Brave new World
10:30am... It was still so early; Jenna thought she'd never make it through the day. 5pm seemed like an aeon away, an eternity in time that would never come - how was she going to survive?
Having this job, working as a clerk had seemed to be forever, the job had become boring, mundane and rather unsatisfying for quite some time now and it was only recently that she was beginning to realize how unfulfilling and stale the work had become. But then she thought "What else am I going to do..?" For the time being she didn't have anything else to fall back on, so for now, if anything she was at least able to keep her head above water and pay the rent.
Day dreaming in her cubicle Jenna let her thoughts drift to that of the night before, which didn't take much in reminding, what with her ass still red and feeling the lingering effects of the severe spanking she had received while naked and trapped over the knee of this much older, dominant woman.
Every time she moved, stood and sat back down, the sting was always there, toned down considerably from when she had found herself at 'Ma'am's' mercy - however still, the lingering, residual pain was there - there as a testament to what she had willingly subjected herself to at the hands of her Ma'am.
"Ma'am..." She muttered again under her breath, wanting to say the name out loud but also not wanting to draw attention to herself while tucked away in her 6 x 6' cube of office space.
She was getting used to saying the name, it gave her a thrill each time she would say it either aloud or in her head. "Ma'am..." She repeated quieter still, this time with her eyes closed picturing the tall, Amazon-like goddess that had somehow possessed her mind and body.
Picturing her there in her tight fitting Yoga wear, her large breast pushed forward, looking heavy and ripe, her flat, toned stomach that belonged on a woman half her age, her thick, powerful looking thighs and big, round womanly ass...
Jenna - lost in her trance, licked her lips with a lust that was new, exciting and easily taking over her entire being. She wanted this dominant woman to take her, possess her and to do with her as she pleased.
The only road blocks now were the ones in her head, trying to figure out if she was just curious or if she really had true lesbian leanings. This much she couldn't figure out just yet, but for some reason, this woman had changed something inside of her, changed her enough to make her think and feel this way - feel different, feel open to new possibilities and willing to follow - wherever that may take her.
Maybe being with her ex-boyfriend Curtis, who was indeed a brute, maybe he had something to do with it. That and along with the timing of having recently split up, it had left her feeling vulnerable and alone. Maybe this is what led her into this situation, what drove her into the clutches of this older, dominant woman - loneliness and wanting.
Whatever it was, she couldn't figure it out just now, and in not wanting to ruin the excitement that she found in taking this new direction, she resigned herself to not think or worry too much about her sexuality. Time would tell where this was going to take her and Jenna had decided to let go a little and try to enjoy this ride, no matter how frightening it may get along the way, because after all, that was all part of it. Meaning with something like, you don't go on a rollercoaster or into a haunted house to NOT be scared, given that feeling of losing control while still knowing deeper down that you'll still be okay, you're still safe.
12-noon... Jenna picked at her cafeteria-bought salad, her mind still lost in this brave new world she had unwittingly fallen into. Picturing the previous nights activities, seeing herself lying there, being treated like a child - naked as the day she was born, pinned down over the older woman's knee - being spanked. It was all so fresh in her memory and turning her on now, almost as much as it had then.
She thought about going into a bathroom stall to masturbate, to re-live and to dream but mostly just relieve some of the pressure and tension. However - being who she is, even doing this, even slipping away from her cubicle for 5min of relief behind the door of a bathroom stall - it wasn't in her. She was too afraid of being discovered and also, she was too afraid that somehow her Ma'am would find out and punish her. This was the kind of power Janice now had over the girl, even without her knowing. Jenna was now acting and moving as if her every decision was dependant on whether or not her Ma'am would approve.
Trying to distract herself Jenna began looking around the lunch room, watching some of the other girls; watching and wondering if maybe too they had similar thoughts as her own. Thoughts about who they are, what their wants and desires might be. Would they do as she has? Would they be able to let go and surrender themselves, bodily and otherwise to an older, older - dominant woman?
2pm... Will this day ever end..?
4:50pm... Jenna had long ago finished up the last of her assigned work and now she sat, watching and waiting as the last minutes felt to be hours - ticking down, signalling the week's end, it was Friday and not too soon enough, she would be free -free to surrender to her wants and desires. Free to surrender to her Ma'am...
Knowing that she had been asked (if not required) to be at Janice's door as soon as possible after her day had ended - and with a mere 45min window to catch the right bus that would take her to the address on the card she was given, there was no way she would have had time to head home and change her clothing into something she thought more suitable than her smart-casual work clothes.
Choosing to wear an above the knee, black cotton skirt with matching black leggings and low-heeled shoes, with a cute black, button-down short sleeved shirt with lace trim at the sleeve cuffs, collar and hem.
***
Jenna somehow felt right in choosing to wear black, thinking that it was more in fitting with the dark decor of the older woman's office and her own attire. So in wanting to please, the only item of colour she was wearing that was other than black, was the teal-green pair of thong panties she had picked out to wear that morning, also hoping that they too would please, if of course they were to somehow come into the older woman's view.
Arriving at the address some half hour later, Jenna stepped off of the bus in front of a large condominium building the likes of which she could never afford. Double checking the number, she stepped through the doors into the lobby.
"Can I help you Miss..?" A man dressed in uniform asked.
"I-I'm here to see... Ummm..." Jenna stammered.
"Oh I know... You're her for the interview. Mrs. Golding said you'd be here about now. What was the name again..?" The man asked leaving Jenna feeling unsure if she was the right person he was talking about, she wasn't here for an interview. Was she..?
"J-Jenna... Jenna..."
"Yeah - Jenna... That's the name... Its okay you can go on up - just take the elevator to the 10th floor, she has the loft there all to herself... Go on, you'll see it's a great apartment, it's an old warehouse convert, the place it huge, you'll love it..." The doorman finished as he pointed toward the elevator across the foyer.
Smiling, she thanked the man and made her way over and entered the open and waiting elevator door. Thinking to herself "This isn't too bad..."
Stepping in she turned and smiled once again at the man behind the counter as the elevator door slid shut.
Looking at the panel and pushing the lit button '10' Jenna then waited with as the car began to rise, taking her up and into what, she wasn't exactly sure, but still she was no longer as naive as she had been a few days back. She knew where this was most likely leading, she just wasn't sure what to expect as far as her being made an offer, a proposal - or as the doorman had put in 'here for the interview'.
Everything that had transpired during the past week had been a whirlwind of emotions awakening both new fears and delights that left Jenna feeling more alive and with more sense of purpose than she ever had before. Not even with Curtis had she felt this at peace with who she was and where their relationship had been going. Still in the dark for the most part, Jenna waited with open eyes as the elevator rose higher and ever closer - into this new fate.
***
"Uh..." She gasped with slight surprise as the elevator suddenly came to a halt. Taking in a quick, deep breath, gathering her courage then exhaling, Jenna watched as the rear door of the elevator slowly opened. Having expected the door to open into a lobby, Jenna's eyes went wide realizing that in fact, the elevator opened into the apartment itself. There was no outer door with a number and no corridor either, just a small entry that was it, Jenna was looking into the woman's apartment.
"Do come in Jenna, I'm glad to see that you're on time... Pity though, now I can't punish you for being late - can I dear..?" Janice said loudly from across the expansively open loft apartment while Jenna startled at first because she did not see the woman - Ma'am - sitting lounged across a large, dark brown leather sectional couch situated so far across the sizeable room.
Seeing her there and noticing what she was wearing, a long flowing, black evening gown and robe, yet even if it was still before 6pm, oddly, seeing the older woman dressed as such, for some reason - didn't seem out of place.