I went to my studio and sat at the computer. It was not possible to work under these circumstances. I sat there, staring at the screen saver. After several minutes, I listlessly clicked on Mozilla Firefox, then typed "butterfly tattoo Laura" in the Google search box. Surprisingly, I got an immediate link to site named "Love Unbound." Clicking the link, I was taken to a tastefully designed lesbian erotica site whose webpage had a montage of beautiful women in various forms of bondage and sexual torture. I assumed the irony was intentional. I paid the $29.95 fee, entered my email address and my standard password, jdc101069.
I was disappointed to find that the site had only one in a series of "Laura Stories," written by one Marcie van Lustbadder. It was entitled "In the Beginning," and was a piece of semi-pro lesbian pornography. The opening sections contained a tedious account of Laura's sexual awakening: She learns to masturbate at a slumber party, perfects the art through nightly practice and innovation, and subsequently introduces Sandra, a school friend, to the practice on a lazy summer afternoon when the house was empty and her parents at the mall. Lounging on Sandra's bed, their talk had turned to sex and the mysteries of the orgasm. Naturally, Sandra wanted to know how to have one, and Laura offers to instruct. It proves to be hard work, however, because Sandra is a slow and timid learner. But in the end their efforts are crowned with success and both girls have thrilling orgasms, trembling with ecstasy.
The end of the story turned out to be of much greater interest, and I include it here verbatim from the "Love Unbound" website.
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IN THE BEGINNING
....Sandra cried out in a kind of agony, her legs thrashing. She thought she was going to faint. It was enormously exciting.
When they pulled apart, Laura said, "That was it."
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Despite the excitement and intimacy of their afternoon together, Laura never got together with Sandra again. Sandra began avoiding her at school, and whenever Laura tried to talk with her, she would become embarrassed and walk away. That wonderful experience was the end of their friendship. It confused Laura and made her feel ashamed for having shown her all that she had. She worried that Sandra would tell other girls.
As an Epilogue, it might be of interest to relate that Sandra later became a successful corporate attorney, of whom her family and friends were justly proud. Laura had meanwhile become a nurse, and the mother of two beautiful children. Laura didn't see Sandra again until their 10th high school reunion, when she ran into her at the initial mixer. Laura was surprised that Sandra had come all the way from the board rooms of Manhattan to attend. What astonished her even more was that Sandra sought her out, and after an exchange of pleasantries, continued to come back to her for more talk and gossip, while getting increasingly drunk.
Sandra looked fabulous in her elegant clothes and expensive haircut. She had developed well, too. She was slender and fit, her mouth was full and wide, and her eyes bright and alive. Laura found her very attractive, and was so pleased by her attentions that she, too, became quite tipsy. They traded stories of their adventuresβSandra's in corporate America, and Laura's in LA and Oregon. Laura talked mainly about the doings of old friends, her husband, lovers, and children, all of which seemed to be as fascinating to Sandra as her travels in exotic countries were to Laura. Sandra wanted all the juicy details of Laura's life and loves, and they talked as if they had been better friends than in fact they had been. Sandra did not allude to the years when she avoided Laura like the plague, even when they had been in the same classroom. Now, leaning towards each other on the comfortable leather sofa in the darkened corner of the hotel's rooftop lounge, sipping their third drink, it was if they had always been best friends. Sandra asked Laura about her son and daughter, what kind of man her husband was, what kind lover, how often they had sex, and if she remembered the orgasms that had impregnated her. All of which Laura answered in witty, inebriated detail.
By the end of the mixer they were both rosy-cheeked, lusty and more than half in the bag. Almost everyone had gone, and the hotel staff was picking up the empty glasses and vacuuming the carpets. Sandra leaned her lips close to Laura's ear and whispered, "I love you." Laura laughed and blurted with surprised pleasure, "What?"
Sandra put her hand on Laura's neck and pulled her closer, so that her lips were actually touching her ear. "I said I love you, you idiot." Something inside Laura told her it was true, and that she had always known it, that it had been some kind of unspoken secret between them all these years.