This is a story of my first love and my first time having sex with a woman.
Jana and I were still teenagers. We were in the same English class. I adored her from a far. I so badly wanted her. I think I wanted her because we were so different. I'm black, I had braids in my hair at the time and she was white with long, untamed dirty blonde hair. We also hung out with different crowds but knew a lot of the same people.
I was able to start talking to her due to her sweet tooth and I was selling candy for the field hockey team at our school. We had nice small talk and I flirted slightly with her. She had beautiful, large, curved teeth. I began dreaming about her. Dreams of her soft body sitting next to me as our mouths were engaged in conversation.
She made my dreams come true (clichΓ©, I know) when I was desperately trying to finish my Spanish homework during study hall. (I had Spanish next and Mrs. Trainor usually collected homework by having students go around the room and orally give our answers; I needed to get it done.) She came from no where and sat next to me at the table. Of course I began talking to her. She saw my YM and started to flip through it.
"Are there any good looking girls in here?" she asked.
"Oh yeah, plenty." I was so pleased, the rumors I had heard about her liking girls was true.
We continued talking and I didn't finish my homework. However, Mrs. Trainor didn't collect homework. I went to lunch telling my friend Amanda how much I liked Jana and that I think I might have a chance. She wished me luck.
By next week we had made plans to watch a movie. Earlier in the week when I had walked her to her locker she wanted to walk arm in arm. I agreed but felt uncomfortable, (the next day I told her I preferred to hold hands, she said that was fine). So I went to her house and we watched a lesbian flick, I can't remember the full name but most of it is The Incredibly True Adventures of Two Girls In Love. During the movie I gave her a back massage I talked a bit since I had all ready see the movie with friends (Amanda, Emma, David and another girl, I can't remember her name now), but she hadn't. She looked like she was in another world as she watched the movie. She was very focused on the movie. I cracked jokes and enjoyed the slow wide smile she gave in response to my humor.
She could tell that I was very excited and that I wanted to touch her all over. I wasn't smooth at all; I just was very vocal and made her laugh most of the time. Finally, she took me to her basement to smoke a few cigarettes. We had to hold hands, since the basement was pitch black and she had refused to turn on the lights. I was scared yet comfortable. We sat down in two separate chairs; I could only see the cherry of her cigarette.
"Can I kiss you," I asked nervously.
"No."
"How about if I tell you a secret and you in return do something for me?"
"What do I have to do?"
"Ummm,,, kiss me."
"Only if it is a good secret."
Since I had told her all my secrets all ready (this was because I felt so comfortable and was nervous so I had talked a lot when we were together before) I decided to tell her a secret about my friend Brian.
"Well, Brian has a crush on Jeff Tounge."
"How about another secret first."
"Okay, hmmm, Steve likes Joey Giodonno."
She was still laughing about Brian and was now laughing about Steve and asked me if this was true. I told her it was.
"Hey what about that kiss?" I asked sheepishly.
"Well, you should do what you feel."
"That's easy to say but harder to do. I'd like to kiss but if we're not that close to each other so I would have to get up and try to find you in the dark and it ends up becoming awkward..."
So she began to move her chair in front of me. When she was done she leaned over and stayed in that position with her eyes closed. I wasted no time and leaned close to her until our foreheads touched. I pushed my lips out to meet hers but our mouths were further apart. So to cover up for my misjudgment of distance I Eskimo kissed her. Our noses rubbed together and she began to smile. After a few seconds I slightly turned my head to the right and placed my lips on hers. I couldn't fucking believe it as I was kissing the first girl I've ever kissed who went to my high school. I lips moved in that kissing motion. Since the last time I kissed a girl she said that girls didn't like tongues shoved in their mouths I was waiting to slide my tongue into Jana's mouth. However, she beat me to it. Her tongue jutted into my mouth causing me to slightly gasp and get shivers all over my body. I reached for her hands and held them before I reached for her waist. She moved her hands to my neck. We kissed for what seemed like ever. I twirled my thumbs on the sides of her stomach. When we finished, (I don't remember who pulled away first) we hugged each other for at least a minute. If she felt what I felt she didn't want to let go. Once again we stopped hugging and I don't remember who pulled away this time either. Then we had another cigarette, after the cigarette I went home.
I called all my friends and informed them that I kissed Jana. I went to bed glowing and as light as a feather and of course I masturbated myself to an orgasm with Jana's name hanging on my lips. We had agreed to meet the next day at her locker a half an hour before school started.