I'm 43, a wife, a mother, and a good citizen. My girls don't sag, I'm in good shape. I attended all my daughters scout and PTA meetings and I play tennis twice a week. And...I am a closeted lesbian.
I love my life. Well most of it. There's one thing missing. I need female contact. Not "who's making blueberry Pies for the fair" contact, but real intimacy. I have sex with my husband, and I do, from time to time, have an orgasm. But it doesn't satisfy that deep down feeling that claws at me at night. That flame that burns between my thighs at night. When he's asleep I sometimes finish while thinking of the red headed librarian at the downtown branch or the cheerleader coach at the high school. I just need to lick a pussy.
But I don't. I haven't...in years. I've done what I was supposed to do. I went to college. Pledged a sorority, met the right man, married and raised a family. And it's a good family. The three of us have done all the things families do. Beach and mountain holidays and Disney. Grand Canyon and grand opera. The perfect family. And now that our daughter is at Ole Miss, the house is empty and it's just Jeff and me. Just...Jeff...and me...and I need pussy.
During my alone time I watch porn on my computer. I put myself in the place of the actor who is getting her pussy eaten and I attempt to orgasm on cue with her. It makes me feel like I'm part of the scene and not just a bystander. Sometimes i am ahead of the actor and have to put off the orgasm and wait for her, so when I do let go it takes my body and consumes me. It literally shakes me to the core. These days that's all I think about.
So today I had a plan. A plan that would take me downtown to the arts district for lunch. The residents there were different from the soccer moms I see daily. So I put on a very short, flouncy, spring dress with simple straps over the shoulder. I added a bralette and matching thong panties. Pulled my hair into a ponytail and put on some flat sandals. In other words, the fewest amount of clothes I could wear, and for me, this was fairly bold. On the way out of the house I actually bent in front of the mirror in the entryway to see how much tittie could be seen. I couldn't believe I did that.
On the way downtown I dreamed about what could happen today. A free-spirited artist chic would hit on me and we would go back to her apartment and have sex all afternoon.
Yeah...more likely an artist chic will serve my salad and say "Thank you, ma'am" Damn I am wet!
I drove to Washington Ave and parked in a lot. Stepping out of my suv I opened my legs wider than I should hoping the wind would blow my skirt up. I'm sure no one was looking but to me it was a little nervy. I had an electric charge running straight to my pussy. What was I really expecting and if given the chance would I really go through with it? Walking down the street I had an extra bounce in my step. My boobs and ponytail bounced in unison. And just for a few moments I felt like a single girl, alone in the city, enjoying her day. I felt like screaming "I'm here looking for pussy!"
I...didn't do that. But I wish I could. But...I didn't.
I stepped into a little dress shop and looked around. Was I crazy? Forty-three and no one here is close to that age. But damn there were hot women in there. While I didn't purchase anything it was fun looking...not just cute purses.
I walked down the street knowing the wind was blowing my skirt. Believe me, this is naughty stuff for me. The streets were semi busy. I thought I would go to Aldo's for lunch. It was a lhip little place in half of an old hose. I'd never been there but pretty much knew what to expect. Maybe, just maybe, I'll get lucky.
Well...a hip artist girl did wait on me. Low
riding jeans, a cropped Aldo's t-shirt, long curly hair, exactly who I was looking for.
I tried flirting with her but I am so out of practice I failed miserably. I laughed about it as I left the restaurant, which actually was pretty good.
I window shopped and eventually came to the conclusion that no lesbian was going to walk up to me so I headed for my car. I was not disappointed because I spent several hours in a section of town I rarely go to, doing what I wanted to do...or at least thinking about what I wanted to do. And I learned if I'm going to find some pussy I'll have to be more aggressive.
A couple weeks went by and I did more research, ordered a sexy outfit and a new toy or two. In my mind I had gone full time lesbian. I still never turned down Jeff when he wanted me, but I was less and less "enthused".
I had been a member of the Ladies Auxiliary for years. We have donated books, clothes, music and time to one of the elementary schools in town. As it turned out, our delegate to the state convention had to withdraw and since I had more time than the others, I was selected to represent our chapter. Not the first time I had done this, but this opportunity came at the perfect time. Three nights at the Beau Rivage in Biloxi.
The day arrived and I had packed my bag with the sexiest clothes I owned. There would be things to do, meetings to attend during the day but the night time was for prowling. I laughed...I don't even know what or how to prowl.