I look at her, my breath freezes with every glance; I can't take it any more! I want to kiss her cherry colour lips. She is so perfect unlike me. She is magical; something that shouldn't exist but does. Her hair is dark as the night sky, so beautiful and unique. Why am I attracted to her? Of all people, I fall madly in love with not only a girl but her...
Hi I'm Dylan, just turned 20 and well I guess just turned for girls to. I know many would disagree with what I just said but its true, I was completely straight before her and hey maybe I am bi or hetro or gay but I'm not too big on labels, so lets skip ahead. I bet you wanna know a bit about me, so I will give you an insight... just this once! I am 5'6, dark features, tanned skin, curvy to some extent. I like sports, really into basketball and football/soccer... wow this sounds like I'm applying for a dating app, so on that note, that's enough about me. Anyway I'm going to be pretty open and tell you the story of my first crush or in other words my first time with/dating a girl.
So I guess it all started when I was 19, my life was pretty good. I had a cute boyfriend who was super sweet. I wasn't popular but I had friends. I was in my first year of uni, which was fun! Now I missed a year of school so I was set back. I should've been in my second year but yeah you get it. I was roomed with one pretty cool person, who now means a lot to me. We spent a lot of time together, like within in the first week we became close friends. Oh I forgot to mention her name, it's Andy. We were so different but so alike at the same time. She was deffo more chilled and casual, where as I tried to always put effort into everything I did. Andy was different to all of my other friends; she got me on a different level, which was weird but good at the same time.
Haha before I go on... Andy is not "her", she is totally straight, well as far as I know and we were more like sisters. So hold on, I'm getting to her.
Ok so one weekend, Andy went to see her brother, which meant I was left by myself. Well kinda, I still had my boyfriend (Jason). We were going to hang but he got dragged off with the boys. So yeah it ended up with Netflix and me. It was a pretty chilled evening, well up until when I went to the bathroom and slipped on ANDY'S TOWEL! I swear to god that girl is a slob. Anyway I went to the first aid room to look for an ice pack and I guess I got caught lol. The thing is you're not really allowed to go into that room without authority. I put my hands up and explained the situation; I then turned around and was taken aback by this person. She was like so cool. Like pretty as well but she had such an awesome vibe about her. She stood there and laughed at me for a good 10/15min, which wasn't fun at all. Once she was finished, she then sat me down and checked me out.
If you haven't caught on, she may be "her"...
She wouldn't let me leave the first aid room until I was in the clear. She told me to lie down on the bed and she would be back. I remember asking her not to go, that I was scared to be alone. She smiled a lot from that point and stayed with me. She sat on the chair and kept me awake. I learnt that she was 3
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year, studying to become an architect. She said she loves art and the idea of being in control of something, well everything. I was in awe of her, like I said she was super cool, so much confidence. She made me smile to the point that my cheeks were hurting non stop. I told her that and she apologised and then rubbed them for a bit. I was a little unsure on why she did that but then again I liked it. We talked about me also, it was a real conversation and I loved it. Hey it was better than just Netflix and me lol. After a few hours she said I was fine to go to sleep and she helped me back to my dorm. I stood in my doorway with her opposite me; I could barley look in her eyes. I remember her telling me that she will catch up with me tomorrow or something. When she left I collapsed on the bed and all I could think about was "her".
Ok so are you caught up? Yup she is her and I was totally lusting over her. The thing was, I just didn't know it. I remember back then I thought she was super cool and more like someone to look up to. I was 19 and she was 21, that's awesome to me lol. Anyway lets carry on.
When I woke up on that Saturday morning I heard a knock on my door; excited that it was her, I jumped out of my bed and quickly opened it. It was my boyfriend ready to take me out for breakfast. Although I was happy we were going to spend some time together, I was a little upset for some reason. Scratching my feelings I got changed and left with Jason to go eat. It was a nice breakfast date; he really does make me smile but its different to how she does it.
After several hours of hanging out, Jason had to get back to the boys and so I went up to my dorm. On the way up I walked into a door... my luck is generally bad but this, well this is extreme lol. I fell back and ended up sitting on the floor. When I looked up, I saw her. She was laughing to start with but then asked if I was ok. She knelt down, pushed a strand of my hair back,
I remember feeling shivers go through me, I got this weird feeling in my tummy,