other hand, binged even slightly she would immediately pay for it by feeling her jeans stretching at the seams.
Anna watched with fascination as her friend consumed her double-cheeseburger with gusto. They were sipping their sodas in relative silence, a rare occasion between them, when Leila decided to break it.
"Anna...there's something I need to tell you..."
"Uh-oh!" The seriousness of Leila's tone immediately put Anna on guard.
"There's no easy way to say this...I've...my parents insisted...I've applied for scholarships in the UK. My parents feel that it's for the best this way..."
"I...uhhh...but what about your plans to attend Western Ontario?"
"The folks said that a foreign experience will do me good..."
"And...and...what about you, what do you think?"
"I..."
"And what about our plans to go to the same uni together?"
Leila stooped her face in silence. Anna felt as if she had been hit by a speeding truck. Leila and Anna, Anna and Leila...As close as two peas in a pod. Best friends like, forever. Leila was always the driving force; Anna was the quiet thinker. Leila was the athlete, Anna was the bookworm. But they fit together so perfectly that both of them could sense each other's thoughts without anything being spoken between them.
And now Anna felt as if a part of her was being torn away. She blinked her eyes trying to stop the cascade of tears she felt was coming but to no avail. Rivulets started forming and suddenly her vision became blurry.
"Can we go outside please? I...I need some air."
Fighting back her tears, Anna got up and rushed through the door with Leila in quick pursuit.
"Hey, Anna! Wait up! Wait up!"
Anna sat on a nearby bench and was wiping away her tears with the back of her hand. She looked up towards Leila with bloodshot eyes.
"Anna, I'm sorry..."
"No...hey...I'm the one who should be sorry...I'm a big ol' wimp. It's just that it was quite the bombshell that you dropped on me. I...um...well...You'll do fine...I'm sure you'll be a star wherever you go."
"I'm not dumping you Anna. It's not...I'm not going to the moon for Christ's sake! We'll chat! We'll skype! You can come over and visit whenever you like! Come on! Smile for me, pleeeeaaaaseee?"
Anna threw a wane smile towards her. They had made so many plans together down to the last detail. They'd even found an off-campus apartment to rent. But ever the driving force, Leila had changed the plans. Anna was accustomed to such changes but this was quite a punch to the gut. Well, perhaps it was for the best she reasoned. Because despite her efforts to suppress her crush for her best friend, Anna secretly harbored fantasies of seducing her straight bestie. Fate had decided otherwise. She forced a smile on her face.
"Will do princess Leia. As your highness commands."
"Anakin! I've told you never to bow in front of me when we're in public. It alerts the paps and they hound me like TIE fighters."
"Yes your most exalted highness. I promise to behave."
And that was it. Leila had, as always, charted her course and Anna had acquiesced. As Anna thought it through some more she concluded that it was better this way. Because she was not exactly as transparent as her friend thought of her. The fact that she was gay remained a deeply buried secret within her. What she would do with it was another story entirely.
Leila
That had certainly gone better than she had predicted, thought Leila, once in the confines of her room. She was sure that Anakin, as she affectionately called her, was suppressing something from her but she didn't want to lean any harder on her at the moment. It was good enough that she had gotten away with the bomb that she'd dropped on her, there was no reason to push her luck any further.
Content with herself, she proceeded with her beautification routine. Leila was not a bad person, far from it. It's just that she occasionally relished being the center of the world. It's not something that she consciously did, it's just that being an only child sometimes brought this behavior to the surface.
Leila was beautiful by all accords. The boys' whistles and cat-calls told her this much. The envy and jealousy in the girls' eyes told her more than the boys' stares. She wasn't into teasing and attracting unwanted attention though. At school she dressed casually and more often than not, she could be found in sports attire. With her friends and especially with Anna she spent more time at the cinema multiplex watching the next sci-fi blockbuster to hit the screen. Leila, just like Anakin, took her Star Wars seriously. She had even dressed as a storm-trooper once, complete with the headgear and all. Well, she had wanted to dress as princess Leia, Jabba the Hutt's slave, but her mother had nearly gone apoplectic in rage. Speaking of rage, she really ought to catch up with her Taurine Warrior sometime in the future, now that the bazillionth upgrade for WoW had come up.
"Oh fuck! I've got to seriously scramble here! Nicholas is going to be pissed if I stand him up AGAIN," she thought. With a flurry of action she applied the finishing touches to her make-up and checked herself in the mirror. Today, they'd be going to the movies with Nicholas and she was really looking forward to that.
He pulled over his car at their driveway just as Leila rushed down the steps.
"And where are you going in such a rush?"
"On a date with Nicholas, dad."
"Oh...OK...Please be careful on the roads...And you're supposed to be back by midnight!"
"Yes dad, bye dad!"
Anna
Although it was a Friday night, Anna was comfortably dressed in her sweats seated in front of her PC monitor. She was trying to finish an essay on the impact of the Seven Year's War on Canada but she was having great difficulty in concentrating. Her mind kept wondering off to Leila and that distracted her from any meaningful work. "Maybe I need a break" she thought to herself. Taking off her glasses she closed her eyes and rubbed her temples.
