This is the fifth Chapter of Libertine adventures, this story can be read on its own but makes more sense in conjunction with the previous chapters.
Ch1:
Libertine Adventures Ch. 01
: Anna is a twin that lives in London, her mother just died and she goes to a farewell party with some liberal friends of her late mom. She discovers like this that her mom had a kind of double life and discovers lesbian sex with Ella. She then decides to go to see her sister Olivia in Vienna.
Libertine Adventures Ch.02: Laura:
Anna flies to Vienna and meets on the plane a stewardess named Emily that is blatantly flirting with her, they exchange numbers. She then arrives to Vienna and sleeps with her sister's roommate, things end up in the both of them hooking up. Her sister is still unaware of Anna's sexuality.
Libertine Adventures ch. 03: Denial:
Anna goes through the steps of grief, being at first in Denial of her situation and just living in the moment without thinking of consequences too much. She sleeps therefore with Alex, a young waiter and is introduced to anal sex. She then talks about it with Laura who agrees to do a threesome with Alex, they both end up discovering the joys of anal pleasure.
Libertine Adventures Ch. 04: Anger:
Anna goes through the second big phase of grief, she begins to have self destructive behaviors, pushing away everyone and turning to sex, alcohol and drugs to soothe her pain. She is mad at her mother for leaving her, at her sister for not understanding her sexual transformation and at herself for being such a mess. In all of this she ends up putting in jeopardy the relationship with Olivia and Laura, that decides to date Alex, and to have a date with Emily that goes wrong. This leads her to have a one night stand with a blue haired woman, and to look for her own place, from which she finds a dome online and decides to discover her most hidden and submissive desires. This unlocks something in her that allows her to let go of all the pain she had kept since her mom's funeral.
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The morning after my initiation to submission I felt hollow. The fact that I had cried all my feelings out left a void inside me that I didn't really know how to fill. I took my phone and began scrolling through facebook. My mind was a bit numb and I wasn't even really looking at whatever was on my feed, but the bright colors helped me distract myself just enough to not fall asleep again.
After about thirty minutes I finally got up and made myself a coffee, and my phone ding-ed at that moment.
Hey, I love you too
It was my sister Olivia, responding to the message of the night before. I smiled, and the next message soon arrived.
All good?
I don't know. I thought.
Yes of course, how about you?
I answered while trying to decide on a thing to do.
I opened my laptop and looked up the LGBT center that Emily had talked to me about. Maybe it was time for me to go and ask a few questions. I looked for opening and closing times, and then got ready to go out. I had seen that it wasn't far from where I now lived, and managed to get there by walking at a fast pace in less than 15 minutes.
I was received at the reception by a very nice guy that asked me if I was coming for the first time. I said yes. He then proceeded to explain to me everything there was in the center, the various talks and activities and even the groups online that were there to support LGBT people.
"Welcome to the family" he then said with a beaming smile. It gave me a bit of comfort and I finally let a bit loose and smiled in return. I took the fifteen flyers he had handed me and headed home as I had been quickly overwhelmed by the amount of information the guy had given me.
When I finally could take a few moments to relax I opened my computer again and began to look at the websites on the flyers. At first nothing caught my eye, but the third flyer was something about a talk on discovering one's sexuality. I found it interesting but then got bummed out when I saw that the date had already passed, but my joy returned when they specified that the whole thing was going to be recorded and available online.
I entered the address that was at the bottom of the flyer and was redirected to a page with a video on it, clicked and for the next hour and a half I watched speakers pass by my screens and explaining the fluidity of gender, and of sexuality. When it was over, I had understood that I was likely bi, but with a preference for women, and apparently that was completely normal.
I stood in the silence of my room for the following twenty minutes, pondering about myself, and what it meant for my life. It was still me, so it didn't mean anything, and yet some part of me was happy that I could identify to a group, that there were people like me around.
My mind returned to my sister. And to Laura. Could Laura be like me? And Olivia?
She had told me she had thought about it but we had been interrupted before she could tell me anything more about her thoughts about women. I felt uneasy at the thought of that day in the bedroom with Olivia when I had had my hangover. Well, not uneasy, a part of me was curious of that feeling, but another just wanted to bury it deep down. The curious part was stronger though.
The vibration of my phone distracted me from these thoughts.
Tomorrow Christmas eve at my place!
Shit, I thought, I needed to go out and buy gifts. I wouldn't have been the first time I would be panic buying Christmas gifts.
I'll be there!
I answered. Then prepared in a rush to get out of the house, and went shopping.
I couldn't find anything in the stores that convinced me, until I passed in front of a sex shop, and thought that maybe a Satysfier would have been nice for Laura that only had a vibrator.
Then thought about what she had told me about willing to have a strap-on for us to play with. Maybe it wasn't the best gift to give in front of other people though. But there was no need to open it in front of everybody, I could just have given her the gift on the side and bought a couple of bracelets or something to give in front of everyone.
Yes, I'd do that. I chose a nice strap on for Laura, a double ended one, and then also went for a Satysfier, that I would have given to Olivia. That would have been a gift to explain everything about mom. It was time to share that information with my sister.
When my shopping spree was over, I treated myself to a coffee, and thought that tomorrow was going to be a good day. A lot had passed and my life had changed significantly. I had gone from a shy college undergrad who had a very normal life to a bisexual vixen who had lost her mom. I had been introduced to a lot of things and loved it, but was it the way I wanted to live?
Part of me was still attached to the classic image of me having a stable relationship with a guy, and that this was all a phase, it was only me being young and experimenting. But a little voice in the back of my head knew that this wasn't the case. I knew deep down that this would be a real transformation.
I sipped the rest of my coffee pondering everything, and noticed that that feeling of anguish that I had before when thinking about everything had vanished. I felt way more relaxed about the prospect of really coming out to my sister. I smiled, and left a tip to the waitress while taking my bags and heading home to prepare for the upcoming day.
The following afternoon, I prepared for the evening and chose to wear an all red sexy outfit, to match the Christmas spirit. I decided not to wear the usual stocking-skirt combo that I knew worked well, but this time went for a more classy, yet sensual choice. There was a red open leg dress that had caught my eye. I tried it on and it fit perfectly, another of my late mom's clothes that I would wear. I decided to wear a dark choker with a red gem in the middle that enhanced my slender neck. Decided to let my red hair loose, and put just enough makeup so that my green eyes would be even more captivating. I was ready for the night and hoped to impress Laura, and somehow, Olivia.
When I got there thirty minutes early, I received compliments from both of them and they both tightly hugged me wishing me a merry Christmas. Olivia had gone for pants and a red semi-transparent top, with heels. Her hair was collected in a lovely braid, and all together she looked stunning, and so confident. I couldn't help but smile at her, and when she noticed she smiled back. I could see her cheeks reddening a bit as well, and wondered if the temperature in the house was too warm.
The guests began to arrive bringing some junk food or beers or strong alcohol. It was a nice ambiance and the party was starting off quite nicely. I quite rapidly mingled with everyone, and was surprised to notice the absence of Lukas, the fuckboy that my sister used to sleep with. I decided it was unimportant and went on with the evening, exchanging funny stories with Laura and Alex, and meeting some new people as well. At some point, as I was talking to a girl named Vanessa that apparently went to school with Olivia, I noticed the absence of my sister from the room. It was a while since she was here, I thought to myself, and decided to stop my current conversation, which was for the most part uninteresting, and go look for her.
