Chapter 1
This is a story about lesbian sexual interactions. Do not read if you are a minor or if you object to this kind of stuff. Please email if you have any comments: I love to hear from readers. Ff, authoritarian, first time.
I've thought a lot about sharing what until now has been my most memorable sensual experience -- and I finally decided to do so. It was a milestone, a novelty, a transformation all in one, and I hope my retelling conveys these qualities to you, dear interested readers.
What I'm about to describe isn't to my mind pornographic, but exquisitely erotic. And what I participated in, what was done to me, what I succumbed to -- even though these activities might be described as perverse in the extreme, or terribly sick and depraved -- gave me something unimaginable, unpredictable and stirring. In fact, I can say that my sensual life began with that long holiday weekend not quite a year ago. And as I look at myself since then I see a richer, more passionate, more vibrant person in every dimension. Not only were my senses kindled but my intellect too. I was catalyzed into a new way of experiencing myself and the world.
I suppose I should introduce myself first. My name is Sonya (OK, this isn't my real name, but you'll understand my need for discretion on the web). I'm 29 years old, single, living alone now and not in any particular need of a partner, mainly because my work consumes most of my energies: I'm a graphic designer by day and painter by night. And I'm ambitious.
Although I love the female body I'd never experimented sexually with a girl until my fateful holiday. My relationships with guys were... OK at most. I tolerated their crudity and selfishness, but dimly knew that something was amiss. Kids were never in the equation for me: my work is too important and I know that my temperamental impatience would make me a less than ideal mother. Consequently I've never been captivated by the allure of raising a family.
Physically I'm 5'4", 125 lbs, a light-skinned lightly freckled redhead. I keep myself in shape with ballet and jogging. My body is quite firm and strong and taut. I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, but I'm told that my face is intriguing and intelligent, and though my breasts are very very small -- no bigger than a mouthful -- I feel quite sexy. I've never had problems attracting men, and I had never considered attracting or being attracted to women until last year.
I dress in an artsy chic kind of way generally. I do love to dance and my weekly ballet classes have been a lifeline for the past 3 years. Most of the women in my class are in their twenties, married, not too serious about dancing, with one notable exception, an older gal named Alex (short for Alexandra). Alex was 33, tall, blonde and voluptuous, an incredibly good dancer, very alluring in a classic Nordic way.
I'd made a few close friends through class and one of them, Jennifer, asked me about Alex several months before the episode I'm about to relate. I told her what I felt: that Alex was a great dancer, but in the personality department so serious as to seem hostile. Jennifer giggled and added, "But she sure does have an eye for you!"
I was taken aback and inquired further, but Jennifer demurred and merely advised me to open my eyes a little.
At our next class I did just that. As we stretched and preened and pirouetted at the bar I stole a few glances towards Alex and found our eyes meeting. Strangely enough I became agitated and blushed and an unbidden warmth coursed through my entire body. Jennifer winked at me as she exited and I gave her a look of mild consternation.
Weeks passed and it seemed as if I could feel the weight of Alex's gaze upon me for the entire duration of the class. I began to feel both disappointed and anxious to discover myself entertaining lesbian fantasies about her. I began to arrive very early to class and to linger long after it was over in the hopes of speaking with her. She was generally pleasant but cool, and coolly beautiful. Her body was strong and flexible and I began to ache to graze against it, even if only for a minute... She made my knees weak. Or was I imagining it all?
Jennifer teased me mercilessly and urged me to be bold, saying that if she weren't married she might be in for a discreet experiment herself. It was funny: although Jennifer herself was quite lovely, I had no sexual interest in her at all: it was all concentrated upon Alex. I fantasized about asking Alex to my studio, about having her pose for me (nude, of course!), of having her strip under my gaze, and afterwards of thanking her... by doing things I never thought I'd be capable of. In all honesty I was becoming mildly obsessed, delightfully obsessed, but certain that I would and could keep everything in my head. Until the holiday.
It was a Wednesday evening before a July 4 Friday. Most everyone I knew would be taking Thursday off and stretching the holiday into 4 days. Only 4 girls showed up to class; Alex was one. We finished early, the other 2 girls hurried out to prepare for their travels to the seashore or mountains, and Alex and I were in the dressing room together, for the first time alone with each other, and both wishing we could have danced some more. My heart beat rapidly as Alex smiled and seemingly on a whim invited me to a drink with her.
We made our way to a cozy nearby bar, fairly empty, and ordered wine. Alex was very very beautiful in the low light. Her face was refined: her nose was small and finely shaped, and her lips sensuously full. Her body was ravishing. At 5'8" she was taller than I, and she gave me reason for breast envy as I gazed at her firm full bust. But there was something more, something indefinable that made me both wet and nervous.
She looked me in the eyes and smiled. I smiled back. Awkwardly.
"You're very attractive," she said.
"Oh," I stammered, reddening, "why thank you... And you too!" I blurted out.
"Me too what?" she calmly asked. "Uh, you... you're really really beautiful, Alex," I whispered. What a fool I was! I had shown my entire hand unwittingly and in a mere moment.
"Thanks," Alex replied. "Is that why you can't take your eyes off me in class?"
Had I truly been that obvious?
"I like the way you dance," I nimbly responded.
"There's more to it than that, isn't there? Let's see, single girl, oozing sensuality, creative type, but no dates, no men, who's drinking me in at every chance... Hmmmm." She moved her face close to mine across the table.
I involuntarily leaned towards her and muttered "yes" huskily before she drew back abruptly and asked me about my holiday plans.
I sat up quickly and matter-of -factly replied that I was going to stay in town and do some painting.
"I'm going to be here too," she replied. "Perhaps you'd like to have dinner tomorrow with me?"
My throat was dry and it took a few seconds before I could assent. Alex slid her elegant left hand over to my right and grazed the back of my hand with her finger.
"Sonya, my dear, listen to me. I am lusting for your precious little body right now and I know it wouldn't take much to lure you back to my apartment and give you a taste of something different. But pure lust isn't enough for me. I want more, and I want more than your "I'll pretend I'm a lesbian for a night" routine. Do you follow?"
"No," I said honestly. "I'm not sure what you want, and I'm sure as hell not sure what I want beyond... beyond kissing you."
Alex looked at me inquiringly and said nothing for what seemed like an eternity. I waited, feeling like an utter fool, and then she leaned forward again, her hand touching mine and sending electric shocks through me.
"I have some instructions for you." I quivered when I heard this.
"Instructions?"