This is the final part of Kate's journey to find herself, probably worth reading part 1 and part 2, if you haven't already, but to recap, Kate moved to the city for a good job at a law firm but was struggling to fit in.
She was tricked into delivering some documents over to Jayne's cabin by the lake on a stormy Friday night by Damian, the firm's most eligible partner.
Jayne showed Kate a part of herself she had been suppressing for some time.
Jayne also showed Kate a part of her own life and her desire to help others using some fairly unconventional means she learned from Sophia, Jayne's first lesbian lover and mentor, who unfortunately passed away in a car accident several years before.
It does get a bit dark (BDSM) towards the end, so be warned and it looks like Jayne was not quite as bad as I thought she was after all.
I welcome any feedback or comments
Kate's Journey to find herself Part Three - Kate finds herself.
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They spent most of that afternoon in bed.
Kate realised she had a lot to learn about Jayne, what drove her to help people in the way she had shown her earlier, how she had learned those skills.
The pain from Kate's welts subsided with the help of cream and plenty of kisses from Jayne.
"Sophia helped me to realise who I am Kate, to come to terms with it, to connect with my inner being, to love and embrace my own soul.
Some things I found out about myself were good, others not so, but it helped me understand my life choices and... behaviour."
"Weren't you scared to find out who you really were?,"
"Everyone is Kate, and it traps them and causes them stress, impacts their lives far more than they realise, that's where I can help. Do you feel better now than you did this morning Kate?"
Kate had certainly felt physical and emotional pain earlier, no one had made her feel like that before, but yes, she did feel better for it, for sharing it.
"Yes, I do,"
"And that's just the start Kate, but before then,"
Jayne looked at Kate, licked her lips and kissed her slowly, she felt her relax, tension falling from her, kissing her mouth, neck, breasts, moaning gently as she kissed every inch of her.
Kate closed her eyes, remembering the morning's session, how not being able to see had heightened her other senses, and now with her eyes closed, the feel of Jayne's breath on her skin, warm kisses, the sound of her tongue on her, in her, was delicious.
It didn't take long for Kate to climax, arching her back, rubbing herself against Jayne's mouth, so wet, so hot.
"That was so good, just what I needed,"
"You squirted," Jayne said, with a huge smile.
Kate smiled back, "I've never done that with a boy!"
Jayne winked, "Stick with me kid,"
They both giggled.
Later, Kate had asked to see the room again, but this time without any demonstrations.
Jayne had agreed and they went back down.
Kate looked about, picking up a paddle from the wall, slapping it into her free hand, the noise, surprisingly loud.
Jayne watched her, enjoying her look of wonderment, "Some of those devices are for show, some are milder than others,"
Kate picked up a rather frightening whip, black leather, several knotted strands, she played it on her hand.
"That one's not for show, I don't need to use it much,"
There was a wooden box on the table, Kate opened it and looked inside.
The box had foam cut outs and all but one, housed a metal, soft cock shaped cage.
She had heard of chastity devices but never handled one. She picked one up, it was smaller but heavier than she imagined.
She looked at Jayne.
"Some men like me to take away their ability to get aroused, well not actually the ability, but the ability for them to act on their arousal.
It helps them by taking that particular stress out of their lives, over time it might also take the arousal from them totally, but that's very long term,"
"What do they do?"
"Nothing, I cage them, lock them and keep the key, it's hard for them for the first few days but like anything, they get used to it.
She took the cage from Kate's hand and placed it back in the foam cut out.
"There's one missing, from the box,"
She looked at Kate, "He's wearing it,"
There was so much Kate wanted to ask her, but so much more to see.
She opened another box and lifted out a dildo and harness.
"Is he gay?"
"Not at all'"
"Then?"
"Remember what I said about finding a man's soul?"
Kate nodded,
"Finding that nervous, anxious, little boy inside an Alpha male?"
"Yes,"
"There's a saying "The way to a man's heart is through his stomach", well I say, "The way to his soul, is definitely through his anus.""
She smiled, continuing,
"When I'm in him, taking him, with that, we have the ultimate connections, me with him, him with his soul, it can all get very emotional.
I've not had a single Alpha male who hasn't broken down in tears after his first session with one of those,"
"Wow,"
"Sometimes, when I know someone well, that's all they need, a correction session with that can leave them re-connected to themselves for several weeks,"
Kate had seen enough for now, she turned to walk out of the room.
Jayne caught up with her.
"It is a lot to take in Kate but I know you are strong enough, or I wouldn't have shown you,"
"Soon you might even be able to help me with them? and learn like I did,"
"With Sophia?"
"Yes, like I learned from her."
The rest of the day was spent talking and watching films in the cinema room, once they'd had dinner, Jayne drove Kate back to her apartment.
"I've really enjoyed this weekend Kate, I know it got a little.....intense at times, but it's a part of me I wanted to share with you.
I didn't want to lie to you, you've seen how I can help people, I know it might not be viewed as conventional therapy, but it can really help."
She paused, looking directly at Kate,
"It did help you?"
Kate nodded, Jayne beamed a massive smile at her, leaning over and kissing her.
"I knew it would! I'm so happy, can we meet up again, in the week? Stay at mine?"
"Yeah, I'd like that,"
"Pick you up Wednesday night then,"
On Monday morning, Kate got to the office ten minutes late despite leaving the apartment earlier than usual. There had been a collision that had delayed the metro, which in turn had delayed all commuter trains.
"Kate," Alex was furious, "Where are those spreadsheets for the partners, they should have been with me to check over this weekend and on their desks by 8:30 this morning. Damian is incandescent with rage over this, it's his big presentation and in his word's, "Heads will roll", and it certainly won't mine,"
Kate was confused, on Friday Alex had asked her to prepare and format the spreadsheets then email them to her, to look at and check over the weekend.
Alex was leaving early for some school event and said she would look at them from home.
Kate had finished the work and sent it via email to Alex's works address by 5:30pm, before she left for the weekend.
Alex was now saying she told Kate to send it to her personal email address, which Kate was sure wasn't right and she didn't have it anyway.
Kate explained what she had done and when Alex checked, the email was in her work inbox.
She quickly checked the sheets and printed off copies for the partners and rushed them into the boardroom.
Kate felt sick, it wasn't her fault, but knew the blame was coming her way.
Later that morning she was called in by Damian.
Alex had warned her not to say anything, just accept the consequences.
"What happened on Friday night was totally unacceptable, you went home without finishing your work and left me looking stupid this morning.
Alex told me what had happened, how she had asked you to send her the spreadsheets for checking, to her personal email and that you....,"
"But," Kate interrupted, causing Damian to explode.
"Listen, you fucked up and trying to blame it on a colleague might work in whatever shit hole you're used to working at but it won't work here. Do you think I'm stupid?, now get out while I decide what I'm going to do,"
Red faced, Kate turned and walked to the door, tears welling in her eyes, she went straight to the restroom and sat sobbing on the toilet.
Later she saw Damian talking to Alex in the corridor, Alex saw her watching and smiled at her.
Alex caught up with Kate later.
"Damian wants you to know he was very embarrassed by this morning's events and as such wants to extend your six month trial another three months, if you disappoint him again you'll be out of the door,"
"But it was you, it was your fault,"
"Damian doesn't believe that for one second, I've been here for eight years and get on very well with him, you've been here five minutes, If I say it was your fault, it was your fault,"
Kate ate lunch alone at her desk, the others had left to celebrate a colleague's birthday, Alex had told her that, "It might be best if you stay behind to watch the phones."
Her thoughts went back to what Jayne had said about learning more from her about the things she did, at the moment though, the thought of helping any man repulsed her.
A door in the office opened and closed, she jumped, snapping out of her thoughts, she was sure she was alone.
Damian appeared.
He moved over to her, stood too close to her, leaning over.
"Look Kate, maybe I was a bit harsh earlier, you messed up, but who hasn't, hey?"
Kate looked at him, expressionless, feeling herself going red.
"I know this job means a lot to you, maybe we can start again, you know get to know each other better,"
He ran a finger gently down her forearm, causing her to shudder.
"You know, maybe I could forget this ever happened,"
She smelled alcohol on his breath, it was only one O'Clock.
