"Something's wrong, Lacey. What is it?"
She had always respected Rita's intuition. "What do you mean?"
"The wedding's in four days," Rita reminded her. "I know I'm just a regular bridesmaid and not the maid of honor, but there's something ... off about how you're acting."
"Crap. Did I turn into a bridezilla? I was really trying not to. Did I snap at you? If I did, I don't remember, but I'm really sorry."
"No, just the opposite, and that's what worries me. Either you're bottling it up and you're just going to explode, or you just ... no."
"What?"
"You're giving me the same vibe as you did when you knew you were gonna get fired soon." This had happened a couple years ago, when Lacey and Rita were roommates.
"And I was right," Lacey reminded her.
"That's not the point," Rita continued. "You weren't mad. You weren't even panicked. You were so in control that you got your unemployment claim started before you even got the word. Elisabeth KΓΌbler-Ross would say you'd reached the acceptance stage. Does Rod hit you?"
Lacey tried to be offended, but she understood why Rita asked. "No, never. We wouldn't be having this conversation if he did."
"How's the sex?"
"Rita!" After a moment, she said, "I knew I could count on you to ask the important questions. But that's not it. Without oversharing, he's big enough where it counts-length
and
thickness, before you ask. He doesn't force himself on me, but I never have to go so long without it that I have to initiate it. Again, not too much detail, but he really knows how to screw."
"What about oral?"
Lacey laughed. "You never let up, do you? Better than some, not as good as others. The important thing is, he's not one of those guys who only give it 'cause he wants to get it."
"You mean he eats you without you having to ask?"
"Well, yeah," she said.
"I don't know what's wrong with you. You should've married him yesterday. If you don't, I will."
That night, Lacey was at Shelley's house. Lacey asked, "Have you noticed anything about my behavior this week?"
"No, but I'm so nervous and self-centered that I probably wouldn't notice unless I saw you carrying a violin case and asking for directions to the book depository. Why?"
"I didn't know this till recently, but the best man is supposed to help the groom get the marriage started well. I think Reverend Gould called it 'guidance.' I figure that goes for you too, since you're the maid of honor. Anyway, Rita said there was something 'off.' Her actual words. Of course, she had to ask about our sex life."
Shelley held her hand up. "Don't tell me. I don't wanna hear about it."
Lacey laughed. "I know you don't like dick for yourself, but I didn't know it was that much of a trigger."
Shelley tried to correct her. "No, I just mean I don't like hearing about-"
"I know what you mean," Lacey said. "You know, Rod asked me once if I thought you'd be up for a threesome."
"You never told me that. What'd you say?"
"I told him he should have started by asking if *I* was up for it!"
"Good for you!" Shelley told her. "Maybe that's what's been bothering you. Did you tell him he probably wouldn't enjoy it unless he just wanted to sit back and watch us?"
"No, but it worked out okay. I knew you wouldn't go for it, but I had another friend that I figured would, and I was right."
"I thought you didn't want to overshare," Shelley said.
"It's not like I'm telling you whose tongue went where first, or which toys we used."
Shelley imagined Lacey's tongue on an unfamiliar vulva. She, Lauren and Rod were all WASP's, but they were part of a diverse social circle, so who knew what exotic flavor, literal or figurative, Lacey had tasted that night. Shelley pictured black, Asian and a green space babe from a cheesy sci-fi movie before she came back to reality. "I think I know what Rita meant," she said. "Just now, that was the most animated you've been in the past week." Shelley was pretty sure she was telling the truth, but wondered if her memory was clouded at the thought of her best friend doing with a stranger what she wished they were doing together.
"What are you saying?" Lacey asked.
"You're not scared. You're just not ... invested. Did Rita ask the usual safety questions?"
"Sex and abuse, yes. Drugs and closet gay she didn't ask."
"And?"
"No to drugs, and if he were bi, he wouldn't have to hide it."
"Fine for bi, but what about just plain gay?"