This is a story of my first love and my first time having sex with a woman.
Jana and I were still teenagers. We were in the same English class. I adored her from a far. I so badly wanted her. I think I wanted her because we were so different. I'm black, I had braids in my hair at the time and she was white with long, untamed dirty blonde hair. We also hung out with different crowds but knew a lot of the same people.
I was able to start talking to her due to her sweet tooth and I was selling candy for the field hockey team at our school. We had nice small talk and I flirted slightly with her. She had beautiful, large, curved teeth. I began dreaming about her. Dreams of her soft body sitting next to me as our mouths were engaged in conversation.
She made my dreams come true (clichΓ©, I know) when I was desperately trying to finish my Spanish homework during study hall. (I had Spanish next and Mrs. Trainor usually collected homework by having students go around the room and orally give our answers; I needed to get it done.) She came from no where and sat next to me at the table. Of course I began talking to her. She saw my YM and started to flip through it.
"Are there any good looking girls in here?" she asked.
"Oh yeah, plenty." I was so pleased, the rumors I had heard about her liking girls was true.
We continued talking and I didn't finish my homework. However, Mrs. Trainor didn't collect homework. I went to lunch telling my friend Amanda how much I liked Jana and that I think I might have a chance. She wished me luck.
By next week we had made plans to watch a movie. Earlier in the week when I had walked her to her locker she wanted to walk arm in arm. I agreed but felt uncomfortable, (the next day I told her I preferred to hold hands, she said that was fine). So I went to her house and we watched a lesbian flick, I can't remember the full name but most of it is The Incredibly True Adventures of Two Girls In Love. During the movie I gave her a back massage I talked a bit since I had all ready see the movie with friends (Amanda, Emma, David and another girl, I can't remember her name now), but she hadn't. She looked like she was in another world as she watched the movie. She was very focused on the movie. I cracked jokes and enjoyed the slow wide smile she gave in response to my humor.
She could tell that I was very excited and that I wanted to touch her all over. I wasn't smooth at all; I just was very vocal and made her laugh most of the time. Finally, she took me to her basement to smoke a few cigarettes. We had to hold hands, since the basement was pitch black and she had refused to turn on the lights. I was scared yet comfortable. We sat down in two separate chairs; I could only see the cherry of her cigarette.
"Can I kiss you," I asked nervously.
"No."
"How about if I tell you a secret and you in return do something for me?"
"What do I have to do?"
"Ummm,,, kiss me."
"Only if it is a good secret."
Since I had told her all my secrets all ready (this was because I felt so comfortable and was nervous so I had talked a lot when we were together before) I decided to tell her a secret about my friend Brian.